AN: Hi! Thank you again for all the follows, favorites, reviews... I'm trying to make the chapters a little bit longer. I hope you like this one, I didn't think it would be this difficult to write, so be gentle with me ;)

Chapter 2. Open wounds

I'd been so engrossed in reviewing a new manuscript that I didn't notice how late it was until Sawyer entered my office.

"Mrs. Grey, we should leave now"

"Oh, I'm sorry, Sawyer. I didn't realize it was so late. And please, you know it's Ana, not Mrs. Grey"

"Right Ana, we should get going"

I said goodbye to Hannah, and while we were on our way to GEH I couldn't help but think about all the things I'd experienced in the last few months. Never, in my wildest dreams I would've imagined just a year ago that I'd now have an excellent job and I'd be married and with a baby on the way. That description sounded perfect though, which was far from my reality at the moment, so I felt that maybe this was a good moment to put some order in my life after these eventful months. Something that was easier said than done, the wild butterflies in my stomach being a clear indicator of the nervousness in me.

"Good morning Mrs. Grey, Mr. Grey is expecting you" Andrea said when we reached the top floor at GEH.

"Thank you Andrea" It was now or never, I thought to myself.

When I entered Christian's office, he was so fixated in the spreadsheets laid in front of him that he didn't even notice me. Either that or he expected me to make the first move.

"Hi" I realized I didn't even know how to approach him.

When he looked up I expected to see something in his gaze: apprehension, remorse, anything... but instead I was met with his impassive mask. The one he used when dealing with Mergers and Acquisitions. It seemed I would be dealing with Christian Grey, the shrewd business man.

I sat down in the exact same spot where I interviewed him, this time knowing full well how intimidating he could be.

"So, how was Portland?"

"Boring but productive"

"I'm glad" And then silence. "I didn't sleep at home last night" There. That should be able to get his attention.

"I'm sorry, what did you just say?"

"I'm staying at the Heathman for now"

"And you didn't think I would like to know this before now? And why the fuck did no one notify me of this? Fuck!" The calm fury look in his eyes was pretty scary. I understood he was getting angry, and honestly, so was I which was a good thing I suppose. If I was supposed to stand my ground, it was better this way.

"You promised you'd never leave" And then in one of his ever changing moods he looked at me with his best lost boy look. It always worked on me, although this time it wouldn't get him out of trouble.

"You also promised to comfort me in times of need. You vowed to protect and respect me and right now I don't think you're doing a great job at that. And besides, you've given me no choice Christian. Did you stop to think how I was feeling that night? How cruel it was that you ignored me for the past few days? How hard it was that you would seek Elena instead of talking to me?" I was straight yelling at that point and tears were streaming down my face. But oh how I needed to let it go.

"I'm twenty-two, Christian and we just got married. Don't you think this came as a surprise for me also? I've always known I wanted to have children, but obviously this was not a priority right now. However, the more I think about it, the more I love the idea of having created something out of our love"

If I was sure of something was that I would never regret Blip. He or she may have come a little bit early and unexpected, but the love I felt already was proof enough that this would be one of my biggest accomplishments.

"Ana, I...At first I was really angry at you. That's why I wasn't talking to you. I was afraid of hurting you more that I had already done after my reaction. But now, I don't know, I feel so helpless... I know I'm not father material, but at the same time I don't think I'm strong or selfish enough to let you go"

"So, that's it? Your only option right now is to wait until you gather enough courage to just go? That's bullshit Christian. I thought at least you'd fight for us" I was full on sobbing in that moment.

Christian left his spot and approached me, but I got up. This was not the way I imagined the conversation going. I think we were both beginning to understand that the wound this had inflicted on us was more profound than what we both expected. I thought that by leaving for a few days, things would work out in the end. But I didn't expect that reaction from Christian. And I didn't know how I would cope with the situation in hand.

Christian was now seated in the same spot I had just vacated, his hands covering his handsome face and the traitorous silence between us, revealing his soft cries.

"How can I fix this? Us?" He said, his voice barely a whisper.

"Christian, you need to understand that your actions have consequences on others, and right now, I think it's going to take a while for you to fix this. So, in the meantime, I would prefer to stay at the Heathman"

"No, please, stay at the penthouse, there are enough bedrooms for the two of us. You don't even have to see me if you don't want to. I just want to know that you are safe" His tone was showing the desperation he was feeling and it broke me to see him like that.

In return, I felt like the world crashing around me, and I was barely keeping it together. I needed to leave Christian's office immediately if I was to keep on my resolve.

"I don't think I can stay there if you are there too. I need to not see you right now, or at least know that I won't run into you"

"I'll go and stay with Elliot then. I want you to stay at the penthouse, Gail can look after you..."

"Ok" I knew that he needed me to give him that at least.

In that moment I knew that the conversation had come to a stand point. It was now time to go home and lick our wounds.

Did you expect this reaction from Christian? How do you think it's gonna play out? See you next week!

M.