Hey it is a me ! After a year ! Yeaaah ! I did a great job at updating didn't I ? So proud. Haha.

No in fact i'm sorry for the people who had liked the story (to my great surprise really... i didn't thought someone would read me, so thank you so much !)

To Raina Kai : no i do not feel like Elsa at all. I always been optimistic and rather happy ? Even though I had hard time i never had any thought like that. But thank you for you review ! I made feel soooooooooooo happy !

A bit of a disclaimer ; once again this is not perfect english, i tried my best and if it's really messy and impossible to understand, tell me i understand!

Plus, if you do feel distressed, depressed or something elsa, please talk about it. Be heard can do a lot. Don't think you'll be a burden if you speak, you will not. there will always be people willing to listen and/or help if you want to. Life is too precious. Take care of you.

I hope i will be able to post more regulary. It depends on a lot (like university, you know, not funny stuffs.) but I will try updating once a month. Underline the "try". I do not promess anything.

Anyway thanks for reading me, hope you enjoy it ! Don't hesitate to comment, bad or good i take !

Bye~

Anna watched her mother as she packed Elsa's stuff. She didn't dare coming in the room. Everything was just too much for her to handle. She didn't know how to deal with everything. There were too many feelings. She felt sad, and upset, and scared, and angry, and lost.

Most of the time, at this time of the year, Anna was happy, more than that. She was excited to go back to school, see her friends, doing stuff. She wasn't the best student; her grades weren't fantastic but she liked going to school. But right now, Anna didn't want to go back. She didn't know she was able to put a smile on her face and pretending everything was alright. Sure, the school had been informed of the situation but Anna had been forbidden to talk about it to anyone. She wouldn't be able to share her doubts, her fears and everything with her friends. She had to face it alone, as her parents didn't seem to be open to the conversation. She will have to put a fake smile an hide her feelings. It was too much for her. She was always so cheerful and sharing. She didn't have any secrets for her friends. She was used to tell them everything. How could she keep something like that to herself without exploding ? It was just too much for her. It would be strange to not see her sister as well. Not seeing her at the library or at lunch. Not being able to go to her if something happened. No, Anna didn't want to go back to school.

But she also didn't want to stay at home. In the air, she could feel the tension and the sorrow. Her father made sure that the "Elsa subject" was avoided as much as possible. Anna wasn't sure how to apprehend his father. For sure, he was more than sad about what Elsa did, but the way he was dealing with everything was so odd. Her mother was just quiet. But in her eyes, Anna could see how hurt was her mother. She was always giving the feeling she was about to cry. Anna wanted to hug her, like a way to say that she understood and it was okay to let go. But she was just so mad at them. She couldn't help it. She wanted to understand why they made that decision but all she could see was that they sent her sister away. Like she was so kind of burden that needed to be taken care. It felt like Anna didn't belong anywhere anymore. It was confusing and frustrating.

"Do you think I should take Olaf ? Elsa always had him when we were in vacation…"

Her mother's voice snapped Anna from her thoughts. Anna couldn't help it but to be upset at what her mother just said.

"It's not like she's going in vacation."

Anna instantly regretted her words when she saw her mother's shoulders dropped and her eyes looking down.

"Sorry mum.. Take Olaf. She will like it."

Her mother didn't say a word as she put Olaf in the suitcase and closed it. Then, she left the room without a look towards Anna. The strawberry blond sighed and headed back to her room, where she looked herself in and cursed. She couldn't help it. She was so mad. She sat on her bed and she felt a single tear rolling down her cheek. She wiped it away. She took her phone and looked at it for a few minutes. She wanted to talk to her friends. She wanted to be listen to. To have someone telling her it was okay to feel angry. Because in all the feelings she had, the most powerful one and the one she felt the most was guilt.

Guilt because she had been mean to her mothers. Guilt because she couldn't stop being mad at her parents for their decision. Guilt because she didn't saw that Elsa was in distress. And guilt because she was mad at her sister.

She just wanted to cry and let the tears flow. But she wouldn't allow herself. She had to be strong. For her parents, for Elsa et for herself.

Once again, she was at the hospital. She was watching her sister getting ready while the doctors talked to her parents. She couldn't hear a single sound. She saw the bandages around Elsa's wrists and looked her look on it without realizing it. Elsa realized what her sister was looking at and quickly hided her wrist with her sleeves. Anna then looked down and didn't dare looking anywhere else.

Her father clapped his hands, putting an end to the conversation. He took Elsa's baggage and the family headed to the car. The journey to the institution was dead silent. It wasn't a comfortable silence but an awkward one, filled with tension. Anna secretly hoped they were going home. It would a lot easier. But when she saw a large building surrounded by fenced, her heart dropped. She read on the large portal "Arendelle Hospital" in large letters and "Institution for young people". Anna dreamed for the letters to change in "Not for your sister" but as her father parked the car and everyone went out the car, Anna's dream vanished.

They presented themselves at the reception and didn't wait long before someone came to them. They went to a big room with chairs and a sofa. They were explained everything. For the first month, they would be no visit, no phone call, unless extreme emergency. For Elsa to recovery, she would be attending to group session with other people in the same situation. She would have a private session with a psychiatric. They wouldn't be giving her medicines at first but might have to, regarding her condition. She would have a room alone, as no resident shared a room. Of course, her parents could stopped everything if they wanted to but it was best not to and give it a try for a month or two.

Her parents nodded as they were listening while Anna wanted to scream that her sister didn't have a "condition" and that it would be best for her to be at home, surrounded by the people who loves her and cares for her. Elsa didn't really listen, or at least it seemed so. She was watching outside, in the garden. A few moments later, it was time to say goodbye. Anna's father taped quickly Elsa's back before taking a few steps back away from her. Her mother hugged her tightly. She didn't want to let her go. But Elsa pushed her mother away, gently. Anna didn't know what to do. Hug ? Wave ? She panicked. But Elsa took her hand and squeezed it hard. Anna locked her eyes into Elsa's. She could read fear in it. Anna wanted to cry so deeply. To tell Elsa that everything was going to be okay. That she would be out of it quickly, Anna would everything for it to happen. But she didn't have the courage to say something and Elsa let go of her hand and turned her back to her family, following the doctor. Without a look behind.

Not super long, sorry haha. Juste felt like writing tonight. When i was young i would write a lot but now i usually write homeworks. Yeah.

Hoped you enjoy it !

Thank you for reading !

Bisous :3