AN: Well, this chapter isn't my favorite, but i thought that i would give you guys something else. Enjoy, and please review!

Chapter 2

Beep Beep Beep

Meredith looked down at her pager and headed towards room 3073. She looked in at the little boy, sitting in bed beside his mother.

"Hey there, you must be Lucas." The little boy nodded his head and pointed to himself.

"Lu. I too" He held up two fingers and smiled at Meredith. Renae was smiling through her tears.

"Lucas I love you. Your are going to go and stay with auntie Anne, okay baby?"

"Mkay mommy, I wuv you." He gave his mother a kiss and a hug. She held onto him for a moment, and he stayed put, sensing that his mother needed him. "Bye mommy."

"Bye baby, I love you. I love you so much." Renae watched her best friend walk out of the room with her baby. She had told Anne to take him out, she didn't want him to be here if she didn't make it. Renae hugged herself and sobbed.

"Are you ready?"

"I guess." Meredith left as the nurses were wheeling her into surgery. She was about to head up to the gallery to watch when Derek stopped her.

"Do you want to scrub in?"

"Yeah. I would." Meredith smiled and headed to the scrub room. Her and Derek entered the OR and began Renae's surgery.

Two Hours Later

"She's flat lining, were losing her." Derek grabbed the paddles and placed them on Renae's chest. "Charged, Clear" Meredith watch as her body was lifted off the table but nothing changed on the monitor. "Charge to 300, Clear" Again, nothing. "360, Charged, Clear" Derek tried again, but nothing. In a last vain attempt to revive her he punched her in the heart. Nothing. Derek sighed as he began removing his head gear. "Time of death, 11:42 AM." Derek left the OR, as did Meredith. She wiped away a tear as she began washing her hands.

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Derek approached Renae Edwards family, them rising as they saw him "Mrs. Edwards, I'm so sorry, but we lost her on the table." Mrs. Edwards sank down to the floor, several other people taking a step back and crying also. "We tried everything that we could, but it was a risky surgery to begin with." "Thank you, and tell Dr. Grey thank you for us. She helped to calm Renae when non of us could be here." Derek nodded and went to find Meredith.

20 minutes later

"Izzie, have you seen Meredith?"

"No. And even if I had I wouldn't tell you. You-you break her. Just leave her alone."
Derek stood there as Izzie walked away. Maybe she was right. Maybe he should leave her alone. He began walking down he hall, but as he passed the on call room he heard a woman's sobs. He opened the door and walked into the dark room. Derek looked up and realized that he was right, it was Meredith.

"Mer, are you okay?" Meredith shook her head yes and let her tears run unchecked down her cheeks. Derek sat down by her and grabbed hold of her hand. "It'll be okay Mer, it will."

"No."

"What do you mean, no?"

"I mean no, it will not be okay Derek, it cant be, everything is too messed up, you chose Addison, you don't get to be my McDreamy. You lost that right when you chose her." Meredith got up and headed towards the door, trying to get away from the last person she had wanted to see.

"Meredith wait."

"No Derek, I'm tired of waiting, tired of everything, go back to your wife." Meredith opened the door and left, shattering all that was left of her fragile heart by closing the door on the man she loved and her child's father.