Matsu-tan: Chapter 3
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After the death of his father, Light was in a naturally quiet mood. Matsuda had wanted to embrace him and comfort him and cry along with him at the hospital, but he didn't want to display such affection for Light in front of the rest of the task force. So he knew he had to comfort Light back at the hotel.
After they entered the empty suite together, Matsuda muttered "Light, I should have pressed harder for the shinigami eyes."
Finally Light spoke. "No. This sounds selfish…but now I'm grateful it wasn't you."
"B-but your father…"
"At least it wasn't for nothing… the notebook is now out of criminal hands. But Mello must now be eliminated."
Matsuda wrapped his arms around Light. Light's shoulders shook a few times before he turned around, burying his face into Matsuda's suit and crying, pitifully. Matsuda only hugged Light tighter. Despite the sadness of the situation and the fact that Light was probably just faking as usual, Matsuda liked Light's current state. To have Light…Kira…someone usually so cool and serious make such emotional outbursts… it was like he was vulnerable and needed protection. And feeling as though he were protecting and comforting Light-kun… that made Matsuda feel as though he were on top of the world.
Unfortunately, he didn't know to what extent Light could act. Light had known exactly what would happen and still let the plan play out. The only mistake in the plan was his father dying before he could write Mello's name. But Light knew he needed to put on such emotional shows to gain trust from Matsuda. But the emotions still came easily. Was it because he was truly said? Or was it to please Matsuda? Or both?
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After an unsuccessful attempt to eliminate Near, Near had gotten Aizawa and Mogi to start suspecting Light again. It became necessary for Light to send Misa's death note to a guy in Japan to take the evidence off Misa and therefore himself. Matsuda was a bit jealous that this new guy was so attractive and obviously worshipped Kira… he didn't want to think of what would happen if they met in real life. But he knew this was necessary and was confident that he was Light's one and only.
Of course, after that first night together he realized he almost certainly wasn't Light's first. Light's relationship with Ryuzaki had suddenly made sense. But now Matsuda was Light's closest, and would be unless something drastic happened.
Then came Takada, Light's ex-girlfriend from college. The tension in the task force grew even more thick when they discovered Light's past connection with Takada. Matsuda wasn't jealous of Takada, though. He knew the truth about Light's preferences. He did feel a little bad for MisaMisa, though. When he was listening to Light's conversations with Takada, he couldn't help but blurt out how charming Light was or mock the love triangle between Light, Misa, and Takada. But he really wanted to know what went on during that conversation with Mikami!
Meanwhile, Aizawa had a hunch what was going on. Out of any of the task force, Matsuda was the one he couldn't let in on the conversations with Near. Because he knew they would only get back to Light. He wasn't sure to what extent their closeness was, but he knew Matsuda's loyal nature. There was even a possibility that Matsuda already knew Light was Kira. He would watch Matsuda very closely…
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January 27th. One more day until the final showdown with Near. Unfortunately, ever since they got back to Japan (and a couple weeks before), the rooms were no longer private. Aizawa was always staring down Light's back; and if he went anywhere alone, it would look suspicious and he'd be trailed anyway. But he had to spend this night with Matsuda. Collectively, the task force never seemed to sleep. If it wasn't Aizawa keeping watch, it was Mogi or Ide. But he needed this night alone with Matsuda.
"Do you guys mind if I shut the door tonight? Tomorrow will be a busy day and I want to be well rested when the case is solved."
Aizawa gave him stern look, but sighed. "Go ahead." There wasn't much that could be done now. Light was Kira and Light knew Aizawa knew it. But could he be planning something for tomorrow? Good thing he had already bugged the bedroom weeks ago just in case something like this happened.
An hour later, Aizawa was resting on the couch when he heard a sound pass him. Matsuda! On the other side of the room, Ide had already fallen asleep. Mogi, however, was also pretending to sleep. What was Matsuda doing in Light's bedroom? Once Matsuda was inside, Aizawa and Mogi put the headphones on and listened to the bugs.
"So how's my Matsubishie running today? I was think of taking him for a drive."
"Oh god Light, it feels like it's been ages."
Aizawa glanced over at Mogi. Mogi's eyes were bugging out a little more than usual. Those bastards knew the room was bugged.
"Light-kun, I'm kind of scared about tomorrow."
"Don't be. Kira's not going to be there. Only the SPK and task force know about this meeting… cheer up."
"I guess you're right…oh, Light-kun, that tickles!"
There was some snickering and some other sounds before Aizawa put the headphones down in disgust. "Keep listening Mogi. I'm taking a walk." Aizawa sulked outside for a bit. He was hoping for concrete evidence that Light was Kira. He could have beaten Near to the proof instead of taking a risk tomorrow. Light knew the room was bugged, otherwise they wouldn't have sounded so… lame. Well, Matsuda's response was probably genuine. Ugh, the only 'proof' they had now was that Light and Matsuda were gay!
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Light erased the messages on the touch screen PDA:
"Don't worry, I specifically told Mikami not to write your name."
"But everyone…"
"It has to be."
Light placed the PDA on his nearby pants. Back to the bed, he began tracing Matsuda's spine with his index finger until he shivered and turned around. He gripped Matsuda's chin and kissed him deeper than he had ever done before. The kiss slowly pushed Matsuda farther and farther down into the covers. The kiss then became a barrage of kisses down his neck, making their way down to his chest. Light was like a madman, almost fanatical, but Matsuda couldn't deny enjoying it. This was Kira using Light's lust for Matsuda for fun.
Matsuda interrupted Kira's frenzy by rolling him over and nailing him to the scattered sheets. Light looked up at Matsuda, surprised. And for a second or two, the surprised look on his face betrayed Light's true identity: a naïve child. The moonlight shined through a tiny part in the curtains and bathed Light's face in silver. All Matsuda could think of before their lips locked again was that he had never seen anything as beautiful. And even though the innocence had faded from Light's eyes along with the surprise, something from the days of L returned to them: Respect.
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Back in the main room, Aizawa returned from his walk. Mogi was still listening to the headphones. Aizawa picked up the other pair and listened. But he put them back down disgusted after only a few seconds. Well rested my ass!
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Next: The final showdown!
Author's Note: This chapter felt kind of incoherent and awkward? Hmm…