Ok, so it has been over a month since I updated, and I am sorry. It has just been crazy with finals and winter break and all this other stuff, so I am truly sorry. Please keep reading because it does help motivate me a ton!
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Abby Lockhart woke up shaking and sweating. It was unlike anything she had ever experienced. She groaned in pain. An orderly brought in a monitored dosage of pain meds. She swallowed them, and she tried hard to fall asleep.
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John Carter looked around the new hospital that was almost complete. The Joshua Carter Center. As happy as this moment was to him, he could only think about the one person who would haunt him in his dreams. Abby Lockhart. They could never be together, but they would always be friends. Besides, he loved Kem. At least that is what he would tell himself. Maybe he was supposed to be with Abby. However, John Carter knew better than to break up a marriage.
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Susan Lewis smiled at her son who was playing with Abby Lockhart's son. They were laughing and having a good time. Susan smiled, but inside she knew that Joe's life was only going to get better. She couldn't understand Abby at this point, but as long as her friend was getting the help she needed, everything was going to be ok.
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Abby Lockhart grabbed her blanket and headed towards the counseling group rooms. She was assigned to group B. Joy. She sighed. All she wanted was to go home and see her son and husband, but if she wanted to be a good wife and mother as well as a good doctor, she had to complete the program. She was determined to go through each step in order to get better. She wasn't doing this for herself. No. She was doing it for everyone she loved and everyone who was going to get hurt emotionally or physically by her actions. She couldn't do that to them.
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John Carter stood as his wife adjusted the bowtie again. She looked absolutely gorgeous. Unbelievably gorgeous. He took her by the arm and they walked to the limo. She had been a good sport about him helping Abby. But, there was a line that was blurring oh so quickly and that was not helping their already shaky marriage that they thought was going to work.
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Susan Lewis headed through the doors of E.R. It was her first day. She took a deep breath and pushed through the doors that she once called home. She remembered the day she walked through them the first time. She was starting off her residency. It was a scary thought how long ago that was. It was strange to be back for a third time. She was starting over at County for a third time. Somehow, she knew, County was always going to be here pulling her back in, and there was nothing she could do to stop it.
However, this third time, she promised herself, she would do everything different. Not because she wanted to be a better doctor. She was already a great doctor. County changed. Everything about it had changed from the time she walked through before her first day as a resident, to now. Thousands of patients walked through. Many doctors came and left. Some left willingly, others were pulled into an early death. And now, as she walked through the doors for the first time in four years, she thought about how she almost lost another great friend.
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"Abby, you haven't talked since you've been here. Would you like to share your story?" Abby gave her a deathly stare. No, obviously if she wanted to talk, she would. "No." The woman looked disappointed but understood. Some patients just took longer. Even a week ago, Abby's determination was higher. As the pain of being away from Joe and Luka had time to hit her, she became less willingly to open up to the program. If she wanted to see them, she had to do it. She couldn't fight it. She couldn't fight it.
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