Control
he sat in the bottom of the tub. He was not quite crying. Never quite crying. But he was heaving big, shaking breaths as he scrubbed his arms and his chest and anywhere else that shiro might have touched.
Which felt like every where.
"Why are you crying, ichigo? You wanted it as much as I did." his nose wrinkled at the very thought. He had wanted it. He had wanted it so bad something inside him had been screaming for it.
It was the masochist inside him, he was sure. He continued to scrub, wishing that he could just pop his brain out and scrub it till it was raw and free of the hollow's presence. Even thoughts of Shiro made him sick.
He took another deep breath, and stood up in the spray of the shower, washing off all the soap. Under the bubbles his skin was rubbed raw. He felt infected.
This was all his fault.
Maybe if he had beaten his hollow faster, been stronger, tried to reach his shinigami badge. Maybe, just maybe...
He could feel the hollow is question scowl in anger. "You're a damn flirt, ya know that? I tell you I love you so many times..." he left off in a huff, leaving an uncomfortable silence, before Ichigo crushed it brutally.
"You have no feelings. You're a monster, you disgust me, I hate it when you touch me. Understood?" his voice seemed to echo all over the bathroom titles. The hollow said nothing. There. Maybe that would get the message through.
Maybe he would never have to be so terribly confused ever again. He hated thinking of himself as a whore. But that's the way he had begged Shiro for more. Wanted it so bad...it appalled him. He finally stepped out of the bathtub, grabbing a towel and wrapping it around his waist. As he was about to leave, he was dragged back inside, and the door locked once more with an echoing click.
"Liar." Shiro whispered, advancing on Ichigo until the redhead was pressed against the sink counter, gripping it hard until his knuckles turned white. "You're a liar." the hollow didn't elaborate, instead choosing to kiss some sense into his king. His towel had long ago fell, and his cock was already rising at how close he was to Shiro, his tormentor.
His hormonal release.
Shiro grabbed his hips, grinding their pelvises together, make him break the kiss to moan, before it was quickly muffled by Shiro's hand. "Wouldn't want your family to hear us, would you?" Shiro ground his hips again, the rough fabric of the shihakusho driving him crazy with the need to feel and taste Shiro's skin against his own. Shiro got down on his knees, spreading Ichigo's legs apart a little, and holding down his hips. He sucked the tip of the precum covered head into his mouth, then a little more, slowly. He loved the way Ichigo tried to cover his mouth, moaning so loudly he was sure the entire neighborhood could hear him.
Ichigo made the perfect picture, naked and still a little damp. His hands clamped against his mouth as he screamed into his fists, trying in vain to keep quiet, to seem as if he didn't enjoy every fucking minute of this. It simply made Shiro angry.
He felt Ichigo cock twitch and jump in his mouth, and immediately released it with a wet little suck. His king was leaning against the sink, trying to regain his sanity after he almost came. So close to coming that it hurt to stop just then. But Shiro didn't give him enough time to think. He was flipped around so that he was bending over the sink, facing himself in the mirror.
"See that look on your face? Look at it and tell me you didn't just enjoy that." Shiro was right. His face spoke volumes.
He hated it.
He screamed when he suddenly felt Shiro push inside him. It hurt. No preparing no warning. He could already feel blood dripping down his leg. He braced himself against the sink as Shiro set a pace. He slowly got used to it, trying to muffle his loud moans with his hands. The hollow leaned forward, burying his face in his neck and taking a deep breath.
He screamed again when the hollow hit that place inside. He was losing control. It almost seemed as if he had never had any control in the first place. "Oh god, Shiro, more please!" he cried out, biting his fingers in another vain attempt to keep quiet. Shiro gave a few good thrusts, and came, leaving him twitching, and whimpering quietly, because he needed release so bad. "Please..." he choked out, sliding down onto the tiles of the floor.
"If you want it... do it yourself." Shiro whispered back, kissing his lips gently, and directing his hands to his erection with a smirk. He blushed, gently taking hold of it, hissing with pleasure. He pumped up and down, his eyes closing. But he could still see Shiro in his mind, giving him that hungry look that he hated and adored. He moaned quietly when he felt Shiro's hands dancing along his chest.
He was losing control, faster than he could grip it or remember it. He was slipping into this black humid need that was suffocating him. He pumped faster, moaning as Shiro kissed him. This was pushing him over the edge.
Shiro watched his king, loved the beautiful sight he was provided with. Maybe now, King would realize the truth. "Are you lying to yourself right now, your majesty?" he whispered, biting king's ear gently. Ichigo moaned again, his had increasing it's pace. That was a no. king knew it now. He loved King so much.
"Fuck... shiiiirooo... oh god..." Control was a long forgotten thought as he felt himself get closer, felt Shiro's eyes on him, that hungry look. Control didn't make a difference in the face of pleasure. He could kill himself for this later. He opened his eyes slowly. "Please...touch me." Shiro's face reddened as his hand replaced ichigo's. he felt his body go ridged. He bit his fist, screaming loudly as he came over Shiro's hand.
Control meant absolutely nothing. He watching shiro lick his fingers clean, his face going red. He couldn't stand this.
He hated everything about his hollow. Because Shiro had more control over him than he did. It did not work vive versa.
But he'd be lying if he said he didn't want it.
He'd be lying if he said he even wanted this to be controled.
OWARI
finnally. Do you have any idea how dangerous it is writing smut when ur mom is right beside you?! you people are lucky I love you so much! Review!