There's much going on in this Scene, hope you'll enjoy it and as always that the mistakes are not so bad.
Thank you for the support:
I won't forget this story Milena, I swear! Feel free to kick me in the you-know-what () if I'll do it.
Anyway, Spikesagitta, I'm afraid that for a cheerful chapter you'll have to wait a bit, drug problems and addiction are not really happy subjects…
Vanessa, I'm flattered, really hope you'll like this 4th scene, which is mostly about Michiru, and represents for me some kind of real beginning.
Reusch17, thanks for your comment, I actually really like to emphasize some concept in a plot and I'm glad you liked it.
RukaMichi92, you'll see the better side of Haruka soon, but not yet, just some glimpse for now, often good things are hidden under a lot of bad stuff.
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Scene IV
It's when you realize that happiness is simply something that you can feel for a brief moment, it's that moment when the goal looses its importance to give way to the experience of reaching it.
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Michiru
I can't stop thinking of her pale face this morning, the fear in her eyes, the trembling lips…
It's already 8pm and there are still no signs of her, although, when I came back from rehearsal her car was already in the garage, I wonder where she is, I wonder if there's something I can do, I wonder if I'm the problem, if it's just because I'm too weak to help her, I wonder why I can't just tell her that I love her, and I want her to be happy, that I'll do anything for her, that I'll always be there no matter what, I wonder why I shout at her and push her away instead of just saying this words…
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A strange noise from upstairs… I climb the stairs ready to react in case someone broke in the house, ready to react most of the things that could possibly happen, but when I slowly open the door of the loft, the scene in front of me is simply shocking.
Haruka is on the floor cuddled like a baby, closed in herself, her stare is empty and distant, her entire body shaking, with no expression, tears freely runs down her pale face, I'm inches away from her and don't really know what to do, if I should say something, if I should do something, her voice almost makes me jump when she softly speaks in a monotonous tone "I love you…" is the only thing I need to take her in my arms as she stays motionless "I love you too…"
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I made her an energetic dinner, no other words escaped the jail of her confusion, nothing but that revelation, something that we both know very well, we are eating in silence cause none of us doesn't really need to say something.
While I'm doing the washing up, she seats on a chair, suddenly a ring tone, Helen's ring tone on Haruka's phone, fills the air, her mobile is placed on the fridge and she's looking at that spot with the same expression that would have a child who, knowing that he has done something wrong, doesn't know if answer a parent call.
I look directly in her eyes "it's up to you… I won't stop you if you want to answer, it has to be your decision…" her teal eyes locks with mine "I don't know what to do…" she's genuine, she doesn't really know what to do,
I smile at her "is it true?"
Confusion all over her face "what?"
"is it true that you love me?"
she just nods and I now I've made my decision, I pick up the phone-
"Haruka, baby?" her voice makes me sick,
"Helen, It's Michiru here, I'm afraid that Haruka doesn't wants to see you anymore!" I'm harsh, my tone is cold and her sudden laughter takes me aback,
"What lil' sis, can't she speak her mind? Or you're controlling that too?"
I have enough of it "Just believe me Helen, if you'll even try to see her again, I'll make sure you'll regret it!"
She's laughing even more "Michiru, I'm telling you, I know she doesn't love me, as I know that she loves what I can offer her, more then you…"
"You know nothing about her!!" I don't want to hear these words, but she keeps talking…
"She'll come back, that's what addicted do, they go back to their addiction and they lie lil' one, she'll lie at you, she'll tell you the lies that she doesn't need to use with me, she doesn't have to keep nothing hidden from me, who's the one that doesn't know her for real?"
"Shut up!!" I know what she's trying to do, and I know I should stay calm, but what if she's right? It happened other time, never this way, but it nonetheless happened, what if I will not have the strength to keep her from going back to her?
Her laughs are driving me crazy "and, ah…Michiru, your tour over Europe will start in less then two weeks, is it right? I guess I'll have to wait that much, I'll see you later lil' sis!" with this last statement she hangs up the phone as I shiver-
"sorry…" Haruka stares at the floor, I don't want to put more pressure on her, what she's trying to do it's already really hard and I won't make it even more difficult…I have to keep my doubts for me and I won't tell her what's running through my mind, as much as I need her to answer my questions… I just smile…
"You don't have to be sorry, just promise me Haruka that you'll really try this time…" she stands up and her fragile body seems to be the strong one of when she was healthy as she embrace me, we stay in silence cause none of us doesn't really need to say something.
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Haruka
There are so many questions in my mind right now, I over heard Helen's word today and they're hunting me down, maybe she's right, maybe it's just a question of time before I'll have to beg her to fulfil my addiction, maybe I'm just too selfish, maybe I just want Michiru all form me… yeah maybe it's just a pathetic move to feel the warm of her love for some time and then, as addicted do, go back to my icy routine… so undeserving I am…
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The door opens, her back is the first thing I see, she's using it to hold the door as she's apparently reaching for something, seconds later and now she's looking at me with a big smile on her face, "I thought you might like a dessert!" in her hands, she's carrying a tray, on top of it, two steaming mugs and a plate of fresh backed cookies, the air is filled with a delicate chocolate aroma, I instantly smile back at her and stand up to help her.
It's been ages since the last time I saw her smile like this, my beautiful Michiru…
Tonight's atmosphere remembers me of when we first moved together, it was not always fight and tragedy for us, she's has been amazing with me, respecting my spaces, my moods, caring for me as she still does when I give her the chance, but you don't always chose friends for good reasons, that's why I ended up with Helen.
My relationship with Helen has always been very controversial, it felt almost sick most of the time, it started with me feeling the need to talk about what was going on my mind and not wanting to burden my sweet, loving step-sister, she was willing to listen and helped me get distracted.
Life was fun with my charming mistress; she was proud of showing me around, she was like some kind of stepmother, buying me stuff, bringing me to fancy parties, then one day after one of those parties, she throw me a little box, " a gift!" she said smiling at my drunk confused expression, when I opened it I saw it was my long time lost friend… cocaine.
We made love that night and the nights after, I felt grateful to this woman who was taking my thoughts away…
At the beginning I decided to keep it cool with Michiru, I tried to be as normal as possible, and to tell the truth, it wasn't that difficult to be cheerful and active, but as soon as too many of my late nights started to became early mornings, my personality started to fall apart, I needed cocaine to feel better, joints to calm down after too much cocaine, that's when she started to get suspicious.
When I saw her expression the day that she caught me, I knew that she was shocked, not even mad at me, just really sad and disappointed, in that moment I was so fucked that the only thing I cared about was that bloody poison so I went to threaten her, to tell her to stay away from my business.
I never found the courage to say that I was sorry and the days after I kept finding myself unable to do it, so after weeks and later on months, the only thing that was left of us was the eco of the fights and yells all around the house and now that that horrible sound is replaced by her giggles and light laughter I find myself for once in while, even if it's just for one night, just enjoying myself without feeling the need of being happy at every cost…
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She's asleep in my arms her face is relaxed, she's not shaking, her eyes are not puffy or irritated, she's not fighting, she's not yelling at me, not asking me to go away, she's giving me a second chance and not matter what Helen says, this time I'll deserve it.
'I'm thinking of you Michiru and even if the leafs are still falling, this time I won't find my self alone and lost, I could be the one dying, but with you now, I hope I can do something about it…'