Hey sorry that it took me so long to update but I had a lot going on in the last months. I try to update more from now on, because the german version of this story is finished and I just have to translate it.

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Chapter 5

Lorelai was running trough Stars Hollow for over an hour now to find Rory, but nothing. She went to Luke's Diner, to Lane's, asked Miss Patty and searched everywhere, but without succsess.

She nearly lost her mind and wanted to call the police when she stopped in her tracks. There was only one place where she hadn't looked jet. She ran as fast as she could and when she arrived she saw someone sitting on the bridge. She immediately ran to Rory's side and sat down.

„Hon, what are you doing here? Why did you run away? What have I said to make you so furious?" She asked her daughter.

Rory looked at her with tears in her eyes. „I'm sorry Mom, but I couldn't stand this anymore. You haven't said anything wrong, but I couldn't sit there and do like nothing was wrong, I can't do this. Nothing is like it's supposed to. He isn't there anymore and he will never come back, I just miss him so much. I don't know if I can live without him. I really tried it, but it's so hard." She started to cry evan more and Lorelai took her in her arms and hugged her tight. She was so incredibly sorry for her daughter. She kind of new how her she must feel about Logan's death, but Rory never said how much it really got to her and what really happened. Maybe this secret would finally be revealed today.

„Sweetie, don't you want to tell me what happened to Logan? Maybe it will help you, maybe I can help you better, if I know. Tell me please?" Lorelai said and tucked a strand of hair behind her daughter's ear and rocked back and fourth a little.

It took a while until Rory started to speak. She tried to find the right words and strength to talk about it.

„He went on trip with the Life and Death Brigade. Another stupid and dangerous action. They went to the sea, to jump from a stupid cliff. I tried to hold him back, but he would't listen to me. The whole time I had a crazy feeling in my stomach but he didn't care. I told him to think of his daughter, but he just said that everything will be alright and then..." She couldn't talk anymore, the tears were to strong and she just buried her head in her Mom's jacked and cried. Lorelai herself had tears streaming down her face.

„ Oh Rory, I'm so sorry, thats so terrible. I don't know what so say." She just hugged Rory tighter. After a minute Rory continued.

„The Policeman said on the day they wanted to jump, was a terrible storm but they jumped anyway. I guess they thought it would give them a special kick or something. They din't care that they risked their lifes with this until Logan crashed into a rock." She started to cry again.

„He was dead immediately!" She clung to her mother and started to shiver. Lorelai just held her and let her cry, she hoped it would help her.

„He just would't listen to me and now he is't there anymore. I'm so mad at him for leaving us, how could he do this? How could he think, that we could live without him? I miss him so much Mom!"

„I know Sweetie, I know. And I can fully understand that you are mad at him, but you can't change it. He won't come back. You have to try to get over it, I know it will be hard and you are not sure if you can do this, but I'm here and Luke is here. The whole town is there for you for gods sake. I know you can do this, together we pull through this. If you don't do it for you, than do it for your daughter. She needs you more than anything in the world."

Rory just nodded yes but left her head on Lorelais shoulder. They both sat there a little bit longer, hugging each other tight. Both deep in their own thoughts.

„I'm hungry!" Loralai said after a while and Rory looked up. After a few seconds she began to smile a little.

„Yea me too. Let's go to Luke, I have to catch up on breakfast."

Both brushed the remaining tears off their faces and went to Luke's.

While they ate, both chatted about everything but the earlier subject, both had enough of sadness for the whole day.

When they came home Lori was sitting at the coffee table and colored, while Babette was sitting on the couch. When the door opened, the little Girl sprang to her feet after she saw who came in.

„Mommy!"

„Hey Pumpkin, did you have fun with aunt Babette?" Rory asked her daughter after she took her in her arms.

„Yea, telled funny storys and colored." Lori told her mother, who had to smile at her daughters pronunciation. She sat her back on the ground and Lori showed her the pictures she made.

„Thanks Babette for watching her, I hope she wasn't too much trouble." Lorelai said.

„Oh no Doll, she was an angel, we had fun. Tell me when you need my help again."

„Thanks Babette, I really appreciate it." Babette said her goodbyes to the Gilmore Girls and left trough the front door.

„Hmm what do you think? Should we make a movie night a la Gilmore? Lori has to catch up a lot." Lorelai asked Rory with a smile on her face. She missed those nights with her daughter. Maybe it would help Rory to think of something else for a bit. Rory loved the idea and all three of them made themselves comfortable on the couch, Lori between Lorelai and Rory.

When Luke came home that night, bringing dinner, he joined them for a bit, but went to bed not long after. He wanted to give them the time. He took Lori with him, who fell asleep a while ago and put her in her bed.

Rory and Lorelai watched the movie until the end and laughed, even Rory made stupid jokes about the actors and had a great time with her mom. She lay her head on her mothers shoulder and both fell asleep snuggled up together on the couch.