Chapter 6:

Bella:

The past two weeks have been a blur for me. I remember things but I don't remember how I did them. I have been so preoccupied. I miss Edward and I never thought I could miss someone as much as I miss him. I fought with my dad so much to let him stay, but my dad said it wasn't safe for him to be here. To be associated with us. I almost told my dad I can't be without Edward because I lo-like him, alot. Ha, I don't believe in love one reason is because when I get close to loving someone, they are usually ripped away from me. Or somethng far worse. But I like Edward so much that I almost love him. Almost. Hell, I don't know what I am saying anymore, everything just seems messed up. I shouldn't have these feelings for him. I barely know him. And yet he makes me feel complete and I feel I can tell him everything and anything. I want to tell him so badly. This has been eating at me since the day I told him I could never see him again. This freaking sucks. Ugh why can't things just work out like they do in movies and books? My life will have no happy ending, I am sure. Especially now that he is gone.

I sat in my desk for our Bio class. I looked over at the empty chair where he used to sit and look at me. And I would pretend to not care or notice. Now I am pretending he is still in that chair. If I imagine real hard, I can almost smell him. Hear him. Taste him.

It pains me he won't be back. Edward. My Edward. Is really not coming back.

I could not take it anymore, I left the school. I ran as fast as I could. People were staring at me as I took off in my car. But I didn't care.

Edward (One week later):

I stared out of the car window, my mind focused on Bella. I wondered what she would be doing at this exact moment. I checked my watch and realized that right now I would be in Biology, next to her. Looking at her and pretending she doesn't notice. I know she notices me when I look at her. She trys so hard to hide it. But I see it. I keep thinking about that day in her room. I almost told her I loved her. How silly am I? You don't just go around telling people you love them. I don't even know her that well. And yet, saying those words to her would have felt so right. And I even have the feeling she would not have freaked out. Of course, it is only a small feeling...Who knows, she mighthave thought I was crazy. Maybe I am crazy.

Now I am on my way back to my old life. It is funny that just mere weeks ago, I would have been ecstatic at this thought. But now, I miss her. And all I think about is her. And that last day with her in her bedroom...

"It's not safe for you."

I wonder what she meant by that. It's a strange coincidence that right after she said those words, my dad's boss was killed in a gang attack. Maybe she knew it was coming. Maybe she is psychic or it could just be a coincidence. A very strange, rare coincidence.

Jasper pulled into our school parking lot and we all piled out of the car. Emmett slapped hands with some of his old football teammates in the hallway. Alice and I just walked straight to where our new lockers were assigned since our old ones got reassigned. I went to first hour American History and stopped dead in my tracks when I saw her. It was Bella.