A/N: What is this?! Two chapters in one day!? How absurded!! Well, nap time is over and I was bored. Only two more hours before I can take another painkiller... And yes, this is E PoV. I said he was next...

I hate pain... --

Disclaimer: I've told you already!! NOW STOP BOTHERING ME!! AHHHHH!!

(Edward's PoV)

The sound of tires stopping vaguely rung in my ears. I was too dumbfounded and heartbroken. Dumbfounded because Emmett - the one person who I never thought would be able to track! - tracked me down and forced me to come back. Heartbroked because I was away… from her. My angel. My only true reason for living. Sure I had Esme and Carlisle, and, of course, my siblings, but everything ceased to mean anything without her in my life.

Bella.

Even now my heart, cold and dead, lurched in pain. She had let me leave so easily, so easily believe that I didn't love her, that just the mere memory of her face sent shivers down my being.

I missed her.

But she doesn't need me anymore, My mind said, She never loved me like I loved, no, like I'll always love her. I always knew that. My mind tortured me with images of her with a man, someone like Mike Newton, enjoying the life she could never have with me, the physical relationship I could never had with her.

My fists balled up, my anger about to explode.

Edward, are you alright?

I looked over to the passenger window to see Alice opening the car door, her face contorted into one of agony. Edward, are you sure this was for the best? I've been doubting your decision before but even I couldn't stand that car ride from the Airport.

"Yes, Alice." I nearly growled as I pushed her out of the way and walked out of the car. Alice followed right behind me.

"Edward," She said, "Please! You look terrible! No one should suffer like this!" She grabbed my arm.

"You're wrong." I whispered, "I should suffer. I'm a monster." Before she could say anything else, I ran up to the front door and nearly ripped it off the hinges.

I saw Esme and Carlisle standing at the stairways, but that was just minor to what I really saw.

The house. Just looking at it put pressure on my heart. It was so similar, this new house to the old house. Where she and I…

I shook my head, trying to clear my head of those deadly thoughts.

"How are you, Edward?" Carlisle asked, wrapping his arm around Esme. I flinched.

He looked confused for a second before realizing. Sorry, he thought as he let go of Esme and held her hand instead.



"I am well, Carlisle." I replied, my voice cracking. "Although, I would like to go to my room, if you don't mind."

As soon as Carlisle nodded, I ran up the stairs up to what was I guessed my room – it was fairly obvious as this house was almost a perfect mimic to the old on-, locked the door and curled up in the smallest corner I could find. My eyes shut as my family tried to reach through to me, using their thought to try and convince me to come out. They tried using what they thought were good memories to lure me out. All it was doing was breaking my heart.

Emmett kept thing about wrestling, how we needed a rematch and that nothing was going to stop him. Esme's thoughts were comparing Forks to this new land. I didn't even bother to find out where I was. All I knew is it's wasn't Forks. Jasper was consciously avoiding my room, from what his thought said. I must be depressing him, what with him feeling my emotions.

Everyone else's thoughts were close to Alice, remembering the good time we had with Bella, even though no one except me actually said good bye. Only Rosalie thought were different, which didn't surprise me. She was glad we left. She rather be anywhere than Forks. From her mind she was just waiting till I left so she and Emmett could go on a second honeymoon.

I didn't listen to their thoughts. Instead, I curled up even tighter in my cornet, keeping myself fully from the light. All I wanted to do was punish myself. Punish myself for not being good enough. For not being what Bella needed. For not proving to her how much I loved her. And for lying to her, telling her that I didn't want her to come with me. If I had any chance of heaven, I had shot them down in that instant. Because lying to her was the worse mistake I have ever made in my existence.

One that I will never be able to rectify…

Ok, yeah, this seems like it was a filler, but you will need to know this a little later... and I didn't want to wait... cause I was bored... and in pain...

Lord, let me get some sleep...

FoF