A/N: Ok, I thought I should post this before I go to the doctors. To put this into perspective, this is one week later since Bella's resolution... in Edward's PoV. Next chapter will be in Bella's PoV and then a quick change to Edward before I try and figure out a good way to end this story. xD

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One year…

One year since her birthday.

One year since I made that resolution that she was better off without me and left everything that made my life worth wild.

I can't believe it has been one year.

In all honesty, it feels like it's been forever since I've seen her.

My family prepared for this day and planned an all day hunting trip for Jasper. He's been hurting ever since I came back. All because I came home and brought my misery with me.

Perhaps I should run again.

Maybe somewhere in Africa. Nah. Too sunny. Antarctica. Yeah, that could work.

Nice try, Edward. Emmett would just track you. Although it would be easier now that I see your plans.

Damn, Alice. I forgot she was still here.

She had told the family that she had recently hunted, with proof to back it up. Jasper had asked her to come to and she nearly caved. Then I heard her whisper to him that she was just staying to make sure I was ok.

She was annoying…

I tried to diver my attention and moved from my small corner. I felt weird. I hadn't moved in a few days, so I brushed it off quickly. I walked slowly over to my couch and for a split second, I could see myself sitting there, holding Bella in my arms. I shook my head. Great. I was delusional. Just another thing to add to my list.

But my mind wasn't done tormenting me. I watch with silent eyes as my mind gave me a memory relapse. I watched as Bella first walked in my room, noticing how normal it was. That I wasn't just a Hollywood version immortal. That I actually had interests. That I wasn't just a killer.

I had wonder what was going on in her head at that moment.

Then she had asked me a normal question. About my CD's. I answered the truth, which was getting easier. I wanted her to know my secrets. I want her to know everything about me! I wanted to know everything about her! I want to know everything, from the biggest thing in her life to the small little intricate detail.

I love her that much.

And yet…

A choked sob escaped my throat.

I had let her believe the biggest lie in my existence. That I didn't love her.

After I had a great enough distance that I knew she wouldn't catch me, I fell on my knees. How could she? How could she have she believed that hideous blaspheme? Hadn't I told her many times that I loved her?! Didn't I prove my love!?

Was this how Romeo felt when he was separated by the law from Juliet? This anguish?

But, maybe, did he ever think this was for the better? That, with Paris, she would have a better life?

I sat down on my couch, and placed my head in my hands. Was it possible to get a headache?

Suddenly, someone knocked on my door.

"Go away." I said, sighing. "I don't need anything."

I knew she would, but I had hoped Alice would have left me alone. She came quietly in, being very quiet, even for a vampire. "Yes, you do, Edward." You need to go back.

I growled, "No."

"But why," She yelled, sounding exasperated, "You need to! Look at yourself, Edward. You're falling apart. We all love you Edward and see you like this… it's killing us!"

I moved my head up from my hands. Alice was staring me down, her arms crossed over her chest in anger. "This was never about me, Alice. You know that." I said, keeping my voice as calm as possible. "It was about what was best for her."

"What was best for her…" Alice said, mimicking my voice. "Well, for your sake, she'd better. If she isn't, I'll hurt you.

I nodded and sighed, placing my head back in my hand and closing my eyes. Instantly, I saw my Bella, her beautiful vibrant brown eyes, her full brown hair, and her lips, her sweat lips.

The vision was distorted when I felt a hand on my shoulder. "We all can't take this, Edward. Esme's tearing herself up because she wants to help so badly. Jasper feels badly. He's been trying to help, but this depression is killing him too. And I hate seeing my brother keeping himself away from the woman he loves. You don't have to play God, Edward, trying to help her. You just have to be there for her. Be her."

I remained silent for a second before twisting my head up, "Did you prepare this speech or is this of the top of your head?"

She forced a chuckle, "I couldn't believe you didn't hear what I was up to."

I sighed and watched as the sun finished rising in the sky. I watched as Alice stood up and walked toward the door. She stopped at the door frame. "Please, Edward. Reconsider. Just go back and see. That's all I ask. She if she's alright."

"Why don't you look?" I retorted, hearing the life die in my voice.

She stood at the doorway before saying, "You asked me not to keep tabs on her. So I won't. You need to go. You need to see for yourself. And not through a vision." And with that, she shut the door behind her and walked off.

I sat there, staring at the morning sky. Should I go? Would it give me closure? Or would it tear me apart inside like my memories do?

It was less than a second before Alice came running in my room. "We need to leave NOW!!" She screamed.

I was up in less then a second. Was she just trying to get me out of the house?

And then her thought froze my dead heart even more.

Bella's dying!!

And I saw her vision:

Bella was lying somewhere – I couldn't really tell, it was completely dark – and her breathing was extremely labored. She was clothed in a white hospital robe and her skin was pale white. Her hands were shaking.

No!!

I snapped myself into reality. Alice was already moving about. I followed suit, reaching for my phone when Alice beat me to it.

"You get ready. NOW!!" She yelled as she put the phone

I didn't know what to do. My mind was in panic. What was wrong with her? Was she sick? Why was no one near her?

Why the hell was she dying?!

"Alice," I asked, "How much time do we have?" Would we even make it?

She closed her eyes for the quickest second before answering, "We have to at least midnight tonight. We needed to leave an hour ago."

I nodded and hurried to the car. As soon as I pulled it to the front of the house, Alice came out. "I left a note. I'm coming with you."

"Alice –"

"No," She hissed as she shut the car door. "I'm coming. I want to see what happened. Why she's like this."

I didn't saying anything as we reached the main road. My only concern was that we were going to make it. We had to make it.

Or my life would cease to me anything to me.

Bella. Hold on…

A/N: Well, that's pretty much all for now. See ya!

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