A/N: Well, hello all. And how are we today? xD

Thank you everyone so far that has read my story. You all rock.

Oh! And I just had someone PM me and ask (( Ok, My friend asked me)) : Where are the Cullen's at right now? Global Wise.

Answer: They're in Ireland.

Sometimes, all you want is to run away, while sometimes, you just want to say where you are and be alone.

I wanted the second.

I was currently outside, supposedly enjoying the sunlight in a pair of jeans and a pink tang top. But inside I was shaking.

I wanted to stay indoors…

Because I had run out of time. I was now officially 19.

And forever I would stay.

That breakfast a week ago, I had asked Kelly if she could give me some of her meds. If it were not for the fact that we were in an enclosed setting with guards twenty feet away from us, I think she would have stood up and yelled at me. All she did was stare at me with a wide mouth. A few seconds later and she whispered, "Why?" I didn't give her much of a reason, just told her that I didn't feel needed anymore.

"Alright," She finally said as she watched Beth walk back, "I'll do it. Just promise me you'll try to find a reason to go on."

I agreed, half heartily. I really had tried. I had been trying. So, it didn't seem to me that there would be any reason to continue.

The rest of the week went on as my resolution grew stronger. I knew it, the end was coming.

And now, here it was. Noon, on my birthday. Just another day in the world.

All of a sudden, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned around to see Kelly, holding a colorful box with a ribbon and an envelope on top.

"Happy Birthday." She whispered, giving me a small smile. It sounded forced. But what confused me was how in the world did she get a wrapped present in here?

She noticed my confusion and said, "I had a visitor- my brother, Kevin- come a week ago and I asked them to get me something for you. I made the card myself. Then, my brother came back yesterday, bringing your present and this beautiful wrapping paper. Of course they had to search it, but it's still good." She sat down next to me and handed me the card.

She had drawn a little angel holding a little light. I opened it and read it aloud:

"To the little light that holds so much. Hope you have a happy birthday! Love, Kelly."

I smiled, "Thanks, Kelly."

She held out the present and I took it, whispering thank you once again and I opened it.

It was a shoe box.

"I wanted you to have a good memory." She giggled, "All we have to do is find Dr. McKinley."

I giggled and lifted the box. Inside was a nice new pair of shoes. They were blue, with a small mark above the heel. I believe it was Nike, but I wasn't sure.

"Hope you like it." Kelly said, giving me a hug. The guard was instantly near us and escorted me away.

As I looked back, I could have sworn I saw tears in Kelly's eyes.

"Ok, well, that's everything." Susan said, making a final check around the room.

I smiled, looking out toward the half moon, "Yep, I guess that is."

She turned back toward me. "That moon is pretty tonight." She said, "But it would be better if those clouds weren't in the way."

I nodded, then coughed, "Um, Susan, could I have a water bottle?"

She smiled and nodded, "Sure. I have to give you a small one though. Is that alright? Cause I'll have to stay in here if you want a big one."

I shook my head, "No, no. A small one is fine. My throat feels a little dry."

She nodded then left the room. I sighed and looked around my room for the last time. I had my card right to the bed, already having solved Kelly's riddle. My present was by the side of the bed.

I looked at the moon above one last time. I wonder wherever I end up, if I'll still see the moon?

Then, the unexpected happened. (A/N: No. Not Edward… yet. xD)

A shooting star passed over the moon. It was only there for a second, but I closed my eyes and quickly made a wish.

It was childish, I know. But I wanted the comfort, I wanted my last thought, whether it was on drugs or not, to be of him.

"I wish for him to be happy. I wish that he will find someone that will make him happy for all of eternity."

I heard the door creak open and Susan walked in. "Here's your water."

I smiled and nodded, "Thanks." I took the small bottle from her and took a small sip. "Good night, Susan."

She smiled back at me before shutting off the lights, "Good night." Then she shut the door.

I whispered back, "Good night and Goodbye."

I lied down in bed for a few minutes while the nurses finished tucking everyone in bed. After I was sure that no one would come in, I leaned over the side of the bed and grabbed the shoes from the floor.

I reached inside both shoes before finding an opening in one of the soles of the shoes. It was a plastic bag, with six little pills inside.

Zoloft. Six days worth.

She had been screaming for six days, just to give this to me.

Tonight, she wouldn't be screaming. She would be sleeping.

Did I really want to do this? Did I want to take my life away?

I closed my eyes and opened my mouth, putting all six pills in my mouth.

I quickly reached over and opened the water, pouring it all down my mouth, taking the pills with it.

It was done.

By midnight tonight, Isabella Marie Swan would cease to exist.

As it should be…

I hid the plastic bag back in the shoes and set them back the way they were. I did the same with the water bottle .

As I lied in my bed, I did nothing but think of Edward. Even if my heart kept breaking, I would only want him in my thoughts as I died.

I remember all the good times. The time in Port Angelus went he saved me. When I first met his family. Must the most important memory I kept was that of the meadow, when he first showed me haw he sparkled.

Whoever he did choose to love would be lucky. They would forever hold a beautiful gem, a rare diamond.

After a while, I started feeling funny, hot even. My breathing quicken, and my palms were sweating. I knew this was the end. My hands started shaking out of control and my vision started getting blurry.

I kept my eyes on the moon, making myself stare at it until my eyes could no longer stay open.

So it didn't mean anything that the clouds covered the moon, just as I fell asleep.

My final sleep…

A/N: Well, I hope you enjoyed. And on a side note, as I've been dying to bring this up ((No pun intended)), who all liked Breaking Dawn !? I know I did. And I loved the party!

I got a picture of Bella's truck!! xD

Yes, I'm bored...

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