The Fine Line Between Hatred and Love
Chapter 3: Heartbreak
On the previous chapter…
Darien's POV:
Why doesn't she answer! Does she really hate me? Oh, I just wish she could answer quickly, I'm… beginning to panic.. stay calm Shields.. stay calm…
After a lot of thinking, she knew what she had to say.
¨Darien…I…¨ she looked at his eyes and..
Chapter 3: Heartbreak
¨I'm really sorry…, but I… don't feel anything for you, …..and even IF I did… I have a boyfriend …and..¨ she looked away, her heart almost breaking at what she was saying, but didn't know why she felt that way. She knew that even if she was in love with him she couldn't just break up with John…it wouldn't be fair….wait..
Serena´s POV:
Wait, I DON´T feel that way about him, do I?, I mean it's Darien we are talking about here, and…I have John, he loves me…but so does Darien… oh God I'm so confused. I don't know how I feel anymore. Maybe …if I ask him for a little more time I can sort out my feelings, and give him a proper answer. I think…that's what I need to do. But what about John, will he accept to take some time off from being together for me to sort things out, will he accept that I may like someone else…
Darien's POV:
So…I guess it is hopeless… I just thought that maybe…just maybe I had a chance, I bet she can't wait to get out of here and go back into his arms. I better let her leave before she hates me anymore than she does now…
Regular POV:
¨Umm… Serena, you can go now if you want to…I know you are dying to be at his side. You don't have to bother in taking care of me just…just go…¨ he said on the verge of tears
¨ Huh?! But…but…¨ she stammered
¨Look Serena, it's okay…I.. I can take care of myself; and besides I don't want your pity, so just…¨ he said while his voice was breaking.
Serena looked in his eyes and saw despair and hurt, she obliged not wanting to cause him any more pain. Without anymore arguing Serena picked up her things and left. Darien on the other hand lay on his bed while crying his eyes out.
That night…
Serena's POV:
How DO I feel about Darien and John? I don't know…maybe if someone could help me understand what I'm feeling maybe…YES that's it, who better to help me than the my best friends who know me like the palm of their hands, guess I'll have to call Raye and ask her to make a sleepover at her house…
Regular POV:
Ring, ring, ring…¨Hello?¨
¨Hi Raye, it's me Serena..¨
¨Oh, what's up Meatball Head?¨
¨Don't call me that!! Anyway I was just wondering…umm can we do a sleepover at your place I…want to talk to you girls about something…¨
¨Sure, come over right now while I call the others… oh and bring movies, and popcorn and…¨
¨Yeah yeah I will, see you in a bit.¨
Serena got out of her house and made her way to Raye´s temple, while she talked to the other about the sleepover.
While over at Darien's…
Darien's POV:
Well, there is no use sulking…is it…She has him and I got….
I hate this just get a grip.
With that he got up, took a warm shower and decided to busy himself studying, maybe like that he would stop thinking about Serena.
That night at Raye´s
¨So …spill, Serena¨ said Raye
She looked at her friends and tried to figure out how to say what she started feeling since Darien´s kiss.
¨Well…first of all, Darien…kinda kissed me today…¨
¨WHAAAAT!!!???¨ the girls screamed in unison.
¨Yeah….¨
¨HOW??¨
¨Well he kinda passed out and Andrew couldn't take care of him…so he asked me to do it for him and I did. Then just when I was about to do something he grabbed me and kissed me.¨
¨OMG!!¨
¨And…I ran away, met John on the way…¨
¨Wait.. did you tell John about the kiss??!!¨
¨No I didn't, I'm not stupid…¨
¨Oh really? I always thought you really are stupid!¨
¨Raye!!!¨
¨Come on let her continue with the story it's getting good, in fact better than a movie.¨
¨Mina!!!¨
¨SORRY!!¨ Mina and Raye apologized
¨And..???¨
¨Well, I later received a call from Andrew and told me to return to Darien's because he was worried he passed out again, which he did. And when he woke up…he confessed…his feelings for me…¨
¨OMG! You are kidding!!¨
¨I knew it, I'm not called the goddess of love for nothing, girls!!!¨
¨Well… it was kinda obvious, you know..¨
¨WHAT?!¨
¨Oh come ON, Serena! It wasn't that hard to notice. I mean the way he looks at you, and when you leave he looks sad, and he doesn't talk to much girls and much less teases any girl aside from you.¨
Serena looked at her friends shocked that they already knew, and she was the only one oblivious to this.
¨So? What are you going to do?¨
¨I don't know….I mean…UGH!!! Okay I'm feeling confused, I don't know if I like Darien or John!!¨
¨Then…which kiss did you enjoy more?¨
¨MINA!!¨ the girls screamed at the blonde girl.
¨What?¨ she asked oblivious to what was wrong.
¨Ok, tell us what you felt when you heard their confessions.¨
¨I don't knooooow!!!¨
¨Ok Serena…you have to figure out which one you truly like, you know you have to do this sooner or later. In all honesty, the sooner the better…¨
Ok, people here is my long awaited chapter, sorry it took so long but my proffessors in college have hammered me with tests...sigh...the life of a college girl..
Anyway please review, and pleeeease remember this is my first fanfic... please don´t be harsh...
Wait for the next chapter: Making Up Your Mind