This chapter is going to everyone who has supported me with this fic; all the people who have reviewed me and my friends and family, who have put up with me running off at odd moments to write! A special mention to Limey, without who this would have never have been written, and to Near-kun, whose constant encouragement and support kept me writing!

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The sensation of warm tears rolling down my cheeks was strange and foreign to me. For as long as I can remember, I haven't cried. I have endured loss and betrayal, I have seen murders more horrific than your most twisted nightmare, yet I have never shed a tear. I've always stayed safely tucked away, hidden behind my defences, detached from emotion and reality. Slowly, I've become nothing more than a letter on a screen with nothing left inside; no warmth, no mercy. Yet one man has breached the fortress round my heart. He made me alive again. My soul sang with unexplored emotion when he was near, but now that blissful state of existence had gone, leaving only pain behind.

Staring out the window, city lights shone back at me in their thousands, a galaxy of lives scattered across the night. I imagined the story behind each one; a young couple cuddling on the sofa, a family playing and laughing, maybe 2 pensioners remembering their life together. But I stood there alone, every room sending out a beacon of the love within, my window dark and empty.

No hope broke the endless darkness welling up inside of me. For the first time, life seemed purposeless, justice irrelevant. I no longer cared. All I could feel was emptiness. I could just end it all, here in the silence, no one would miss me. They would mourn the passing of L, but soon my position would be filled and I would become just a memory; no one to remember, no one to care that there was a man behind the letter.

Far above me stars blinked like shards of ice, the frozen tears of angels. I wondered if they ever felt as lonely as I did then, so distant and detached. How glorious it would be to not to feel; never to love so as never to fall.



"Why does my love make him hate me?"

Tears filled my eyes again, spilling over and blurring the world. Then, as I looked up, I saw him, reflected in the window, tear tracks identical to my own glistening on his cheeks. I felt his arms wrap around my waist as he gently held me close, as though I was as fragile as a porcelain doll.

"I could never hate you, L. Please forgive me, I was foolish, ignorant. But I know now…I love you too..."

My heart soared at his words. Suddenly, the world was beautiful again. The stars that had not long ago reminded me of my loneliness now brought me joy. Light seemed to glow in the darkness, his soft hair brushing my shoulder as he kissed me. Nothing else mattered, only the warmth radiating off him, his arms cradling me, keeping me safe and healing my heart. I wished that perfect moment could have lasted forever.

"Ai shiteru, Light"

"Ai shiteru, koibito"

Our eyes met and I knew that I would never be alone again.

For anyone that isn't sure: "Ai shiteru" means "I love you" and "koibito" means something like darling or loved one (roughly!) I hope you liked this, I certainly enjoyed writing it! Anyone that wants a sequel, or has any requests for plots, review me and I'll do my best. If you don't, please review anyway!!

Roo-san :D