"What is it Bella?" I asked coldly. I was good at being cold. I didn't let anyone except Emmett see Rosalie's vulnerable side. Being cold was the only attempt at bravado I had.
"Rosalie… I'm pregnant. It's mine and Edward's baby. Our very own… But Edward wants to kill our baby. He's convinced Carlisle too. They're going to kill my baby Rosalie. I need you to help me protect it." She spilled a cry in her voice. I could hear her quiet cries in the earpiece of my cell phone. I heard a pathetic whimpering sound that I didn't realize until after a few moments that it was me. It was me whimpering and crying. It was me clutching my stomach in pain. It was me trembling uncontrollably. It was me turning green with envy when Bella mentioned I'm pregnant. It's mine and Edward's baby. Our very own… Her words ate holes in my stomach tearing me to shreds. I wanted a baby more than anything and now she gets to have both of her dreams. Love and forever with Edward and her very own baby… It wasn't fair. My selfishness began to override and I clenched my teeth. She gets what I want?! All I wanted was love, and a baby of my very own. I got half. I looked up to Emmett. Well, okay only he would be able to count for three quarters of filling the hole in my heart. It still wasn't fair! Emmett stroked my cheek, concerned. His eyes were wide. He was dreadfully worried about me. The only times he didn't smile were when he was worried about me. I hated those times. I missed his smile.
"Congratulations. I will Bella. I will. You have my word. I will promise you. Nothing will happen to that child. " I promised pulling my cold hard mask over me once more. Emmett's eyes widened and he took my face in his hands looking into my eyes. Those beautiful deep amber eyes of his full of questions.
"Rosalie, you really have no idea how much this means to me." She breathed. "Thank you so much." I smirked and fought back the tearless sobs ripping through my throat. I pushed lightly against Emmett's bare chest my first intention to tell him to leave me here alone but then I pulled myself closer to him lying my head on his chest for comfort. "Edward thinks the baby's going to be a monster. It's already so big, Edward said it would hurt me…" Her voice was ice cold and low. I turned her words around in my head. I remembered once, before I had saved Emmett, (when my life, existence rather, basically had no meaning whatsoever) when it was just Carlisle, Esme, and I. Edward was off being a rebellious vampire at this time. Esme told me about legends about half human half vampire babies. I remember being so entranced by the idea, but of course it was my body that would have to carry the child. It was my body that could never change… Later, Carlisle told me the mothers never survived… I took a deep breath before speaking again. This time I whispered for Emmett to leave. He took two slow steps back from me. His eyes were full of confusion. I leaned out to kiss him once quickly. He smiled still confused then as he closed the bedroom door I sank to the floor clutching my knees to my stomach. "Bella, I promise. No matter what it takes, this baby will be safe. You will too." I threw in the last part quickly.
"Rosalie I knew I could count on you for this." She said. I heard her exhale like she had been holding her breath for a while. "Oh…" She moaned and then I heard her throw up in the background. It was moving this quickly? How fast did this go? I mean it wasn't like I knew everything about human pregnancy or anything but I knew morning sickness didn't usually start this early. And oddly enough… The sound of her puking made me envy her more. I wanted that to be me. I knew it sounds odd but… I wanted to be the one clutching the side of a toilet, Emmett holding my hair out of the way as I threw up my latest meal. I would smile because I knew it was part of bringing my baby into this world. Our child. I clutched my stomach running my fingertips across the forever flat skin there. "I'm sorry about that." Bella muttered.
"It's quite all right." I mumbled back. "When are you coming home?" I asked.
"Today." She answered flatly.
"Bella," I started a lump in my throat. "Tell me what you're thinking." I begged, my cold exterior breaking down for one fraction of a millisecond before I hurriedly built it back up. She stuttered and couldn't find the words to say. I knew whatever her answer was it would make me even more covetous and rip my heart further but I wanted to hear her answer to see if it was anything like mine...
"Well, when I found out a part of Edward and a bit of me was growing inside of me… I knew I couldn't let anything happen to him. I instantly felt an impulse to jump in front of a bullet for the child. I feel like he belongs to me already and I haven't even seen him yet. It's like my heart just grew, I love this baby more than my own life Rosalie." She answered cautiously. I knew… I knew… That's what I would have felt. That's what I would have said. I would have loved my baby more than my twisted existence itself. I never thought I could ever love anything more than I loved myself until I met Emmett and one special child long ago... I met Emmett and I felt my heart grow. I felt my heart grow every time Emmett and I would walk by the park and see children that I pretended were our own playing and laughing. I clutched my stomach and repressed a tearless sob from ripping through my throat. I couldn't close my eyes my mind would wander…
"Oh no." Bella sighed. "Edward's back. Thank you again Rose. Don't tell anyone else about this conversation." She said.
"Goodbye Bella. I promise I'll do everything I can for you and the baby." I promised quickly. She whispered another thank you and then clapped the phone shut. I sat there clutching my knees to my stomach my phone frozen in my hand until I burst into tearless sobs. I refused to let the frequent daydreams of my baby enter my mind. I fought against my mind but my child entered anyway.