Friday June 13,

Life was semi-great, my job was going great, I was ace-ing school, Naruto and I were getting along great, I had all the bills paid...What went wrong? Why am I half blind, where the hell am I?

Well, I'll back up for you. The day after my first entry everything exploded in my face. It's beautiful really, but without a doubt hell.

Basically, both Naruto and I got caught. I was in the middle of blowing a small sculpture up when Kyuubi visited. She was pissed over god knows what (can bijuu PMS?) and promptly began to scream her pretty little head off. They figured out I was the bomb artist, and that Naruto had another personality. Of course they stereotypically figured that he was seeking attention which does make sense, he's a orphan and all, but still!

For me, I was labeled as a troubled teen with pyromania. Cops handcuffed Naruto and I, (Kyuubi disappeared after a minute of them arriving) and began making calls to some place. A cop went over to inspect my sculpture.

Now, think about this, seeing as I'm the artist, the mother of this piece, I know everything about it. But you didn't have to be the owl's mother to know that tossing an almost-detonated bomb between your hands is NOT a good idea.

What happened from here no one really knows. Everyone was knocked out from the blast. (It was meant to level a warehouse) I just remember running over, yelling at the idiot, feeling weightless and feeling a searing pain in my left eye, and darkness.

I woke to an all white room. White walls, curtains, door, bedding, everything. Bandages covered the entire left side of my face and neck. They itched slightly, but the pulsing burn beneath is what alarmed me the most. I clawed at the bandages, but in the process knocked some monitor in my arm off. Then I noticed a ripping pain in back. Some nurse ran in, grabbed me by my shoulders, and told be to calm down, panicky herself. That did not help me at all, instead I began screaming. Who the HELL was touching me?!

Some other nurse, a male this time, came in and held me down. I'd fought of course. I hadn't a fucking clue what was going on, and certainly wasn't in the best state. I'd flailed, I sprained the guy's wrist for sure, maybe broken it when he'd tried to grab mine. Unfortunately for him I'd taken self defense, and remember it all. I punched him square in the nose when he retracted his other hand to cradle his damaged wrist. Blood poured down practically immediately.

The girl stuck some needle in my arm, then the world began to slip away again. This time though, it was slow. At first the world swam in front of my eyes, and everything sounded as if it was underwater. I couldn't differentiate anything but blurs of color from another, and muffled garble before darkness returned.

When I awoke again, Naruto was in the bed next to mine. He was awake and eating some kind of soup - not ramen, it lacked noodles- watching something on the comedy channel. His calm aura was enough to calm my own. Which was a feat, seeing as I was returning to the panicked state I'd been in last time. And my face still burned, though not as sharply.

"-ruto…." It hurt to speak, my voice was quiet, hoarse, and I thought my throat would bleed if I tried to utter another sound, but Naruto heard me. His head whipped in my direction so fast he should have had whiplash, his azure orbs widening in surprise.

"D-Deidara! Your awake!" He hit some button on the control panel by his bed. "How are you? How do you feel?" I opened my throat but as soon as air passed through my "Where the hell are we?" dissolved into a fit of coughs.

By now a nurse, not one from before, and came in. She saw me awake- and coughing my lungs up- before rushing out again. My throat was a rapidly spreading forest fire, it was like I'd puked nothing but acid for days, drank nothing, and swallowed fire. The jerking movements alighting my back again. What the hell was wrong with me?!

The doctor returned with something that I hadn't since Mom and Dad's death, a smoothie. I have no idea what flavor it was, I was to busy sucking the icy drink down onto my inflamed windpipe. Less than 30 seconds later I laid there groaning and hold my head, trying to rid myself of the awful brain freeze spreading through my sense.

What the HELL did I do to deserve this? I only blew up EMPTY buildings damnit!

Then everything overloaded my brain. I remembered the owl, Kyuubi, the explosion -though vaguely- and turning psychotic on the other two doctors. My head, already pounding from the dizziness and freezes, felt like it was going to explode.

"What's going on un?" I moaned. The doctor looks at me, I notice her eyes are green, her hair is brown.

"My name's Suki. Your waking up in the hospital. Do you remember anything?" I nod. Cooperate, you get out of her sooner.

"Un…"

"What do you remember?"

"Um, I was setting off a sculpture, Naruto switched and alerted the police, un. One of them was an idiot and tossed around the sculpture, I tried to stop him and then…boom un." Yea, completely intelligent. How did I have an A in Language? No one knows.

Suki nodded, and recorded it on her clipboard. After a minute she looked back up at me.

"When your bomb-"

"Sculpture un." I corrected. Jeez I'm not a flipping terrorist. She looked at me skeptically, shrugged, and continued.

"When your sculpture-" That's more like it. "went off, the 'idiot cop', Mizuki, still had it in his hands. The blast killed him, and another near by. We still don't know who it was, the body's hardly even a form."

I hear none of what comes next. My body's gone numb. My blood feels like frozen lead. I'd killed someone? I was a murderer…I'd taken the life of another. His family would never see him again. Did he have a girlfriend, wife, children? Are they all together, mourning the loss of a lover, friend, or son? Were the men brothers? If not, then did I wreck two entirely different worlds in one go?

Did I become what I hated?

"Hey, you ok Dei?" Naruto's worried eyes looked beneath my blank expression. He knew what was going through my head…but I couldn't worry him, he had enough demons of his own. The nurse stopped her unheard rant, and looked between us, her eyes softened in understanding. Why didn't she stop earlier? Was she used to this? What a horrible job.

I nodded at them, forcing a smirk onto my face.

"Yea, I'm ok un." Naruto didn't look so sure, but let it lie. Suki started over.

"Naruto was blown over and behind a boulder, which shielded him from the brunt of the impact. You-you weren't so lucky. I'm taking you've noticed your bandaged face?" Instinctively I trace my fingers over the paths of the gauze. Suki takes this as a yes and elaborates.

"When you tried to stop Mizuki" -I'm a murderer….-" You got caught in the blast as well. The left side of your face has third degree burns, we took skin from your back to replace the skin on your face." She paused, letting me soak in this information. It explained the burning and gauze, along with the pain in my back. Has anyone ever noticed that disasters travel in packs? Misery loves company. I traced the gauze again, it covered my eye too…

"What about my eye un?" She looks at me and gives a grim smile.

"Your eye was horrifically damaged. We tried to save it, and succeeded, but your vision is gone. You still have an eye, but it's either almost, or completely blind." I stare at her, my hand stops. In the corner of my good eye I see Naruto watching be intently, ready to calm me if need be.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I realize that this is all to much, and choose to ignore this piece of information. I store it away, but nod slowly.

"C…Can I sleep please un?" Suki nods at me and records a few more notes, before turning out the lights. The door closes behind her with a click.

"Hey Dei." I look over at my fellow blond. His eyes scan my face, trying to read my expression.

"Un?"

"You…you gonna be ok?" I stare at him for a minute. Do I tell him the truth? That I had know idea if I would be or not? Or say yes, and hope he believes it?

"Yes, I…I just need some sleep." He sighs, he knew what I really thought, but accepted it anyway. He turned back to the TV, vaguely I realize it's David Cook, before sleep overcomes my whirling mind.

I stayed in the hospital for a few more days, and learned about where I was and what would happen. The hospital is a privet one for The World. An academy for troubled teens. It was separated into different wards, the largest being Fire, Wind, Earth, Lightning, and Water. There were many more, but they were all much smaller. Within the countries were houses, which really, reminds me of a country and city relationship. People were sorted on which to go to bye their issues. The wards almost never interacted with each other.

Naruto had already been released, he went to the Fire ward, Konoha house. I was to go to the Ame ward, which is so small it didn't have any houses. Apparently this was for all the unique kids. So now not only am I a freak, but a freak of the freaks. Don't I feel special!

At the Academy for your ward you are taught the basics that you learn n public schools, and they teach you self-defense. From what I've heard, Ame has the most rigorous training methods to make up for it's size. Lucky me.

Nothing else happened and I was released today. They took me to my room, which was empty. I didn't have a roommate. -did I mention everyone had up to two people in their room if there are enough people?- I've pretty much done nothing but set up my room, and stare out the window. I've become what I hated, a murderer. I killed those men just like the man who took away my parents.

I'm going to sleep for now, it seems my drug induced sleeps are my only safe haven now, I can't see Naruto anymore…maybe I should blow myself up. Would that atone those men? Probably not.

Hey all, I want to give a special shout out to song six, she was the first to review on this story, and I dedicate this chapter to her! ^-^

Also, I don't have a beta for this story, so I KNOW there are mistakes -_-'