AN: Sorry for the delay been out of town and then had internet issues with where I'm staying. I'll try to get at least one chapter a week. This chapter has a little adult content from assault memories. Nothing is extremely graphic so I hope it's ok. You comments make me smile huge so please keep them coming. This story has been a good creative outlet for me thus far! Happy Reading!

Confessions Chapter 3

BPOV

After reading the last thing Edward had typed to me I ducked my head so my hair would cover my face, masking the dark red my face had turned. He had basically just admitted that he thought I was beautiful. The gorgeous man whose green eyes I could not get enough of thought that I, Bella Swan, plain quiet bashful Bella Swan was beautiful. I looked back up to my screen still blushing slightly and biting my bottom lip. He gave me that crooked smile again and I felt my heart skip a beat.

GracefulSwan: Thanks, I think.

I saw him start to chuckle on the other end and I wondered what I had said that he had found so funny.

EE4U: It's a compliment Bella, trust me.

I let a small smile play across my lips trying not to make a fool of myself by unleashing the ridiculous grin I felt inside.

EE4U: I'm really sorry to do this Bella but I didn't realize how late it was I do have to get going I have a family obligation in the morning.

I tried but I was unable to hide my look of disappointment. I glanced down at the time and realized I should be heading to sleep soon also. Renee hated it when I was up till the wee hours of the morning, tapping away at my keys, as she would say.

GracefulSwan: Yeah I guess I didn't realize how late it's getting. My mom would blow a gasket if she knew I was still up.

I saw him chuckle again, well at least I could make him laugh, I had that going for me.

EE4U: Bella I would love to be able to add you as a friend so we can talk some more. I'd really like to get to know you and hopefully make your transition here a pleasant one. I tend to spend quite a bit of time on here.

I wondered why a gorgeous guy like him would spend so much time on the internet in some chat room but I wasn't going to question him now. He wanted to be my online friend and that meant that we would have more time to talk. I'd have more time to get to know Edward Cullen.

GracefulSwan: I would like that Edward.

We added each other to our buddy lists and made plans to talk again the next night around the same time.

Edward C: Sweet Dreams Bella, it truly was a pleasure meeting you.

Bella S: You too Edward. I will seeya tomorrow. Goodnight.

He smiled at me as he clicked his webcam off and I did the same. Shutting my laptop I rolled over onto my back and let out a long slow sigh. This was just all too good to be true what were the chances that I would meet a cute boy in the small town I would be moving to? Slim to none I told myself, and that's when I began to doubt Edward Cullen. I couldn't help it, I had been jerked around by men so many times in my young life it was insane. I wanted so badly for Edward to be real, and not some fake that was just trying to get his way into my pants.

Just two years ago when I was fifteen I had met a boy online named James. He was a very attractive boy and said all the right things to make me feel special. James went to a different high school than I on the other side of Phoenix so he didn't see me as the quiet shy clumsy girl, he just told me how he thought I was beautiful and perfect. We had been talking about a month when he invited me over to his house to hang out. He said his mother and sister would be home and we could just hang out and play video games or something. I knew there was no way my mother would allow such a thing so I arranged to go to his house on an afternoon I knew she would be occupied with Phil's baseball.

When the day came I called a cab and made the trip across town to James' house. He lived in a nicer area of Phoenix and I felt very safe by my surroundings. When I knocked on the door he opened it almost immediately as if he had been waiting just inside. He was just as cute in person as the picture he had sent me and I took his hand as he led me into the house. The inside of the house was beautiful but eerily quiet. He must have sensed my bit of unease and squeezed my hand drawing my attention to him.

"Sorry my mom and sister had to run a quick errand. They should be home soon. I hope that's okay," he said smiling down at me.

"Um yeah that should be fine I guess," I said quietly, what other choice did I have I was already here and the cab had left.

"So my video games are all up in my room if you'd like to go upstairs and play something. Or if you're not comfortable we could stay down here and wait for my mom," he was challenging me I felt.

He was just a boy, just a fifteen year old boy, what could I possibly have to worry about by going up to his room to play video games. And I reminded myself his mom and sister would be home any minute everything would be fine.

"Sure James sounds like fun," I replied.

"Great!" he replied and led me up the stairs to his bedroom.

Once in his room he led me over to his bed and told me to sit there while he got everything set up. Watching him adjust cords and plug in controllers I couldn't believe I was in a boy's bedroom unsupervised. Renee would absolutely kill me if she ever knew where I was right now, but moms didn't need to know everything and I would be okay. James made his way over to me with two controllers in his hand and sat down next to me smiling. He set the controllers down on the ground while he waited for the game to load.

"I'm really happy you came over here today Bella. I've been wanting to spend some alone time with you for awhile," he smiled scooting closer to me on the bed.

This was when the first warning sound went off in my head. Alone time? I thought originally his family was supposed to be home, that didn't leave us very alone. Had he known no one would be home? Did he plan to have me here with just the two of us? Of course not, James was a nice boy he wouldn't purposely mislead me.

"Really?" was all I could manage to say.

"Yes, Bella you are so pretty," he slowly leaned in and kissed me softly on my lips.

I blushed a deep red and pulled away slightly. I was definitely not expecting something like that.

"Did you like that Bella?" he asked.

"It was nice," I blushed again.

James must've taken that as permission to advance because before I knew what was happening he was kissing me again, harder this time. He pushed me back onto his bed and overpowered me groping me with his hands. I squirmed beneath him trying to get free; I was not okay with this.

"Just sit still Bella it'll be so much easier if you just sit still," he warned.

No! This wasn't happening to me, I couldn't be in this situation, and James was a nice boy, a nice normal boy. I struggled against him more tears starting to sting the corners of my eyes.

"Please James," I cried.

The smile he gave me sent chills down my spine. "That a girl Bella."

What? No! That's not what I meant! What was he going to do, and then I felt him pressed up against my legs. I squeezed my eyes shut as tight as they would go. I knew I couldn't get free, I just hoped it was done quickly. I just wanted to go home.

James pulled my skirt up and I felt his jeans brush down my legs as he pulled them off. He lay himself on top of my again and just rubbed himself along the outside of my panties. I couldn't contain my tears, I just wanted to run.

"James please, if you stop I won't tell anyone, I promise," I cried.

"Tell anyone what Bella? You asked for this, begged for it even," he hissed at me.

I felt his hand pull aside my panties and I felt him against my skin, I felt like puking. This had to stop, someone had to help me. He kissed me harder and I felt my hands fly up and slap him in the face. Enraged he grabbed my arms and held them over my head.

"That was not a very smart thing to do Bella," he snarled as he pushed harder against my body.

I was gasping for breath, my body wracked with tears, God please stop this. I heard a sound come from the house below and I felt James' body tense up.

"James honey, we're back," I heard a women's voice yell up the stairs.

"Shit," he muttered. "Be right down mom we're just finishing up a game."

I was safe, his mom was home, this was going to stop and I could get as far away from here as possible and never see this creep again.

"You're lucky Bella, I would've so loved to finish this," he said running a finger down the inside of my thigh.

I pushed him and he rolled off of me easily. I quickly stood up and straightened myself up still crying. He threw a box of tissues at me and I grabbed what I needed to wipe up my face.

"Make yourself look presentable for my mother. And if you say anything at all, I swear it will happen again, and next time I'll get my way Bella," he glared at me.

I just nodded and let him lead me downstairs where he introduced me to his mom like I was some old friend and we were just playing video games upstairs. I had to shake his mother's hand resisting the urge to scream that her son had sexually assaulted me, but I figured it best if no one ever knew that this happened. No one would believe me anyways, I had come to a boy's house alone, with no supervision, and I figured most people would think I asked for it.

He left shortly after claiming to have a basketball game with some friends at the school. I sat in his living room alone waiting for my cab to arrive to take me home. I had to keep my composure so his mother and sister wouldn't know that anything was wrong. But the minute I got into that cab I cried the entire way home.

I had never told anyone about James and what happened that day. I just figured I was better off keeping that to myself. And I was too embarrassed to be able to open up about that to anyone. If that would've been the last day I had to see James life would've been better, but shortly after the incident his father lost his job and they moved into a cheaper house on my side of town. James was now a constant in my life everyday when I went to school. He would smile at me, hug me in the halls, and act like we were old pals. And whenever I would shy away he would pull me in tighter reminded me to play his game or he would make me.

I love my mom dearly, but I couldn't wait to get out of this city and as far away from James as possible. I put my laptop away for the night and crawled beneath my covers switching off the light. As I stared out the window in to the clear Arizona night all I could think about was Edward Cullen. I wished on my wishing star that he would not be a James. I wished that Edward was different, that he was real and true. I pictured his emerald eyes and smiled softly snuggling more into my bed. This move was going to be something good, a chance to start over, get away from James and all his disgusting friends.

I dreamt of James again that night, like I did most nights, stalking me and trying to make me play his sick game. I would always turn and run away only to find myself up against a wall with nowhere to run. Tonight I turn and ran into a wall again, but it was different, when I looked up all I saw was a shadow. When I turned around I saw James stop in his tracks and sneer. He then turned and stalked away telling me he would be back. I felt arms circle around me, and I flinched and shoved the body away. I woke up tangled in my sheets and sighed. March couldn't come fast enough for me; I needed to get out of here.