Authors notes:

I did say that this was finished; I said that I wouldn't write this, I said I couldn't get it out. But finally, FINALLY(!!!) it made itself out of my head, and I thank God(Buddha/Vishnu/Allah/Merlin), that HERE IT IS! YES! YES! YES!!!

This is the final instalment of So be it, waaaay over due! Hope you enjoy it!

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So be it – 3rd instalment

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He couldn't breathe. He simply couldn't breathe.

There was a hand on his naked chest, just above his navel, drawing lazy circles across his body. Another hand stroked his side. Wow... Just wow. Remus stared at the boy above him, the wonderful, wonderful boy that was making him want to do seriously unthought-of things just to stop the burning of his skin, the burning caused by Sirius. He'd always figured that snogging and things like... that was greatly exaggerated.., But Sirius; Sirius had proved that to say that Remus was wrong, would be the understatement of the year.

Now, when he was doing all of that with Sirius, of all people, who was the one who said that you couldn't live without it, well... finally he got it. An hour ago, he couldn't imagine ever living with it, now he didn't know how he could possibly live without it. It only took a half hour snogging with a boy to make him addicted, and maybe it was because it was a boy, but most likely it was because it was Sirius.

Remus' thoughts were broken as the boy who'd taught him everything kissed him deeply. Remus had to force his body to kiss him back, not because he didn't want to, Merlin no, but because he couldn't move when Sirius touched him. He couldn't breathe.

He needed to do something, something to show him how he felt, what Sirius made him feel. He slipped his hands into his best mate's hair and pulled him close, Sirius moaned appreciatively. "Damn..." Sirius said when he pulled back. "You are amazing". Remus blushed at the words, making Sirius grin feral.

"Better than the rest?" He said, not realizing he was thinking about the others until he'd said it. Sirius snorted and eyed him with an incredible expression, at least that's what he thought it was, he couldn't really tell in the dark room.

"Remus?" He said wondering. "You're nothing like them. You're it." He said meaningful. "You're the only one who can make me feel this way, even before I kissed you, you were the only one who has made me feel like this" Sirius said heartfelt trying to hold him closer than he'd been doing. "I know that this is sudden for you, but it isn't for me." He kissed him slowly. "You are my forever." Remus eyes widened. "You don't have to say anything, and I won't force you to do anything you don't want to" He said quickly. "But I'm going make you come undone, and then I'll pull you back together so I can do it again." He said tauntingly licking the lobe of Remus' ear. Remus moaned at the words and the feel of Sirius pressed tightly against him. He nudged Sirius head to the side and kissed him passionately, wrapping his legs around him, pushing their groins together.

It was Sirius turn to moan as he pushed himself into Remus again, Remus arched his back pushing back. "I want..." He panted. "I want..." He groaned as Sirius quickened the rubbing of their bodies against each other. "Please." He panted against Sirius neck.

"I'll do anything, give you anything." Sirius panted and kissed any and every part of Remus' body he could reach. Remus kissed his shoulder, eying him trough lidded eyes.

"I want you." He said and touched down Sirius' chest. "I just want you" And he watched as Sirius closed his eyes, as if in pain.

"Remus" He whispered it. "Remus, don't say that." Remus frowned at him. He thought...

He turned cold. Was he mistaken? Sirius had told him that he loved him, and touched him in a way that made Remus think that he wanted him? He couldn't understand, and he eyed Sirius with a confused hurt expression. Sirius opened his eyes looked down at him. "Don't say unless you mean it; don't say it unless you want it, forever. Because that's what would happen Remus. If you tell me you want me, I kiss you and I'll make love to you and I will never be able to let you go"

Sirius meant the words as a warning, a final reproach to the words Remus had spoken, a way for him to stop what they were doing immediately. But Remus didn't hear the words as a warning, didn't hear it like a reproach. Remus heard the most beautiful words he'd ever heard, him and Sirius. Forever. "Yes..." He hissed and eyed Sirius seriously before kissing him deeply. "Sirius..." He said slowly and Sirius eyed him with a worried expression on his face. "Make love to me" He said fiddling with Sirius pants zipper. "Make me yours so I can make you mine." Sirius shuddered at the words, pushing his erection against his.

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"Are you sure?" He asked with the last restraint he could muster, the last of his fight. Remus smiled as he touched his chest.

"I'm sure." He said looking him in the eye while nodding. "I love you and you're mine." He said and pulled Sirius naked chest against his, panting into his hair. "Please Sirius." He said breathlessly in his ear. "Make love to me so I can fuck you" Sirius nearly came at those words, the thought that Remus would... Merlin, he couldn't think about it without shivering with pleasure. He growled and turned his head to kiss the beautiful werewolf ardently while raising his hips so Remus could pull down the zipper of his trousers. Sirius kissed him slowly and deliberately and he felt Remus pull his zipper all the way down before slipping cold hands down the back grabbing his buttocks. Sirius eyed the boy beneath him and groaned at his expression and his touch.

"Do you want me?" He whispered teasingly in the smaller boy's ear. He pulled down Remus' zipper while eying him interestedly; he didn't want to miss a single expression that crossed his adorable face. Remus gasped as Sirius touched his erection through the opening of his pants. "Do you want me to make love to you?" Sirius breathed against Remus' stomach as he kissed his way down his chest, pushing down his trousers. "Do you want me to touch you Remus?" He teased, his hand suspended over the bulge in his underwear. Remus groaned in frustration.

"Stop teasing and - Ah!" Remus' eyes widened as Sirius deliberately touched him through his underwear. Sirius grinned down at him, loving the sounds that escaped the boy as he let his hand trail over the smaller boy's erection. "Sirius!"

Sirius leaned down kissing the boys lower abdomen trailing the lining if his pants. "Sirius please" Sirius eyed him from his position between his legs and even though he could barely make out Remus' face he could hardly stop himself from coming at the sight. He was beautiful, and to think that Sirius could have him, right at that moment.

He'd hesitated when Remus had told him to make love to him... If Remus found it uncomfortable, the chances that he'd fuck Sirius as hard as he wanted would greatly diminish. So Sirius wanted to wait until he had that pleasure, there was, however, something that Sirius wanted almost as much as Remus pounding him into the mattress, and that was what he was on his way to do.

Sirius smiled wickedly at him before tugging on the pants, pulling them half way down over his thighs. Remus gripped the sheets beneath him, arching, trying to get Sirius to touch him. Sirius grinned at his response; Remus wasn't going to be disappointed that Sirius had changed his plans a little. Sirius breathed against his erection, making it twitch in response. "Please."

"Please what?" Sirius whispered against his thigh before kissing it lightly. Remus groaned desperately.

"Touch me, please just-" Sirius leaned in and folded his hand against the only part of Remus he'd only briefly seen, the only part he'd never touched. He watched Remus deliberately; he wanted to see every reaction.

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"Ah!" Remus couldn't help slipping his hand into Sirius hair as he gently licked him. This is where it got fuzzy for Remus; everything so far had been amazing, wonderful. But the moment Sirius touched him so intimately; Remus lost all sensible thoughts, lost all reason. When Sirius loved him like he was doing at that moment, Remus was turned into a grunting, grinding, moaning fool who whimpered, growled and panted at the things he did to him. And it wasn't only the licking and sucking, it was the hands that caressed his thighs lovingly, the blue eyes that stayed focused on his face to see every little change in his expression, to pull back, work harder, everything to make Remus come undone. And when Sirius hand moved his hands lover, that's when everything unfolded, everything stopped.

"Sirius!" He called aware of himself gripping the sheets tightly forcing himself not to push too hard into Sirius mouth but unable to completely. He felt gentle kisses on his thighs as the white disappeared from underneath his lids. Sirius came up to his face, grinning widely, looking more proud than Remus had ever seen him.

"You liked it?" Remus eyed the boy unbelievable before kissing him deeply.

"I loved it, I love you" He said pushing the boy down on the bed underneath him kissing him softly. Sirius looked up at him with a lazy sort of excited look. And Remus smiled down at him, still not understanding quite how he got in the position her found himself in. He was sitting naked on top of his practically naked best friend. Remus blushed suddenly loosing the nerve he had started out with. Sirius must've seen the hesitance in his face because he smiled up at him, kissed him slowly and brought Remus' hands to his chest. "Love you" he whispered as Remus started to touch him hesitantly. "Only you." Remus eyed him seriously before kissing him slowly.

Sirius watched him closely as he started kiss his neck, moving down his chest slowly. "Yes..." He hissed as Remus kissed a nipple carefully, before pulling it into his mouth. "Remusss..."

Remus started to feel that power, the power of knowing how he was affecting him, knowing how Sirius was writing underneath him because of him, because Remus had made him feel that way. He kissed his way down his abdomen as his thumbs hooked onto pants. Sirius clutched his hair panting when Remus had removed his underwear and kissed his way down his chest slipping his hands up his thighs once more. Remus tried to mimic what Sirius had done to him, the only experience he'd had in the act. He watched Sirius closely as he took him in hand. Sirius arched up into his touch whimpering. Remus watched him surprised and moved his hand again, tightening his grip a bit.

"Harder." Remus eyed Sirius wondering, and gripped him tighter, pushing harder and Sirius arched, groaned, panted. Remus moved his other hand, slipped it up Sirius' thigh brushing his short nails against the muscles formed after years of Quidditch practice. He eyed Sirius most private parts, wondering again how he ended up in this position, but not caring. Because seeing the sight before him, the beautiful black haired boy laid out like a feast, the alpha in him reared its head once more.

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"Sirius?" Sirius opened his eyes, eying the werewolf wondering and he gulped at the look on his face. Remus was staring at him with the hungriest expression he'd ever seen and Sirius' watched the slow movements of his lover. "Sirius... I will have you" He said determinedly. Sirius' breath hitched at the force behind the statement. Remus moved his legs apart, settling himself between them.

"Yes..." He hissed as Remus let his hands and body move up his body, pushing their naked chests against each other.

"I want have you right now" He whispered against his ear as he gripped Sirius hands tightly in his. "But I don't want to hurt you."

"You won't" Sirius said quickly and nodded towards his bedside table. Remus let go of his hands as Sirius reached for the drawer. Remus eyed his every move, giving Sirius the distinct feeling of being the prey; the thought made him shiver as he found the jar in the drawer. He pulled it out and handed it to Remus.

Sirius closed his eyes as Remus prepared them both; the sight alone sure to make this a very short experience. Sirius shuddered as he felt Remus fingers on him; it was really happening, all he ever wanted, was in his arms right then, all he ever wanted he was going to get. And as he looked into the eyes of the werewolf, his eyes darker and more golden, he realized that it wasn't only perfect, it was far more than he deserved. And it was his.

"I love you" Remus said and he slipped his fingers from Sirius' body and positioned himself by his entrance. Sirius gripped Remus' fingers on his hips and waited until the werewolf looked him in the eye.

"I love you"

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The end, for real this time ;)