Summary:
She wasn't ready to be a mother of twins. She walked out on them. He made sacrifices raising them alone, while she's living her life.
Disclaimer:
Disney owns everything. You know that. All we own is the plot of the story. We own nothing else.
Written By:
Heyhello (Ren) and Bl1SSFuln3ss (Yeshi)
It Happened One Night
Chapter Seven:
Bonding with Hailey
Within the few minutes of lying in between the little blondes, Sharpay could feel Josh in a deep slumber. Hailey on the other hand was still wide-awake, tossing and turning in every direction. Sharpay could feel the five-year-old touch her arm gently, then quickly removing it. Sharpay herself found it hard to fall asleep between the kids. It was not something she was use to. She had never been so motherly in her life. And now, for the first time ever, she was actually taking care of her own kids. It was hard to believe. She had never seen this day coming. She figured the twins were out of her life forever—as long as Troy never got a hold of her. Of course, that's changed.
"Sharpay." Hailey whispered, shaking Sharpay's arm.
"What?" Sharpay groaned as the little girl interrupted her thoughts.
"I can't sleep." She sat up, keeping the comforter around her little body.
"I've noticed." Sharpay managed to sit up without waking Josh up.
Even though the dark, Sharpay could see Hailey's piercing blue eyes. They were Troy's all right. She wondered how she and Troy had created twins who were rather so different, but yet alike. They had the same facial features. Josh had the hazel eyes. But their faces were very similar. It was hard to believe that the two little kids with her were the same two little babies she had carried for nine months. They were so big now.
"I miss my daddy." Hailey began to cry.
"Oh no." Sharpay mumbled. "Not again." She rubbed Hailey's back hoping it would silence the child.
It only made it worst.
"I want my daddy!" Hailey screamed.
"Shh. You're going to wake your brother!" Sharpay hissed.
Hailey let out a loud cry before stopping with a frown.
"It's always about Josh! Never me!" She fumed.
Sharpay motioned for her to hush, knowing she would eventually wake her twin brother up. Boy taking care of kids was hard. Sharpay had no idea how Troy was able to handle living like this. Having to hear Hailey's tantrums, both of the kids' bickering…everything.
"I wanna see my daddy." Hailey continued to cry.
It was obvious she was feeling homesick.
"You'll see your daddy, in a couple of days." Sharpay spoke. "Now lay back down! You're going to end up waking Josh up!"
Hailey threw another frown.
"Everyone always likes Josh better!" She exclaimed. "No one ever likes me. Josh is always the favorite!" She sniffed wiping her eyes. "Daddy likes him better. Grandma…grandpa. Do too…and you! And our mommy did too!" She cried.
"Hailey! Please, stop crying!" Sharpay stood up.
She could not handle it anymore. Kids cried so darn much. Plus she knew Hailey would never listen to her. So they might as well yell at each other some place else, so Josh wasn't disturbed.
Sharpay carried her out to the downstairs family room, where she knew it would be hard for William or Josh to hear Hailey's endless screeching.
"You need to behave! You wonder why everyone likes Josh! He's well behaved! You're just a brat!" Sharpay could not believe she had just blurted that out to a five-year-old.
Hailey cried even more, feeling hurt by Sharpay's statement.
"No I'm not." She sunk lower into the soft couch.
"Then prove it! Stop crying. Stop screaming. Just stop irritating everyone." Sharpay sighed.
Hailey looked down.
"I don't want my daddy to go away." She hugged her knees. "I don't want him to go because of me. I didn't mean to make him fall." She sniffed. "Just like how I didn't mean for my mommy to die."
Sharpay starred at Hailey. The little one's last sentence hit her hard. Did everyone blame Hailey for her mom's death?
"Who told you your mom died because of you?" Sharpay questioned curiously.
"Everyone." Hailey cried. "Grandma…and sometimes daddy…I've heard him." She looked back up at Sharpay with tears in her eyes. "Grandma says I drove her crazy. I didn't mean to. I was a baby. I want my mommy back. Maybe she'll like me more now.."
Sharpay felt uncomfortable with the topic, but she felt sad for the little girl sitting in front of her. The fire-year-old has been walking around, feeling unwanted and blamed for a death that never even happened. Who would have that cold of a heart?
"What has Tro—daddy—your daddy said to you?" She asked, hoping to maybe get something out of Hailey.
She knew Troy would never say something cruel to the little girl. It didn't seem like him. From what she could see, he loved his—their kids.
The little blonde shrugged against the couch.
"He doesn't say it to me. I just hear him. He's said before that if I hadn't been so bratty, mommy would still be here." She explained, yawning quietly.
Sharpay sighed. What could she possibly say to the child? She admitted, she wasn't exactly the best mother in the world—actually she had no idea how to be a mom. She felt bad having to stand in the same room with Hailey and see the little girl cry about how hated she felt. She also felt guilty for leaving Josh upstairs alone, what if he had woken up? Was she really that bad of a mom? Troy maintained two kids for a good five-years by himself, and here she was, struggling and it hasn't been a full day.
"It's not your fault Hailey." She shook her head. "Don't let it get to you." She added in a soft whisper.
"My mommy kind of didn't like me. I want her to like me. Josh and me want a mommy. We've never had one." Hailey tried to smile, wiping her tears away.
"She doesn't hate you." Sharpay spoke, trying to avoid the electric blue eyes in front of her. She had a hard time trying to admit what she had just had while locking eyes with the child.
"You knew my mommy?" Hailey's eyes suddenly grew wide. "What did she look like? Was she nice? Daddy says I take after her! Did she like me a little? Daddy says she's very pretty!" She wanted to keep asking questions, suddenly she felt better and awake.
Sharpay was rather taken back by all the sudden questions that were thrown at her. They were awkward questions for the matter. She couldn't help but imagine how horrible it would be if William was somehow listening. She had no idea how to explain to him about this whole thing. It was going to be strange. Plus she hadn't expected Hailey to get so energized again. Then again, this is Hailey. She always had energy.
"Um—what?" Sharpay asked, with a puzzled tone.
"Can you tell me stories about my mommy? And tell me how she looked like? Daddy never showed me a picture. He doesn't like to talk about her. It makes him said. He wishes she were around all the time." The little girl was once again rambling on, making Sharpay feel even more uncomfortable. She didn't do well with discussions like this.
"I don't know Hailey." She shook her head, hoping to end their little talk now. She had bonded enough with the girl.
"Do you remember her at all?" Hailey's face turned into a disappointing look. "How did she look like?
Sharpay regretted ever answering Hailey's question earlier. She didn't know she'd have to put up with more questions. Questions she did not want to answer.
"You need to go to bed." She reached her arm out for Hailey to take.
Only Hailey stared at her hand, normally she would have taken it right away.
"Will you still visit us after daddy gets better?" Hailey asked, moving a strange of blonde hair away from her face, her eyes directly staring at Sharpay's.
Sharpay nodded. Taking her hand down. Hailey obviously didn't want to take it, plus she was getting tired of holding her arm out.
The more and more Sharpay studied Hailey's face, the more she saw a lot of her in the little girl. She found it rather strange as she had never been around to see Josh and Hailey grow—she barely remembered them…and now they were so big now. Last time she saw them they were barely opening their eyes, and now they were running around, talking…
"Sharpay, Joshua is fully asleep now. So I'm going to take a shower." Troy walked in their living room, looking very exhausted.
Sharpay nodded rocking Hailey in her arms.
"Just leave the baby's door open. So I can hear him if he cries." She suggested, her eyes glued to the baby girl.
As much as she regretted everything in her life, she still couldn't help but sometimes adore her kids. They were cute.
"Time to put you in bed too." Sharpay spoke to the baby in the pink blanket.
At night, the apartment seemed to be at peace. It was the time when she and Troy managed to get somehow get along. The babies were sound asleep….unlike the mornings and afternoons…. where Sharpay felt like shooting herself.
"Now sleep through the night. Don't wake me up." She tucked in Hailey next to Josh.
Even then, she felt weird being known as "Mommy". She never pictured herself being the mom to the twins.
"Sharpay?" Hailey's voice sounded worried.
Sharpay took her eyes off the young child and turned towards the hall.
"Come on. Go to bed." She waved Hailey to come her way.
She really shouldn't have left Josh unattended in a house he wasn't use to.
The two crawled quietly back under the covers, trying their best not to wake the sleeping boy. Sharpay laid between the two again, this time facing Hailey who just looked around the room, her eyes shining in the dark. Strange as it seemed, Sharpay couldn't help but notice how adorable Hailey and Josh turned out to be.
"Sharpay?" Hailey called softly, facing her.
"Hmm?" Sharpay answered.
"I wish you were my mommy." Hailey yawned closing her eyes.
Sharpay felt herself gulp.
How long could she possibly last before exploding and telling the twins the truth? IT was getting harder and harder each time Sharpay found herself spending time with the five-year-olds.
"Sharpay?" Hailey opened her eyes once again.
Sharpay fixed her eyes to the little girl.
"Do you wish you were my mommy?" Hailey asked, her eyes filled with hope.
Sharpay quickly looked away from her. Why did kids have to ask so many questions? She knew it would be hard trying to come up with an answer. What if she just said 'yes'? Would that be a lie? She liked the twins—or at least she was trying to…though she still had a difficult time adjusting to the fact that the two children with her are hers. The only problems with telling Hailey 'yes' was that she would most likely get her hopes up—and possibly tell Troy. Who knew what would happen then? But saying 'no' was too harsh.
"It's okay if you don't." Hailey decided to speak, it had been a while, and yet Sharpay still hadn't given her answer. "I don't think anyone wishes to be my mommy." She added, in a light whisper, but loud enough for Sharpay to hear.
Sharpay closed her eyes, trying to stop the tears that she felt urging their way out. She really did feel guilty and for the first time ever she wanted to admit to the twins that she is their mother.
She quickly opened her eyes and lay back on her side, facing Hailey again.
"I do Hailey." Sharpay answered finally. "I do."
Hailey smiled brightly before closing her eyes again and falling into a deep sleep.
Sharpay laid awake, tears had began to roll down her cheeks. She had really been a cruel person. She had walked out on two innocent kids. She forced herself to hate them. She ruined Troy's life. She had been so selfish. She left Troy with all the responsibilities while she went out to achieve her dreams….
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Yeah totally my fault for not updating. Don't blame Yeshi. :D She's innocent.
I'm kind a hoping to really get back on track with my stories this summer. I mean I think I'm making progress—I wrote all of this tonight—and it's almost 3am. Holy cow. Lol. I'll be working on "Summer' next and then "In Her Eyes" hopefully.
I hope to make a new story soon too. Ugh. So much plans.