Chapter 8

Spencer's POV

You have got to be fucking kidding me. I was moving on. I was getting over my hang ups and just enjoying the moment I was in with Ashley and stupid fucking Glen goes and ruins it. What could he possibly tell me about Ash and Joshua, and what ever he feels he needs to say like; 'stay away she obviously has baggage, or she is just going to hurt you again.' Whatever! I just don't care anymore because it hurts too much to not be with her.

I give an apologetic look to Ashley sit up and text Glen back. What? I don't need a lecture from U rite now.

Two seconds later I get the reply, Is Ashley with U?

Yeah, We R my house. U were interrupting. What do U want?

I'm coming over, b there in 5.

Before I get a chance to just tell him that I'm busy and it can wait till tomorrow morning, after I'm done doing what I'm doing with Ash. Whatever, I will let him say what he needs to say and kick him the fuck out.

I turn to Ashley to explain. "I'm really sorry. Glen's coming over and will be here in about five minutes. I really don't want him to. I want to continue this, us."

"I know me too." She smiles and is it just me or did it get incredibly hot in here?

"You know whatever he has to say, whatever kind of lecture he is going to give about you hurting me and that you have a kid and tons of baggage, I don't care. Ashley... you did hurt me but that's in the past. I can't just stop these feelings I have towards you. And Josh, he isn't baggage. I love him already and I know in time if you still want to be with me I will love him like he is my own son. I know this situation isn't perfect but I know we will work on us and we will build a better relationship."

"Spencer, relax... whatever Glen has to say I don't care. I have... I lo.. I love you and nothing and no one is going to stop me from feeling this way or fighting to win you back." She leans in and places the softest kiss on my lips. I try to deepen it but she pulls away, "Spence, this is new for us and I don't want to rush. I know we both feel for each other. I just want to make sure what you are feeling is the now and not the past."

"When did you get so wise?"

"When I became a mother." That's right, she is a mom, a totally hot mom.

"Oh my god! I snagged a MILF." I actually find this incredibly funny but she doesn't seem to think so. "Baby, what's wrong?"

"It's nothing, I kind of just had a creepy vision of your mom." She shakes her head to get the thoughts out of it, the moment is totally ruined and then the door bell rings. I open the door and Glen storms in but he isn't angry. It's more of a freak out and he is pacing back and forth.

"Glen, what the hell is up with you?" He isn't saying anything and he is really starting to piss me off. Is he nervous or something?

"Okay, Ashley, look I probably should have just said something before but I don't know, I freaked when I woke up. I was scared and ashamed and then yesterday... I see you with Spence and ... Spence, I'm such an asshole."

"Glen!" I yell. "What the fuck? I know you are an asshole but just fucking say it." I scream again with tears in my eyes. I just started crying but once he started yelling I kind of figured it all out. I know he needs to say it himself, explain himself, about why he felt the need to sleep with Ashley, the one and only woman that I have ever loved and will ever love.

"Three years ago, I went to New York with a bunch of friends, sort of a guys night out because they knew I was proposing to Heather. We were at the club and I was so fucking drunk. The guys just kept feeding me shot after shot. I looked over and I saw this beautiful girl just sitting at the bar and she looked so familiar, so I went up to her and we started talking and then dancing and then I don't remember what happened next, but when I woke up... I was in bed with Ashley and I just freaked out. She was still passed out and I had no idea what we had done, but we were naked, so I pretty much guessed." I feel like I had a huge lump in my throat and I gulped hard trying to get rid of it but the dryness in my mouth made it next to impossible. "That's why I kept asking if you had heard from Ashley. I ran after what I knew I had done. I thought it was just going to be a secret that would die with me, That is until I saw you at the fair with Joshua. He looks so much like me and I knew I had to come clean. I am such an asshole Spencer. I knew how much Ashley meant to you and I go and do a bonehead thing like sleep with her." He is right, this is pretty much the dumbest shit he has ever done. I let the thought sit with me for a moment. I think I should be a lot more angrier than I am right now but I'm not.

When Ashley and I were younger and I was coming to terms with my sexuality, I knew I always wanted my own family but it would be really difficult with the choices I was making. The more and more I fell for Ashley, the more I knew I wanted to be with her forever, and to have a family with her. I know it is kind of sick to think about this now but when I ran through options on how Ash and I might have kids, I did think about asking Glen for a donation. Joshua is a blessing, our blessing and our chance to start over, to be what I always wanted to be with Ashley, a family. I get snapped back to reality when I saw Ashley hitting Glen. "Stupid, fuckin' asshole, you dumb shit, grrr... how could you? how could you not fuckin say anything for the last three years? For three years I had to deal with coming to terms with not knowing who Josh's father is and then it's you." I grab Ashley by the waist and pull her off of Glen. I can see the hurt and frustration in her eyes. I know I am hurt too, my own brother keeping this huge secret from me.

He holds his hands in front of him and blocks any stray punches Ashley feels like throwing at him. "Ashley, I don't want this to hurt you and Spencer. I want to be there for you and for Josh. I want to help you out... anyway I can. I promise I will be there for you." I glance at Ashley from over her shoulder and I can see her sort of relax a bit in my arms. She takes a deep breathe to take this all in. I can honestly say that this is the sincerest Glen has ever been in his life.

Ashley turns and glances at me before turning to face back to Glen. "Glen, I appreciate you being honest and coming forward to tell me. I wish you would have said what you knew sooner. I need to think about this and what it means. Knowing that it was you that is my son's father and not some random dirtbag, I can honestly say I don't mind you in his life, in fact, I think it might be good for him. Can you give Spencer and I a little time to talk this over? I promise I will not leave you out of the loop about what is going to happen. You need to go home and talk with Heather about this, I can imagine she isn't going to be too thrilled." She puts her hand in her back pocket, pulls out her wallet and hands Glen a card, "this is my card, it has all my numbers and email and everything, call me tomorrow and we will discuss meeting up for dinner... you, Heather, Spencer, and I, so we can brainstorm on what our next steps will be and how we are going to handle telling your mother." Fuck my mother!! Damn thats going to be a conversation I don't want to be at.

"Okay," he looks at the card and puts it in his back pocket. "I'm sorry, I really am. I will talk to you tomorrow," he bows his head and goes for the door.

"Glen?!" Ash yells and he turns. She walks over to him and gives him a tight hug. It is really quiet and I can tell she said something privately to him. She follows him out and shuts the door, turns around and begins to sob, sliding down the door to the floor. I run to her and bring her into my chest and she sobs even louder. I know this is all so much for her to handle right now. I want her to know that I am still there for her.

"Ash..." she doesn't respond, "Ashley..." she turns up to look at me. "This doesn't change anything, this doesn't change us. It is all too soon and a little creepy to say this but I want you... I want us... all of us, to be a family. I know it can't be official or anything but I want to marry you. I want to be your wife and spend the rest of my days with Joshua and you. I shouldn't really admit this because I am mad at Glen for keeping it from me but I'm glad it was him, I am happy he is Josh's father," she looks less than convinced, "it means he has good genes." Okay, I know not the best time to make light of the situation. "I still want to take things one day at a time but if we want the same things, then we can pace ourselves and work up to marriage."

"Spencer, I want nothing more than to make you my wife. We will be so happy together, all of us, as a family. So what's the next step? I don't think I want to tell Joshy just yet." She looks so scared and for the first time I have ever seen, unsure of herself.

"I know that finding out that Glen is your baby's daddy is a total mood killer and this is a lot to take in, so, maybe we should just call it a night and we will talk about this tomorrow morning?" She nods her head and gets up and gives me a hug with a kiss on the cheek.

"You are right, I think I need a night to sleep on this. I'll see you in the morning," she turns away and heads to where Josh is sleeping.

"Ash, where are you going?"

"To sleep with Joshua."

"I said I wanted to take things slow but not too slow. Do you think maybe we can spend the night together?" Her eyes go wide. "Relax Sparky, fully clothed, just some light groppage and heavy cuddling. I mean if that isn't too fast for you."

"No, I think that is just my speed. Come here." She pulls me in and kisses me hard. I let my hands run down her back. Our tongues tangling with each others. I bite her lower lip and a small moan escapes. I let my tongue glide down her jaw bone and find her favorite spot. I stop and I can tell she wasn't ready to, I grab her hand and lead her to mybedroom. This just feels right.