Disclaimer: Nope, Bones is still not mine.
Angela gasped and her hand went to her mouth. Her brown eyes were wide with shock and her expression mirrored her friends. "Oh my God Brennan…."
Brennan shook her head,
but seemed to feel better now that the words were out in the open.
"Angela, I just can't believe this. I mean…how could it have
happened?"
Angela smiled a little at that and placed a hand on
Brennan's knee. "Well you see sweetie, when a man and woman—"
Brennan shook her head.
"I know that, thank you," she said, interrupting. "I
just…we…we took every precaution."
"Sometimes that just
isn't enough Brennan," Angela said gently. "If God wants you
to have a baby…"
Brennan shook her head again. "Angela, this has nothing to do with God. This has to do with a condom failing—even though it didn't break—and me now being pregnant!"
"I know that Brennan but—"
"I don't know how this is going to work. I mean I'm not sure how much longer I can work. Of course I am financially able to provide for a child, but I do not know how to care for an infant! And being around corpses may not be safe for the baby as well as, if I experience heightened sensitivity to smell, as some pregnant women do, I will no longer be able to go to the crime scenes. I don't want to leave the child with a nanny either while I work. Of course abortion is still an option but I don't think it is something that I relish but on the other hand—" Brennan stopped for breath and Angela raised a hand, signaling her friend to cease speaking.
"That's enough sweetie," she said, her voice calm and soothing. "There will be plenty of time to think about what to do with the baby when it comes."
"Maybe I could put it up for adoption…" Brennan mused to herself.
"Sweetie!" Angela's voice was sharp for a moment, but it got Brennan's attention. "Focus. Thank you. Okay, now take deep breaths, and calm down. First, I think you need to tell me who the father is. I didn't think you were seeing anyone."
Brennan blushed a
little and waved her hand as if to wave the question away. "I
wasn't—I mean, I'm not. I'm not seeing anyone."
"Well
then how could this...?" Angela trailed off.
Brennan got to her feet and walked over to her stereo. She stroked it lovingly, remembering the times that Booth had been over and every time, been amazed by her Foreign CD. Leaning her elbows on it, she stared out at the D.C. landscape, the lights blinking through the night at her. "It was Sully," she said quietly.
Angela exhaled with an,
"Oh." That was not the answer she had been hoping for.
"I
don't know how it happened. I guess it happened just after he
left. I just…I didn't want it to be like this you know?"
Brennan turned back to Angela who was surprised to see tears in the
woman's grey eyes. "I wanted a child but-but I wanted it to be
with someone—I just—I didn't want Sully to be the father of my
baby."
Angela got up and went to her friend, placing her arms around the trembling Brennan. "I know sweetie, I know," she whispered.
Brennan hugged Angela
back fiercely. "I wanted my baby to grow up with a family Angela.
With a father and a mother; people who love it."
"Hey,"
Angela pulled away from the hug and held Brennan by the shoulders,
looking her carefully in the eyes, "This baby will have lots of
people to love it. I will totally be there with you, picking out
baby clothes and everything. Zack and Hodgins will be happy because
you're happy—they'll probably end up getting the kid a huge,
ridiculous and weird present—and Cam will be glad because she'll
finally be getting you out of the lab," Angela smiled.
Brennan
laughed a little at that. She knew that neither Angela nor Cam meant
it. "What about Booth?" she asked quietly.
Angela sighed and went to sit back on the couch. She pulled her jean clad legs up under her, her red flats startling against the black couch. She focused on them for a moment before looking back at her friend who had taken a seat as well. "Booth I think will be…happy for you," she said.
Brennan looked up, eyes wide with surprise. "You think so?" she asked.
"Well you did want a
baby and then he went in to get that tumor removed…."
"But
I don't want him to think that because he said no I went and got
pregnant with someone else just…just because I wanted a baby! This
was an accident. I didn't want Sully's baby…"
"You
wanted Booth's," Angela finished softly for her.
Brennan
looked up, eyes wet with unshed tears and nodded her admittance.
"Oh sweetie," Angela sighed, moving closer and gathering her friend up against her.
Brennan's head lay on
Angela's shoulder and she let her tears fall freely as she hadn't
in a long time. "When I asked Booth to donate his sperm, that was
all I wanted Angela. I didn't even know I was already pregnant.
Anyway, I thought that I could do this—be a mother—on my own.
But I can't. I realized it when I knew that I was really pregnant.
I can't do this alone Angela, I can't."
"Shhh, it's
okay Brennan," Angela said quietly, stroking her friend's back in
a soothing, gentle motion. "Hey you will think of what to do.
You're just tired right now okay? You need to get some sleep and
in the morning, you will be able to think this through."
Brennan
nodded and sat up, wiping the tears from her face. "Thank you for
coming Angela," she whispered.
Angela pressed a hand to Brennan's cheek. "I will always come sweetie. Always."
Brennan smiled, tears
still in her eyes. She got up and walked her friend to the door.
"Angela," she said, just as the dark haired woman was about to
shut the door behind her.
Angela turned and waited.
"I-I'm
not going to have an abortion," she said quickly.
Angela smiled
at her friend. She had never thought that Brennan would but she also
knew that Brennan was thinking about what Booth would say if she did.
He was a good Catholic boy and probably believed that abortion was a
sin. "I know hon."
