Authors Note and Disclaimer: Not mine. Just messing around with them. Please let me know what you think. I'm still really really insecure about Severus.
1981
Remus' and Severus' class had graduated in 1978, and despite warnings from both sides, they had resumed their previous relationship, albeit quietly at first. Luckily, Voldemort was intent on gaining werewolf spies, and when he learned that Remus Lupin was one such werewolf, Severus was encouraged to pursue his 'friendship' with the other man.
They happily continued their tradition of not prying into each others lives more than was necessary, if for no other reason than because they were both so busy with their own business.
It seemed to Remus that after ringing in the New Year in 1981, Severus had become distracted. As the year progressed, they both were feeling it more and more, until…
I feel like you don't want me around
Severus had disappeared… Again. And Remus was not impressed. He was 21 years old, and needed to have some sort of confirmation, if not a commitment (which he was in no way expecting anyway).
I guess I'll pack all my things
Remus had collected all of his belongings from Severus' flat, and was making his way toward the doorway with his numerous bags.
I guess I'll see you around
He had paused for a moment in front of a photograph of Severus before continuing his path to the door, when the man in question walked in.
It's all been bottled up until now
"Remus! I'm glad you're…", Severus began, but he was cut off by an extremely frustrated Remus.
"Don't! Just don't say anything! It isn't working. Maybe I'm distracted, or maybe you're pulling away, but I'm always alone, even when you're here, and I can't take that anymore."
As I walk out your door
Severus grabbed Remus' arm as he grabbed the doorknob.
"Why?" was all he could ask.
All I can hear is the sound of
Always, always, always
Always, always, always
I just can't live without you
I love you,
Severus.
I hate you
Death Eater.
I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you
Remus answered. "Because I love you so much. Yes, there it is. I. Love. You. And you can't… You can't! Love me back. You're so filled with hate now, and mistrust, and lies."
I can't live without you
"Severus…"
I just can't take anymore
This life of solitude
"We started out sufficiently apart. Our relationship has remained a secret. But this drifting… This separation… I can't accept it."
I guess that I'm out the door
And now I'm done with you
"Goodbye Severus."