This chapter is for Kimmo as well, thanks for believing in me beautiful girl!
Yes, I cried while writing most of this chapter too…
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I picked up my phone and sighed. Jasper was calling for the tenth time today.
I huffed and frustration but answered the phone.
"What do you want Jasper?" I mumbled angrily into the phone.
"About time you answered the phone!" he hissed at me and I chuckled.
"I had a really big gig last night Jazz, can we talk later?" I groaned and he laughed.
"No, I really need to talk to you about something…NOW" he pushed and I moaned in surrender.
I got out of my comfy hotel bed and walked out onto the patio to look over New York.
"Ok Jazz, what's on your mind?" I sighed and I heard him take a deep breath.
"Well, you know how Emmett and I have girlfriends?" he asked and I snorted.
"Yeah" I laughed and I heard him sigh.
"Well, their best friend is having a really hard time right now. Edward, her parents just died" Jasper whispered and my heart instantly sank. I didn't know the girl, but I had great sympathy for anyone who was fighting that same battle that I've fought before.
"Really? That's horrible" I whispered and Jasper seemed to agree.
"I want you to write a song about her. She's coming to the gig next week" he said and I blinked in astonishment.
"Jasper, I don't even know the girl" I hissed into the line.
"I know Edward, but once you see this girl eyes, you won't be able to look away. They hold so much sadness" he said and he seemed to whimper slightly.
"Ok, fine. I'm coming to town tomorrow anyway; you and Emmett come meet me. I don't want anyone else there. I'm not ready to be introduced back into reality yet" I sighed and Jasper agreed.
"Ok, bye Jazz"
"Bye Eddie" he chuckled and hissed. I then returned to my bed and collapsed with my phone in my hand.

When I got to Phoenix and went to the main shopping centre.
"Eddie!" I heard and I shuddered. I turned to see my idiotic brothers waving at me.
"Hey guys, Emmy, Jazz-min" I laughed and they both grimaced.
"You're not very nice" Emmett huffed and folded his arm across his chest. I chuckled loudly but composed myself when I saw Emmett was glaring at me.
"1000 apologies Emmett and Jasper" I said and they both smiled. I rolled my eyes and we went walking.
"So, how the hell can I write a song about a girl I've never met before?" I mumbled and Jasper punched my shoulder.
"You just have to imagine what she's going through. We can all do that all too easily" he whispered the last part. It was hard on us, thinking about our parents. We missed them like crazy and I can never forgive myself for being responsible for their death.
"I'm sorry they're gone" I whispered and Emmett slapped me across the face.
"It's not your fault! Stop blaming yourself! They would have driven you to your gig that day anyway!" he yelled and I looked away, my face still stinging.
"God Emmett, you hit like a girl. And plus, I shouldn't even be alive" I whispered and now jasper slapped the other side of my face.
"Edward Cullen, it is not your fault okay? Mum and Dad would have died some time anyway. It just happened a little sooner than expected. And besides, what would Emmett and I have done without you?" he whispered and I nodded.
"Now, don't bring us down today Bro, we're here to help you with inspiration on that song you're going to write for Bella" Emmett smiled cheerily and I chuckled at his child like behavior.

We were sitting in the food court and I was biting into my Red Rooster burger. I looked up and I saw the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen. They were brown to the core but so full of agony. My heart broke just seeing the pain in them and I wished I could take that pain away. I didn't know her and she didn't know me, but suddenly her cheeks flooded with blood and she blushed a beautiful red. She smiled and looked away but her smile was pained. Then, I thought of the impossible chances.
"Jazz" I said as I nudged him, he looked at me with his mouth stuffed with KFC.
"Yeah?" he said with a mouth full of food.
"Would that girl over there be Isabella by any chance?" I asked and he followed when I nodded.
His eyes widened and he quickly swallowed his wicked wing.
"Yes, oh great, now you can write a really good song about her" he said enthusiastically and I already had words in my mind.
I can see it in your eyes, so scared….NOW IS NOT THE TIME EDWARD!

Jasper, Emmett and I spent the rest of the day looking at music gear. I fell in love with a les Paul acoustic guitar.
"Just buy it Edward" Jasper said, "stop giving it goo, goo eyes" he chuckled and I smacked him in the back of the head.
"I will then" I said and being the sophisticated, mature musician that I am; i stuck my tongue out at him. I took the guitar to the cashier and payed for it with half the money from my last gig.
"So, got any ideas for a song for Bella yet?" Jasper asked, feigning nonchalance.
"As a matter of fact, yes I do" I said and turned away from him. We were walking back to the parking lot and saw three girls, one of them was Bella.
"Emmett? Ahh Emmett!" the blonde one screamed and she ran over to him. He picked her up and swung her around. The other girl, the pixie like one, walked over to Jasper and kissed him sweetly. I shuddered and kept walking.
"Eddie, come back and meet our girls" Emmett whined and I sighed. I rolled my eyes and turned back around.
"Eddie? You're Edward?" the pixie one said and I nodded.
"Bella, come here. Come meet Jasper and Emmett's brother" the blonde one called to the pained angel.
"Hi" she whispered shyly once she'd reached us. She didn't look up and I felt bad for her. She must feel so awkward being around people. Good, then she wouldn't know me when I said the song I was about to sing was for her.

After we stood there for twenty minutes, Bella looked very uneasy. She still hadn't looked up and when I said I better get going she didn't even say goodbye.
"Why didn't you look at him? He's gorgeous!" I heard the blonde one, who I now knew was named Rosalie said to Bella.
"I felt really awkward being there" Bella whispered and my heart sank. Poor pained angel.

"Hey, so is this the last time we see you till your gig next week?" Jasper asked as I got into my car.
"Yep, sorry boys. I've got gigs to do. I'll see you in four days though" I smiled and took off in my beautiful car. I loved it. It was a black Mazda M3 and it drove like a dream.

I was a new town for our next gig and the crowd was going wild. I still hadn't perfected the song I was writing Bella.
"Are you ready for this party to start?" I screamed into the microphone and the crowd shrieked in excitement. The adrenaline was purely surreal and I started belting out some serious tunes.

"Ok, I wrote this song a few days ago, it's about my parents" I said in merely a whisper and the crowd automatically went silent.

"I know I wasn't perfect,
I know it wasn't fair,
I know I never really had time to tell you,
I really needed you there,
But now that you're gone,
I need you more than ever,
But my brothers and I,
Are working hard together.

We try to be everything we're not,
to cope with each day as it comes,
but when we whisper something,
the memories hit us like a rock,
and we cry again,
we miss you.

I know we couldn't help it,
it was unavoidable,
it's hard to say goodbye,
to the ones that made you full,
but we try to get by,
and we try to smile,
but sometimes it's just so hard,
so we just get sad for a while.

We try to be everything we're not,
to cope with each day as it comes,
but when we whisper something,
the memories hit us like a rock,
and we cry again,
we miss you.

We know it's not the same anymore,
we know you're not coming back;
we know it's hard to keep the balance,
but we're doing good not to crack.

We try to be everything we're not,
to cope with each day as it comes,
but when we whisper something,
the memories hit us like a rock,
and we cry again,
we miss you.

Mummy and Daddy,
it's over now,
and we miss you" I whimpered the last part and the crowd erupted and to cries and whistles.

"Rest in peace guys" I said and hung my head low. I always finished a concert like this and it always got me more tips, but I wasn't in it for the moment, I was in it for my parents. They'd always believed in me when I was aspiring to be a musician and they died trying to help me fulfill my dream, so I owed it to them that I was living my dream.
"Thank you and goodnight!" I said and walked off the stage. When I got back to my room I saw my brothers standing there.
"We couldn't miss it bro. And mum and dad would be so proud of that song" Emmett whispered and threw himself at me. He hugged me and I hugged back. When everything else hurt, we could always count on each other's love.

I went back to the hotel and brought Em and Jazz with me. I didn't exactly want to be alone tonight. I suddenly got an inspiration for a tune and the chorus. Now I had the whole song together.
"Guys, you want to hear the song I've made for Bella?" I said and they nodded.
"Yeah man, we need to approve" Emmett chortled and I threw my shoes at him.
"Ok, here goes nothing" I breathed as I picked up my guitar. I started playing the notes that flowed freely through my head and both their eyes widened when I began with the lyrics.

Once I'd finished they both stood up and gave me a standing ovation.
"She'll love that man!" they cheered in unison and I raised my thick alabaster brow questioningly at them.
"Uhm, she'll love it Eddie; she really will" Jasper said after clearing his throat awkwardly.
"Listen man we have to go" Emmett said and I nodded.
"Yeah, we didn't actually tell Carlisle and Esme that we were coming" Jasper laughed nervously and I stared, my mouth agape.
"You need to be way more responsible than that, guys!" I hissed. They both ducked their heads and nodded. I all but kicked them out the door and went to my bed. I flopped down onto and was consumed by dreams of speeding cars and laying in a hospital bed; all with the frightening image of my mothers' bloodied face staring blankly at me.

When I woke up, I had tears trailing down from my eyes to the pillow. My lips were trembling and I broke down. I sobbed for hours and hours and then I pulled out my phone. I dialed my mother's mobile number and when her answering machine spoke, my heart, felt whole for just a second, before I remembered that she was gone.

'Hello, you've reached Elizabeth Cullen. I'm afraid I can't come to the phone right now; I'm probably off with one of my boys. Leave a message and I'll get back to you' I heard in my mothers' sweet voice and I was broken hearted. When the button sounded I could only think of one thing I wanted to say to her.

'I miss you mummy…'