Here is the next chapter
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Dedicated to Kimmo and Amy. Thanks for reading (:
Kim-
I'll cut you with my neighbors! Wait.. what?
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BPOV
All though I was sleeping in the arms of the man that I love; I
still felt empty. Yesterday had been the day that all the walls I'd
built to protect my broken soul came crumbling down. Silent tears
slid down my cheek and I began to sob quietly into Edward's chest.
I didn't think I was shaking that badly until I felt Edward's
arms wrap themselves tightly around me.
"Let it all out" he
whispered and I wailed into his chest. All he did was stroke my bag
and hold me while I cried my life away. My heart couldn't possibly
beat if I lost anyone else: if I lost Edward. He whispered sweet
nothings to me as I let my pain flow like a torrent from my eyes.
When I was nearing the end of my whimpering; he stroked my hair. I
pulled back to look at him and his eyes were full of pain.
"Are
you okay?" I whispered and some surprise was added to the pain in
his emerald orbs.
"You want to know if I'm okay?" he
asked and I nodded sadly.
"Bella; I'm fine. It just really
hurts that you are in so much agony. I just wish I could help you in
some way" he said and he sounded agonized. I reached my hand up and
caressed his face with it. He leaned into my touch and inhaled
deeply.
"You have done more than I deserve" I whispered and
his eyes fluttered open.
"I haven't done anything" he
argued and I rolled my eyes.
"How can I possibly describe all
that you have done for me?" I asked; more to myself but I still
addressed him. I closed my eyes and some extra tears made their
escape. I thought for what seemed like hours and then I knew the
exact words I could say.
"Edward; my family… they're gone.
They left me and they never had any other choice. But you; you stayed
with me when I needed someone and oyu didn't even know me. You sang
me a song and helped me smile for the first time in months and you
fell in love with me. No one has ever done more for me
than you have" I whispered and a tear slid down his beautiful
cheek. "Please don't cry" I whimpered and he shook his head.
"I
love you" he whispered in a breath and took my face in his hands.
His lips brushed against mine and then they came down harder. It
wasn't a hot, fiery kiss that so many people feel the need for. It
was a kiss full of pain and acceptance. In his lips I could
understand his silent message that he was never going to let me go;
and that was more then I could ever need.
"Bella, honey are you awake?" I
heard a familiar whisper and I opened my eyes and noticed that my
cheeks were wet with fresh tears.
"Aunt May?" I asked groggily
and she walked into the room. It was still daylight and I looked down
to see that Edward's jaw was slack and his breathing was deep and
even. As I watched him; his face contorted with pain and a tear slid
down his cheek; and then he relaxed again. It was heartbreaking to
see that he was hurting; and it was even worse knowing that I caused
that pain.
"How are you?" Aunt May asked and I turned my gaze
to her. She looked like a mess. Her brown hair was matted into a
loose pony tail at the base of her neck and her eyes were blood shot
and ringed with red.
I thought about her question. How was I?
I could only think of one answer.
"I feel like a part of me has
died" I whimpered and the tears fell free again. She ran over to me
and sat on the bed carefully; not wanting to jostle Edward. She took
me into her arms and together; we let out as much of the pain as we
could. She cried and whispered sweet nothings into my ear and I
sobbed and stained her shirt with my tears.
"Why did he take
them all?" I whimpered and Aunt May pulled back to look at me. She
knew I wasn't a big believer in God; but I knew that she
was.
"Everything our lord does; he does for a reason" she said
firmly but her voice broke at random intervals. She stared into my
eyes and it looked like she was looking for something worth telling
me.
"What do you want Bella? Let me see what oyu want" she
whispered.
Aunt May had always believed that
she could read what a person wanted most just by looking in their
eyes; and most of the time she was right.
"Bella…" she
gasped and I blinked. She looked… astonished?
"What?" I
whispered and she blinked three times. "What did you see?" I
begged as her gaze went unwavering.
"Him" she said and pointed
to Edward. "All I see is him". My heart gave a little jerk.
Edward was all I wanted. Normally; she could see more than one thing;
but for me; all she saw was the truth. He was all I wanted. I wanted
him more then I wanted air to breathe, more then I wanted life; I
wanted Edward. He was my life now. I couldn't handle it if I
lost him; I was hanging on a thing wire as it was. The tears slid
down my cheeks as I thought of how much Edward meant to me. In the
short time I'd known him; I had falling desperately in love with
him. He was my oxygen; he was my heart.
"He's amazing"
I whispered and her eyes melted.
"He seems that way, doesn't
he?" she said; smiling as genuinely as possible.
"Yes, I love
him" I whispered and she smiled sadly.
"Take care of the ones
you love Bella. Because you know better than I do; that in the blink
of an eye… they could be gone" she said and choked on the word
'gone'. I started cry burst through my lips and Aunt May embraced
me once more. I didn't want to feel the agony rip through me like a
wild hurricane. I wanted my mum and Dad back. I wanted my little
brother to say my name incorrectly like he always did. I wanted to
feel at home.
"I want them back" I whimpered. "I want
them so much it hurts" I sobbed and she ran a comforting hand down
my back. Then; I felt another hand stroke my hand and I pulled away
and glanced at Edward. His eyes were full of sadness and regret and I
crashed into him.
"I'll leave you two alone" Aunt May
whimpered and walked out of the room. I sobbed uncontrollably into
Edward chest and I felt horrible.
"I'm sorry" I whimpered
and he pulled my chin up to look at him.
"Don't apologize"
he said sternly and I looked away from his intense gaze.
"I cry
too much" I whispered and he shook his head.
"Cry on me as
much as oyu need; anything to help relieve your pain" he whispered.
EPOV
I
played with the key that was around my neck. The key to Bella's
heart. I can't believe she is going through this. She's lost
her parents and her brother and she apologizes to me for cryin too
much! She was too selfless and self sacrificing.
Right now; Bella
was sleeping and whimpering n her slumber. I wanted to yank her out
of it; but just moments ago, the nurse had come to say that Bella
could get released when she woke up. SO I was relishing in the
moments that I have her in my arms.
Bella stirred and at first I thought
she'd woken; but then I looked down and her face was not the face I
wanted to see. She looked so agonized in her unconscious state and
her bottom lip was quivering.
"Bella, wake up" I whispered but
she didn't budge.
"Edward, they're gone" she whimpered and
in her sleep and then a river of tears leaked from her precious eyes.
I couldn't handle the way her voice cracked and trembled when she
whispered of her loss. I shook her shoulders gently and when she woke
up; a look of relief mixed with agony washed over her features.
"Are
you ready to go home?" I whispered and her eyes brightened for a
fraction of a second and then her face fell again.
"There is
nothing left for me there" she whispered and my heart broke all
over again.
"Do you want to come… with… me?" I asked and a
smile played on the corners of her lips.
"Please" came through
in a whisper and I smiled at her.
"Your wish is my command" I
answered and she closed her eyes momentarily.
"When?" she
asked; her eyes still shut.
"Right now" I smiled and her eyes
opened wide.
"Now?" she asked and I nodded.
"A
nurse came while you were sleeping and said that you could go as soon
as you woke up" I grinned at her and for the first time in days; my
angel smiled at me.
"Thank you Edward" she breathed and I
hugged her closer to me.
"Ok, come on Bells. Up and at 'em.
Let's get you home" I smiled and her eyes welled up in
tears.
Tears spilled over the edges and she buried her face in the
pillow beside her.
"Bella, are you okay?" I whispered and she
looked up at me with regret plaguing her features.
"I'm sorry.
I'm being stupid" she whimpered and I rolled my eyes.
"Bella,
please tell me so I can refrain from doing it in the future" I
begged and she stared at me; dumbfounded.
"I don't want you
to stop" she whispered and I raised an eyebrow at her. "My Mum
was the last person to call me Bells" she whispered and I felt my
heart sink.
"I'm sorry" I whispered, "I won't do it
again" I finished and she shook her head vigorously.
"Edward,
please. I need the memories" she whispered and I couldn't deny
the way her eyes told a million painful stories and that I could see
right to the depths of her soul and see that she needed to remember
so that she couldn't handle forgetting.
"Ok Bells" I
started, "I'll help you remember" I whispered and she smiled
gracefully.
"You're a god send" she whispered and I
chuckled.
"Bella, if anyone was sent from heaven it was you. You
just happened to fall from grace" I stated and she stared at me for
a second before speaking.
"I'm still falling" she mumbled
and I smiled.
"And from here on out; I'll be waiting to catch you".
So, what did oyu guys think?
It
made me cry… :/. I know I'm the author, but I always cry when
something is emotional. I'm sorry, I HAD to put some sweet stuff in
there (:
