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I walked and walked. No matter how
happy I was that Edward was here holding my hand; I still had the
constant void that told me I'd be the only one of the Zach's
immediate family to attend his funeral. What was worse; is that I was
the only one left. We walked around the cemetery until I saw a coffin
looming on the ground. It was a beautiful coffin; as far as coffins
go. It hurt me so badly to know that my little brother was inside it.
I whimpered as Edward and I approached it and he gave my hand a
gentle squeeze.
"I'm here" he whispered and those two words
melted away any insecurity I had. Now all I had was the numbing ache
that my family left behind.
"Thank you" I whispered and he
let out an exaggerated breath.
"Maybe I shouldn't be here"
he whispered and I felt the panic rise in my throat. I started to sob
and threw myself into his chest.
"Edward; oh Edward I can't do
this without you. I am barely standing; I'm only being brave enough
to get through this with you. You're all I have left" I
whimpered as he gently stroked my hair.
"Okay, I'll stay" he
mumbled and I kissed his shirt repeatedly.
I'd been living with Jasper, Edward and Emmett for a week now; and Alice and Rose seemed to be there all the time as well. I was so thankful for my friends; and mostly for Edward. This is a dark time in my life and it would be even less bearable without them. When I'd first gone home after being in hospital; the first greeting I got was a giant bear hug from Emmett and a gently one from Jasper. Alice and Rose had rushed into the room and taken me in their arms while I'd sobbed my heart out.
"We gather on this dreadful day, to mourn the loss of Zachery Swan. Beloved son, and brother to Renee, Charlie and Isabella Swan. Can we have a moments silence please?" the priest said sorrowfully and my heart jerked out of my chest. This was the second funeral in a month that I'd had to give a eulogy at. As the tears flowed freely I tried to be quiet; but every now and then an agonised whisper ripple from my lips. After the silence, the priest called me up to read. Edward gave my hand a reassuring squeeze before I walked to the front of the loose crowd of people.
And with a deep and shaky breath; I
said my last words of my brother.
"Zach was my little brother.
In some ways; he was like a best friend. His innocence and caring
ways grew as he did. He never understood my problems; but he always
cuddled up to me and listened. When my parents died, I took on the
responsibility of helping Zach out with things that normally I
wouldn't and our bond grew stronger." Tears slid down my cheeks
as my voice shook. "When I heard that Zach had died; my whole world
went blank. It was hard to comprehend that I'd lost all I had left.
Zach was my safe harbour; he was my favourite person in the whole
world; and then; just like my parents: he was gone. I never thought
it was possibly to die on the inside; but still be living on the
outside; but it is. During my stay at the hospital; I formed an
unbreakable bond with someone who has become my strength, my light in
the darkness, my heart. He stuck by me when we barely knew each other
and he never left my side. So Zach, I promise; with him, I know I'll
be okay" I looked up at the sky with a quivering lip and whispered,
"I hope you're proud of me little brother" and then I broke
down. I sobbed my way over to Edward who had his arms open wide. I
practically ran into them and they wound themselves around me;
keeping me safe from harm.
"I love you" I cried into his chest
and he kissed the top of my head.
"I'll always be your light.
I'll shine my love for you over everything dark and help guide you
back to me" he whispered and my heart melted.
EPOV
The
funeral was two weeks ago. Bella has moped around for those fourteen
days and I feel utterly hopeless. Sometimes I walk past her room and
hear her sobbing. She has been staying in the guest room and I know
that she needs this time alone. I was laying in bed thinking about a
way to help her out of this mess when I saw a thin line of
light.
"Edward?" whispered the shaky voice of my angel and I
sat up and looked at her.
"Yes Bella?" I whispered and she
came over to the bed.
"Can you sleep in my room tonight?" she
whimpered and then started to sob again. I sat up and engulfed her in
a hug. Her shaking body shivered inside my arms and my heart broke in
every single place.
"Of course I can" I whispered and she
clung to me.
"Thank you; for everything" she whispered and I
picked her up bridal style as her face was still buried in my chest
and carried her back to the guest room.
Bella was asleep by the time I got
down the hall with her. She was soundlessly whimpering in my arms as
a held her close to me. I laid her down on the bed and tucked the
doona around her.
"Edward" she breathed desperately and I
thought she'd woken; but she hadn't. I kissed her forehead; and
then each eye, and then I place a chaste kiss on her lips before
going to the closet and getting a spare pillow and blanket. I laid
down on the couch and closed my eyes and soon; unconsciousness
engulfed me in its ragged ray.
When I woke up in the morning, what
I saw and felt was amazing. Curled up on my chest with her face in
the crook of my neck was Bella. Her breathing was even and unshaken.
Her hand was placed over my heart and her other one was hanging limp
over the side of the couch. I smile when she nuzzled her head into
the crook of my neck and sighed.
"Bella love?" I whispered and
she stirred lightly. She clenched my shirt with her hand and then I
felt her gently kissed in my neck.
"Are you awake?" I
whispered.
"No" she said stubbornly and I chuckled
lightly.
"Are you feeling okay?" I asked and then she brought
her head up to look at me. She leant down and kissed me deeply; and
filled with love.
"I am now" she whispered and she broke away.
I hugged her close to me and inhaled her scent.
"Why didn't
you sleep on the bed?" I asked while absently playing with a lock
of her hair.
"I needed you" she whispered and I stopped
playing with her hair.
"Why?" I asked; concern lacing my
voice.
"I felt so guilty" she mumbled; looking away.
"Why
did you feel guilty beautiful girl?" I asked; shocked.
"All I
have done all fortnight is cry and mope; and I felt like I'd been
neglecting you. Then; I woke up in the middle of the night; and I
felt scared that you hated me. So I came over to you and laid with
you because I needed to feel loved again" she whispered and then I
crashed my lips into hers.
This time; our kisses were desperate and full of sorrow. Every second we'd break apart and take a breath; only to go straight back to the kissing. These kisses were reassurances. I rolled Bella over and the kissing resumed. She entangled her hands in my hair and held my face to hers. After in immeasurable amount of this I moved my kisses to her neck and all I could hear were the sounds of her broken sobs. She constricted her hands around my neck and I stood up on my knees; having my arms wrapped around her waist; bringing her with me. Her head lay limply backwards and I placed a kiss on her neck before I walked us over to the bed.
BPOV
And
that was when we made love.
I know we are only in high school;
but it felt so right. It was desperate and intense and passionate and
I never wanted it to end. But it had to. I had never felt so loved in
my life and I knew beyond reason that Edward was my life; my future;
my everything. I rolled over and saw the smiling face of an
angel.
"Hey beautiful" he whispered and I leant forward to
kiss him. It was soft and sweet; all the desperation had been burned
out of us for now.
"Hey yourself" I mumbled and then bit my
lip. He smiled and stroked my cheek with the gentlest touch; as if I
were a feather and would break with the slightest pressure. I laid my
head against his bare chest and his fingers danced gracefully across
my naked shoulder.
"I'm sorry" he whispered and I looked up
at him; abashed.
"For what?" I whispered strongly and he
looked ashamed.
"I shouldn't have done that without asking
you" he mumbled, looking away and the corners of his lips were
turned down.
"I wanted you to" I whispered and his eyes
snapped back to me.
"You did?" he asked and I smiled and
nodded.
"It was amazing. Thank you" I whispered and pushed
myself up to kiss him. His tongue slid across my bottom lip and I
opened my mouth eagerly. Our tongues danced gracefully and eventually
I pulled back.
"I just remember I have to do something" I
mumbled; frustrated. I rolled over and took one of the blankets to
cover my exposed self up. I walked over to the phone that was in the
room; in my bed sheet and dialled the number that ached every time I
punched it in.
"Hello?" came the answer after the first
ring.
"Aunt May" I breathed and her breathing hitched.
"Bella
dear, how are you?" she asked and I thought about it for a second.
Finally, I had a word for it.
"Better" was all I said and I
could almost picture her expression.
"That's good sweetheart.
Will we be seeing you again tomorrow?" she asked and I smiled
slightly despite myself.
"Yes, and I am bringing someone for you
to meet" I said.
"Oh really? Is it that young man you talked
about at the...?" she trailed off and I knew the memory burned her
too.
"Yes, his name is Edward" I whispered.
"I can't
wait to meet him. See you tomorrow Bella" she said and then she
hung up. I turned to Edward who had his hands behind his head.
I
walked over and got back into the bed.
"I love you, you know"
I mumbled and I heard his smile.
"I love you too. Don't ever
doubt that".
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Bee.
