As Edward walked hand in hand up the
porch of the house that I couldn't bear to look at anymore; my
heart was pounding achingly.
"I can't do this" I whimpered
and started to turn away but Edward arm caught my waist.
"You
can do this Bella. I love you; I'm here. Don't worry" he
whispered in my ear and I nodded weakly. We knocked on the door but
there was no answer. We knocked again and still there was no answer.
I pounded my fist heavily on the door as my fear crept into my throat
and finally I stood back and kicked it open. I frantically searched
the house but I couldn't find anything. Eventually I went up to
check my parent's room and when I opened the door; I collapsed
again. The sobs broke through my chest as darkness engulfed me once
again.
EPOV
I
hated this. How can one person handle so much grief? Three days ago
when Bella and I had gone to her house for me to meet her Aunt; we
searched the house and eventually we found her aunt dead on the floor
of her parents' bedroom. Her heart was resting limply on her chest
and her eyes were glistening with fresh tears. She hadn't been dead
for long. My father had been a doctor and a few times I'd seen dead
people and Bella aunt May was still warm when I went to check her
pulse. Bella was unconsciously sobbing and I picked her up.
"Bella"
I whispered and her face contorted into agony. She slowly opened her
eyes and when she saw me gazing back at her she tried to smile; but
then she broke down again.
"She's gone Edward" she whimpered
and clung to me as she cried into my chest. I felt like crying with
her because she was me. We were the other halves of each other. I'd
carried her to the front door and awaited the ambulance I'd called
and then it came.
Now; I am sitting beside Bella at
the funeral and she is getting ready to sing. She'd promised her
Aunt May that she'd sing at her funeral a song she'd written when
she was fifteen and I'd never heard it or her voice; so I was
anxious.
"And now, Isabella Swan; the niece of May Swan, will
now sing a song she wrote when she was fifteen" the priest said and
Bella stood shakily. She walked to the front of the crowd and sat at
the piano. When she started to play the notes, I started to cry with
her.
"Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here". She whispered the last line as the tears streamed down her cheeks and the whole funeral erupted into sorrowed applause.
Later, Bella also read out a poem
she'd written.
(This is an original poem)
BPOV
I
shakily walked up to the front again and stood in front of everyone I
knew and everyone my Aunt knew. I took a deep, wispy breath and
spoke.
"Do you remember long ago?
when
the whisper was a lie?
you said you'd always be there for
me,
but that really didn't apply.
It seems that god had other
plans,
ones to make me cry,
it seems that his other plan,
was
one where you would die.
I've lost everything,
I've
lost my heart,
I've lost my family,
and what I else, I can't
even start.
The tears are never ending,
these
eyes are rimmed with red,
as my mother, my father, my brother, my
aunt,
all of you are dead.
I have only one person,
who is
the key to healing my heart,
and I know that I would die too,
if
we ever were to part.
I still can't imagine,
I still
fail to see,
what purpose there is,
in taking you all from me.
I take in a shaky breath,
because
I know I'll be alright,
even if I have to grief,
for many
days and nights.
And I will grieve for you,
I will
let the tears fall,
for a life without all of you,
would have
been no life at all.
The night comes as a blanket,
to
forget everything I feel,
but when morning comes and I wake
up,
everything feels much more real.
But as I breath and I live,
I let
out an agonized sigh,
but with him here,
I whisper to you
all…'Goodbye'". I finished and rushed off into the nearest
bathroom. I curled up into a ball and cried to myself for hours. I
could tell because it had gotten dark. Eventually Edward came into
the female toilets as if he didn't are; and he nurtured me for
hours again until eventually; I'd fallen asleep in his arms.
EPOV
She
was so fragile; so strong; but I didn't know what to do. She was
also… very, very broken.
Sooo?... what did you think?
That song is called 'Angel' and it's by Sarah McLaughlan.
