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I felt sick.
I was sitting on the bathroom floor
with my head between my legs and I was scared.
"Edward, what if
it's Swine Flu?" I whispered and his hand paused in rubbing my
back.
"We'll make it through" he whispered.
Ok, here's the story; I'd been
throwing up for the past three weeks. I thought I couldn't possibly
lose any more of what I ate but no; I was wrong.
"Bella; I
booked you an appointment with the hospital" Jasper said, walking
into the bathroom. "Ew, it smells in here" he said and scrunched
up his face. I glared up at him and he ran from the room. I heard
Edward chuckle softly behind me and I looked up at him but it made me
light headed. I swayed right into him and he caught me.
"Maybe
we should ask Jasper when that appointment is" he murmured and I
shrugged weakly. He picked me up bridal style and carried me
carefully out to everyone else.
"Bella!" Rosalie shrieked and
I stared at her and smiled a genuine smile. I hadn't smiled since
it started because it hurt. When I used to get sick; my mum would
help em and Dad would get me some lemonade. I didn't dare tell any
of them because I knew that they would try and help; but all I needed
was to wallow.
I'd finished school just before the nausea started. I didn't dare tell anyone what I thought it was. I just acted like I didn't know; but in truth; I was terrified of how much I knew. I shook as Edward gently put me down. I was starting to feel better; like I always did at this time of the day. This; was yet another clue to the big picture I'd put together. I didn't know if I could do it; I hadn't been prepared; and I sure as hell didn't want to do it by myself.
I started to cry as I contemplated
everything I'd been through this past year.
I'd lost my
parents, my brother, my aunt and just recently, I found out my cousin
in Australia had been in a p-Plate accident; which is apparently very
common. I had also lost… my virginity. I didn't mind the last one
all too much because it was with the most amazing boy in the world.
And now, I had to deal with this.
The next day.
"I'm scared" I said and not
because I was afraid of what I might find out I was actually more
afraid of having my suspicions confirmed.
"You'll be okay
baby" he whispered and kissed my forehead comfortingly.
"Isabella
Cullen?" I heard and I was shocked. Cullen? I turned to Edward and
he smiled sheepishly.
"I asked Jasper to say it. I hope you
don't mind" he whispered and looked away. I put my hand under his
chin and he looked at me; Emerald looking into brown.
"I love
it. You have no idea how much" I whispered and kissed his
mouth. Surprisingly I hadn't had any nausea today; but one thing
was surprisingly hard to ignore. I was two and a half weeks late.
I stood up and held out my hand and
Edward took it quickly. We walked; hand in hand, to where we were
going to hear my results. I'd come in yesterday and had the blood
test done and was unable to sleep all night.
I sat at one of the
chairs in front of the desk in his office and he sat across us with
an unreadable expression on his face. When he saw me he smiled widely
and at that moment; I knew I was right and surprisingly; I wasn't
upset or scared. I felt… perfect.
"I knew it" I breathed and
Edward turned to look at me. I looked at the doctor and he simply
nodded and motioned for me to go ahead.
"Edward, I'm pregnant"
I whispered and his face lit up. He threw himself from his chair and
tackled me and threw me into the air before catching me in a
passionate kiss.
We drove home in utterly beautiful
silence. We were both overjoyed.
"A baby" he whispered and I
smiled and butterflies fluttered helplessly in my stomach.
"Yeah,
a little boy" I whispered and looked lovingly down at my still flat
stomach.
"A boy eh?" Edward said and it was impossible to miss
the joy in his voice. I smiled lovingly at my boyfriend and I
couldn't escape how strange it was that not even two months in;
we're having a baby together. But we'd both known from the second
we met each other that we'd be together for as long as we lived. I
also couldn't escape the unmistakable joy that was radiating from
me.
EPOV
I
couldn't help but smile. I don't care how young I am; I'm
having a baby with the woman I plan on spending my life with. Two
months doesn't count as short to me; it only counts as the
beginning of the rest of my life with her. I'd known within ten
seconds of meeting her that I'd love her always; and now she was
carrying my child.
We'd decided after much consideration not to tell anyone until three months; that way we would be the only ones aching if it… didn't happen. It was hard for me not telling my family but I knew that it was harder on her; not having any family to share it with. I knew it would be hard on any children Bella and I had; not having grandparents on that side of the family… or my birth parents. Or really anyone for that matter. But they would have me; the best dad in the world, Emmett; a teddy bear of an uncle, Jasper; a calm uncle, Rose; a vain Aunty, Alice; a hyperactive shop-a-holic aunty, me; the best dad in the world. But they were most blessed to have Bella as their mother. She was one of the most loving and compassionate people I'd ever met in my life and she's been through so much heartache. We were flying to a place called Brisbane in Australia to be with her distant relatives after her cousins' recent yet tragic death.
1 ½ months later
I was sitting in my room testing out
a new tune I was writing for Bella when I heard sobs coming from the
bathroom. I knew who it was and jumped up quickly and burst
in.
"Bella what's wrong" I asked frantically and found her
clutching her stomach.
"I-I-I-I lost him Edward. I'm bleeding.
I-I-I-I'm so s-s-sorry" she whimpered and my heart broke in two
different places for two different reasons. One- Bella was in agony
and Two- We'd lost our baby. I huddled down next to her and held
her tight.
"Shh, Bella, it's okay. We'll try again. I love
you" I whispered as her sobs subsided into quiet whimpers. I could
handle seeing her like this. She's lost too many people in her life
and she just lost her child. How was one person supposed to cope? I
saw the blood on her pants and I didn't need any more confirmation
than that.
That was three days ago. In the past
three days I have never seen Bella more miserable then she has been.
It hurt knowing that I couldn't take away her pain.
"Bella,
are you ok? It's just a miscarriage. It happens all the time" I
said trying to be reassuring.
"I know Edward" she said with a
weak smile, "I just can't stand the fact that everything I love
dies. I didn't have the opportunity to love this baby and it died"
she whispered and silent tears strode down her unforgiving cheeks. I
leant forward and kissed each tear and I saw something I'd missed
terribly. Her smile.
"I love you" she whispered and I smiled
and started to kiss her. I held onto her tightly as we made
passionate love. However I could tell it hurt Bella by the look on
her face; so it didn't go on for as long as it could have.
"Are you ok?" I whispered in her
ear after I kissed away some hair.
"I'm not sure. That really
hurt" she whispered and I sighed. I got out of the bed but she
clutched to my arm.
"Don't leave me" she begged and my heart
tore.
"I'm not beautiful girl. I couldn't ever. Besides; I'm
getting changed so I can take you to the doctor" I smiled and she
huffed sadly.
"I don't want to go to the doctor" she mumbled
and I kissed the tip of her nose but had to quickly get away before I
took it too far again.
I was sitting in the waiting room.
The reason I say I was is because Bella wasn't here with me. The
doctor had asked to see her by himself. Suddenly the door opened and
Bella came out with tears streaming down her face; but something was
different about those tears. Maybe it was the fact that they were
running down her smile. She rushed over to me and engulfed me
in a hug. I chuckled slightly and hugged her back.
"I know why
it hurt Edward" she whispered my I felt a tug at my heart. It was
guilt.
"Were you still bleeding?" I asked quietly and felt her
shake her head.
"Not even close" she whispered and her voice
broke. I pulled back and looked at her face and there was so much
happiness in her eyes.
"Well then?" I couldn't let myself
hope for the impossible.
"I'm still pregnant" she whispered
and I felt my heart soar.
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