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Bella. Bella. Bella. Bella. My Bella. Her name resounded in my head like a broken record. I'd left her when she was carrying our baby; I only did it because I thought she was ashamed. But I know that isn't any kind of excuse. I'd stayed at my Aunt's house in Forks, Washington and one night I'd been sleeping when I heard a soft, beautiful, farmilar whimper. As soon as I'd opened my eyes; I'd seen her. Bella was in my closet stairing lifelessly at me; with a noose around her neck. As soon as she'd seen me she'd let herself fall. As soon as I'd seen that; I launched myself out of the bed and went to her. I threw the closet door open and took her still, fragile form into my arms. I'd begged her to live but she wasn't looking at me. Her eyes were closed and the roped had both burned and cut her neck.I'd screeched out my aunt's name and she had come running in. Her face portrayed fear, compassion and professionalism. And now; here I am; sitting down in the waiting room of the Forks Hospital.
"Edward Cullen?" I heard from within my tortured stupor. I looked up through blurry eyes to see the angry looks of my family and friends. I began to sob and their expressions softened. Emmett came over and put a gentle arm around me. As I cried and wailed and sobbed my heart out; I heard small murmurings. I caught the words 'attempted suicide' and my interest perked. I stared as the nurse conversed with Carlisle Cullen; my uncle. "She tried to hang herself in his closet" Carlisle Murmured and my heart sank two or three extra times. "Oh Doctor Cullen; I am so sorry. Is your son alright?" the nurse asked in a flirtatious way. It made me sick to the stomach that Bella was lying somewhere after trying to kill herself and here was this nurse flirting with my uncle. "Oh, he isn't my son. My brother Jerome was his father; and he passed away some time ago" Carlisle explained and I felt yet another pain shoot through my aching heart.
It was hours before any of us could see
her. It frustrated me to no end to have to sit and wait while I
cried for her. I hope the baby was okay also. I hung my head in my
hands and cried again when I thought of how pig headed and
insensitive I was.
"Edward?" I
heard Carlisle's voice and I lifted my head slowly. My tears had
stained my shirt. "Yes?"
I answered in a weak and hoarse voice.
"You can go in and see her
now" he said and my heard thudded painfully from the relief. I
nodded numbly and stood without remembering if I told myself to. I
made my way through the halls until I got to my angels room. She was
laying on the bed and her neck was wrapped in gauze. It was
heartbreaking. She was asleep and her face looked pained. I slowly
and silently opened the door and then shut it behind myself. I walked
over to her; it was like I was an onlooker watching a burning man
head towards the love of his life. This was so surreal and yet so
painful.
"Edward please. I love you" my angel whispered in a choked voice.
I stared at her and realised she was dreaming about the day I'd…left.
I broke down then. My loud sobs wracking through every inch of my
body. I threw myself onto the chair that was beside her bed and
rested my head next to hers. I took her hand on mine and kissed each
knuckle softly while I cried.
"I'm so sorry; I love you so
much" I whimpered.
I fell asleep like that. Holding my angels hand and listening to
her shallow breathing. As well as the constant beep,
beep, beep of
the monitor. I woke up to the feeling on my hair being stroked. It
was amazing and the only person who stroked it like that was Bella. I
slowly opened my eyes and saw that she was staring straight into
them. She had tears running down her cheeks; but she looked content.
"Edward" she sighed and then her face
crumpled in pain. She started to sob and I took her in my arms. It
didn't escape my attention that I still held her hands and she
still had her other one in my hair. As she sobbed; I did too. For my
angels pain was my pain. And my angels tears made everything feel
wrong. She shouldn't cry, especially after everything she has been
through in the short time I've known her.
"I wasn't
ashamed Edward. I swear. I just didn't know how to tell them" she
whimpered as I rocked her back and forth. I shook my head as she
looked up at me.
"Forgive me Bella. I
love you and this baby so much. You are my everything Bella. Without
you; I lived my life like I was dead. I moped around and Carlisle was
getting fed up with me. I wished for every second that I could hold
you or kiss you; but I couldn't. I made a mistake; the biggest of
my life; by leaving you. I was just scared that you didn't want me;
but I know isn't any excuse for what I've done. But please Bella;
I want to kiss you again" I whispered the last part and I knew she
understood because her eyes held yearning.
"Kiss me Cullen" she demanded and I complied eagerly. It was
a hot, fevered kiss. The kind that a man and wife exchange when the
man has been gone for a while. Her sobs racked through my mouth as I
was sure mine did hers. She held onto my for all dear life as she
kissed me and I felt our tears collide at the mouth. They were tears
of relief.
Eventually,
Bella fell asleep. After much dispute about whether or not she had
enough room with me laying on the bed with her. Eventually, she won.
So here I lye on a hospital bed with my Bella laying across my chest.
She had her head buried in the crook of my neck and every now and
then she would unconsciously kiss it; making me shiver.
Later; Alice came in and when she saw us; he face
lit up. She still glared at me and a little while afterwards I found
out that Bella had told them all about the baby. So in their eyes, I
must have been the man who left his pregnant wife. Wife?
That gave me an idea. I slid out from underneath Bella and asked
Emmett and Rosalie to look after her while I was gone. Emmett gave me
a look that said 'I dare
you to run off on her again Edward.. If you do, I'll kill you
myself'. I nodded and smiled as I left the hospital. I drove to
Port Angeles; the closest shopping district from the abysmal Forks,
Washington. I bolted into the nearest place I could find and scanned
through the selection.
"Hi, how can I help you?" I heard
at the exact moment that I found the perfect one.
"I would like to buy
that ring please" I said, pointing to it.
BPOV
I
woke up to the sound of quiet chatter.
"He's been
gone for almost an hour Emmett" I heard Rosalie hiss and then I
felt the panic rising in my throat.. Were they talking about Edward?
Had he left me again? Those thoughts were interrupted by the sound of
Edward's voice. He was apologising for taking so long. He
sounded…elated?
"Bella, I
know you are awake. Can you please open your eyes?" he asked and
then I heard a low, excited gasp come from Alice. I slowly unstuck my
eyes from each other and the sight before me left me stunned. Edward
was kneeling beside my bed with a velvet box in his hand.
"Will you, Isabella Marie Swan; Marry Me; the desperate fool
who is madly in love with you?" he asked and a smile slowly spread
itself across my face.
"Yes" I whispered, barely audible. But I know he heard me
because his eyes went from smouldering, to dazzlingly blissful. He
pulled the elegant ring from its box and slid it onto my finger. It
was the perfect fit. Much like Edward and I.
We told
Carlisle and Esme after our friends had their congratulations time.
Alice was practically bouncing with joy and I giggled slightly at how
happy she was when just yesterday she was murderously angry with my
fiancé.
Finally, I was happy again. After weeks of living Edwardless I was
finally smiling and alive.
He sat beside my and played absently with a strand of my hair. Every
now and then he would bend down and kiss me. Just
enjoy it Bella. He missed you too.
"Well this is wonderful" Esme cheered and Edward smiled
down at me.
"I am so happy for the both of you..
Now Bella, you should be free to go home tomorrow morning. Did you
want me to set Edward up with a cot?" Carlisle asked me and I shook
my head.
"No thank you. He can sleep on here with me"
I sighed and grabbed his hand. I kissed each knuckle before pressing
a sweet kiss into his palm. Then he caressed my cheek and kissed me
softly and sweetly on the mouth.
"I love
you Bella" he whispered into my mouth and I smiled against his.
"I love you too" I whispered. It still hurt to
swallow and touch my neck. I felt ashamed for trying to take my own
life, but I didn't want to think about that. Because my reason for
living had come back to me.
I started to hum a familiar tune and I heard Edward gasp
quietly. Then he composed himself and started to sing along.
"You know, you know it's true"
he whispered, "This is a fight I refuse to lose" he said the last
bit and then his lips came crashing down on mine.
1 Month Later
"Bella, come on we are gong to be late" I
heard from behind the door. I was still admiring the small bump I'd
acquired on m stomach. Suddenly, the door flew open and Edward stood
there in all his glory. Then, when he saw what I was doing; he came
to join me. He hugged me from behind and placed his hands over mine.
Now we were both holding our baby.
"I love you" he
whispered and then kissed my hair. I closed my eyes in happiness.
Finally though, we had to go. On the drive Edward kept his hand in
mine. When we arrived we were told to go in straight away and
chastised for being five minutes late. As I lied down on the bed they
put the cool gel on my stomach. I shivered at the temperature but
shrugged it off.
"Ok now see on this little screen here? Oh… Oh my" the
doctor said.
SORRY! I hope you liked this chapter and yes; I wanted to live you with a cliffhanger! Sorry guys! HAHAHA! And I am so sorry I havent updated in a while! Been really busy with assignments and stuff. Ok guys, One to Three more Chapters :/ AND THEN I CAN START A NEW STORY! *cheers* Anywayyy… Love you guys!
