Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN

Author's note: Will be OOC, of course (this IS a fanfic after all) as well as some of the plot will resemble the actual anime, but still be different. My first fanfic in, well… Forever. But I'll try to do my best. By the way, this one involves Christmas!!! 8D YAY!

Chapter 2: Decisions, Forgetfullness, Blurriness

Flower cat, or two of hearts? Sorrow and misery, or happiness and joy? Rena couldn't decide which to read. She thought for a minute. I don't know… It wouldn't be too bad to read the cat journal… I mean, those things are what caused me to meet him. What caused him to turn my life around-

She grabbed the kitten journal and opened to the first page. She took a deep breath, looked down and started to read.

July 17, 1979

Daddy's very sick. I don't know what's wrong with him. He coughs so hard that blood comes out. Mommy is so worried. I think she's getting sick, too… I hope they will be okay. Daddy bought me this journal today after he and mommy got out of the hospital. He said since I was allergic to kitties, but loved them, this is my way of having a cute little kitty cat! I really li-

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Rena wrinkled her nose and turned a few pages further. She scanned for anything substantial to read. Then she found it. Two short, simple entries.

November 10, 1979

Mommy and Daddy are dead.

November 13, 1979

Granny doesn't want me. Where am I going to live?

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Rena closed her eyes tight, trying to keep her tears back. It had always been pain to visit her when she remembered the day her grandmother turned her away. It had been raining that night. It had taken Rena two days to travel from Hinamizawa to her Grandmother's village. Her granny opened the door, looked at her, and told the officer escorting Rena to her house that she didn't want Rena. Rena had started sobbing the moment her Grandmother closed the door.

November 22, 1979

It's the second day at Aunt Miyuzu's house. Such a tiny place. I miss my house. I miss Mommy and Daddy. I really, really miss Hinamizawa.

December 24, 1979

I want to go home! Aunty said I couldn't have any gifts! She said there wasn't enough money to buy me a present, but just yesterday we went to buy her boyfriend a gift. It's not fair. I want to go home. I told Aunty that I wanted to go home. She just told me that I have to get used to being here. I don't like Aunty…

February 8, 1980

It is so funny! I had Aunty's boyfriend arrested! I called the police and told them he was doing bad things. They got there and I was bruised in just the right places. And I had all these bad things laying around the house. Paraphernalia is what they called it. They believed me! They took him to jail! Now, Aunty will have more time for me, and can buy me presents!

February 9, 1980

This wasn't supposed to happen! Now the police think Aunty did bad things, too! She's so angry at me! Like she knows its my fault! What if she doesn't love me any more!

March 13, 1980

I'm happy Aunty wasn't taken to jail. But now she hates me… She always yells at me. She yells constantly! Always blaming me for things! She makes me angry…

April 13, 1980

Tomorrow's my birthday! I'll be 14!! I hope Aunty gets me something cute! Like a doll or a puppy! Or maybe she'll let us move back to Hinamizawa!!

April 14, 1980

I HATE AUNTY! I didn't get a single birthday gift! She just made an angel food cake! I hate angel food…

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Rena looked at the next entry. It was entirely illegible. She flipped through quite a few more pages. They were all the same.

"Huh?" Rena mumbled, confusion crossing her face. The next journal was in January of the next year.

January 2, 1981

I'm moving back to Hinamizawa! Aunty is coming with me, unfortunately. Stupid whore… I will kill her. I'm going to miss my friends that I made here. But luckily none of them took me to court. The school didn't either. I suppose it's because my best friend scared them. Oyashiro-sama, I love you!

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Rena dropped the journal with a gasp. Oyashiro??? No… Oyashiro cursed and killed people. And what had she meant, court? Rena pondered for a minute.

"Why can't I remember those months?" she asked herself. Then she realized something else. "Since when have I ever used the word whore?! And why did I say I'd kill Aunty?!"

Everything was a blur…..