When it's over
It's hard to be mad at a dead person. Especially if you killed that person twice. And it makes even less sense to be mad at that person for dying when you were shooting at him relentlessly.
Yes Garrus was angry with Saren for dying. Mostly because after the final battle was over and the galaxy saved for now, she had left.
It was an inevitability yes but Garrus thought he would have dealt with it better. Still last night hadn't helped at all.
Tali had come to him in the night during the trip to Ilos. It was no secret that Garrus would be one of the ground team and Tali said she wanted to spend some time with him. They had spent the night in each other's arms in the back of the Mako. Simply just taking in the other's comforting presence. He had left her sleeping in the Mako to go get armored up and when he returned she was gone. That was the last time he saw her.
He told himself he wasn't mad at her. And really he wasn't. He just thought they would have had the time to have one last conversation before she returned to the Flotilla. Just what they would have talked about he didn't know.
Maybe they would have rehashed old times. Maybe he would have pleaded with her to stay despite his own vow not to put her in such a position of choosing. Maybe they wouldn't have said anything and just shared one last kiss. Maybe it was just as well they didn't get to have a last goodbye. After all it's hard to top spending the night with your love in your arms as a last memory.
Besides, the Normandy's crew was breaking up for an extended vacation. The Normandy herself was in drydock undergoing extensive repairs. Shepard was practically bed ridden given her injuries though Liara was more than happy to play nurse. Those two had taken up residence on the Citadel for the time being.
Ashley was plucked by Alliance Brass to be a Drill Instructor. Wrex predictably went back to his bounty hunter ways. Garrus hoped he wouldn't run into his old friend anytime soon. In a fight between himself and Wrex, Garrus wasn't sure which one of them would limp away.
As for himself, Shepard had put his name forward for Spectre candidacy and the Council had accepted rather quickly. The Council owed Shepard a lot considering Shepard had saved their asses quiet literally. And really while Shepard was out of the picture they Council needed a replacement Spectre and Garrus was it.
Garrus finally worked for himself and wouldn't be constrained at all. He couldn't help but grin as an evil thought crossed his mind. He finally could go over Executor Pallin's head. Hell, he could actually punch him and get away with it. And while he was tramping around the realm he would run into the Migrant Fleet. If they were in Citadel space maybe he could use his new rank to get to see her again. Then again that probably wasn't the best way to use his position nor see her again. If he was honest with himself he would just have to marry his work because his heart had gone back to her home.