Disclaimer: Still don't own Harvest Moon

Enjoy lol

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This isn't real...

I can't understand how this happened, or even more why it happened. Was it something I did. I don't know. Maybe I'll never know...

"Mommy?"

"Yes Nathan?"

"Where's daddy?"

"I- I don't know hun"

I returned to the dishes I was washing, I gave no attention to what I was doing exactly. I was too distracted, pissed off, annoyed, and most of all heart broken.

"Mommy...?"

Why.. Why did he do this to us, I don't even know why I'm still here. I should of left so long ago. I should of packed up our stuff and left with our son. I'd never leave Nathan behind. I would never make him grow up with a drunk as a father.

"Mommy."

This was so pointless, he had no more purpose left in life. He was consumed by drinking, and that was all. He never even looked after the farm animals anymore. He hadn't planted anything for at least 3 seasons. I would do it my self but I cant, I have Nathan to look after and the chickens and a house to keep up. I wouldn't ask Takaura to look after planting also, after I'd already asked him to look after the barn animals. So I would just go and stock up on food every now and then in Mineral Town.

"Mommy!"

"...Oh! Wait, what? Yes?"

"That dish is clean now mommy."

I looked down at the dish in my hand, and I realized I had been scrubbing it the whole time. I sighed, rinsed it off, and put it in the drying rack.

"Thanks Nate. Go play with your toys now while I finish up, I'll be in to tuck you into bed."

"Okie dokie Mama"

He had so much of his father in him. His love for animals, plants, and the farm it's self. Even his smile was Jack's. I remember once he attempted to fish but the rod was to big and his hands were to small. Leaving here with Nathan. I'd never really be able to fully leave Jack behind. Nathan would be right there everyday, even though he may look just like me. He would remind me of Jack constantly.

Things weren't always like this. Jack use to be himself even after Nathan was born. Though it wasn't long after that, that he started to go down hill. He slowly started to neglected his farm work. It started with not planting seeds, and I just assumed that he wanted to focus more on raising the animals, and by that we would still have enough money to go and buy food.

But then it started to seem like we were having less and less income from the farm. Jack was coming home later and later, not shit face at first, but it slowly grew to being still a little sober, to laughing drunk, to complete fuck head. Then after that started happening I realized where all our money was going. So I asked Takaura to look after the animals and I would tend to the chickens. That way we could still live here on the farm.

Then something I thought that he would never ever do happened...

He hit me.

Struck me across the face or my side. Only when he was shit face. He would come home, with eyes that looked like they were ready to cry. Shaking hands, unsteady feet. At those times I knew that the Jack I knew was completely gone. He was trapped somewhere in a room without a door. Hiding in a corner sobbing. Waiting for the darkness to go away.

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Walking out into the the living room, I saw that Nathan had fallen asleep on the floor in front of his toy blocks. I glanced over at the clock reading 12:25am. Lifting Nathan into my arms I walked over to his blue bed that use to be Jacks before we married. I took off his blue hat, and tucked him into bed. Leaving his hat on the side of his bed.

Just then the phone in the kitchen rang, and I ran to go get it before it woke Nathan.

"Hello?"

"Hey Nami."

"Hi Ruby, how you doing?"

"Oh I'm fine, was just heading off too bed in 10 minutes or so. How are you hun?"

Ruby had become like a mother to me, she always treated me with motherly love, even at the start, when I came to the valley 4 years ago.

"I'm fine.."

"Hey Nami..."

"Yea?"

"You know you and Nathan can always come and stay here with us."

"I know Ruby... I know."

Nathan started to cry.

"Ruby, I gotta go Nathan is crying. Sorry.."

"No, it's okay Nami. Call me some time tomorrow if you can."

"Ok I will, bye Ruby"

"Bye hun..."

-click-

She only wanted to help me and Nathan because she cared. I sped walked back into the main room of the house and to Nathan's side. I sat down on his bed, and embraced him in a hug.

"What is wrong hun?" I asked in a soothing voice.

"A-a mo-monster!"

"A monster was scaring you?"

"N-no, it was hu-hurting daddy."

I rubbed his back in a effort to ease his fear.

"Want me to sleep here tonight?"

"Ye-yes mama"

"Okay I will. I'll make sure the monster doesn't come back."

"Y-you'll protect daddy right mama?"

"...Yea hun I will..."

I laid down beside him and held him in a motherly cuddle. His sobs slowly grew to whimpers, and he finally fell back asleep, and so did I.

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I woke up with a start. I had just had a bad dream, but I couldn't remember for the life of me what it was about. I looked down to see a sleeping Nathan all snuggled inside his blanket and warm. I stretched my body, and felt a cramp in my back. I sighed and slowly started getting up from the bed, so to not wake him.

I retreated to the kitchen to drink some water and stretch out the kink in my back. When I walked back out in the main room, I heard Pluto bark. I got a little scared, cause he usually didn't bark at this hour. I thought maybe someone was out there. Looking at the clock it was around 3:30ish. It couldn't of been Jack. He never came home until 4 at least. I couldn't get Takaura for help his house was too far away and he didn't have a house phone.

Just then I heard a familiar voice.

"I know boy... I know. I don't know what happened, I don't know if I could muster up something for you either. I just... my son. Being a father scares me. Especially now when I cant control myself."

It was Jack...

He didn't sound that drunk tonight. I walked quietly to the door and I was about to open it until.

"That is no excuse... I cant help it. I tried so many times to stop myself from going to the bar. I know by the looks Nami gives me, that she just think I'm drunk and flirting with Muffy, when I'm there."

My hand stopped mid air. Muffy... She was such a town slut, I just felt like she would flirt with him, and Jack being drunk would he would in return do the same.

"I swear Pluto I don't. I don't want another woman but Nami. I cant even tell my own wife that, she'd never believe me"

He sounded like he wanted to cry.

"I hit her. So many times, theres hardly a time when I come home drunk, that I don't hit her at least once. I cant believe she's still here."

And then he did...

I sank down to my knees.

I felt a knot in my throat starting to be tied.

"I punish myself for doing it to her too Pluto. Why do you think I've changed my wardrobe to red shirts basically. To cover it... cause I don't know when I'll do it. When it comes to be to much being sober, or sometimes I'll wake up from a drunk night, with dry blood on my arm and not even remember doing it!"

He was sobbing now...

I don't know how long I was sitting there for. Silent tears poured down my face, dripping on to the wooden floor.

He was quite now... He must of cried himself to sleep.

I slowly stood up from my spot on the other side of the door, and retreated to my bed.

Eyes red.

Face wet.

It was 4:40am...

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Oh that stupid sound. That annoying ring just pissed me right off. Especially when I was dead tired. Rolling over, I slammed my hand down on it, laid there for another 5 minutes, then finally got up.

6 am.

"Oh Goddess.." I mumbled to myself.

It didn't help that the kink was still stuck in my back. I went over to my dresser, and picked out a set of cloths, and a black hoody. It was almost mid Autumn, so it was bound to be chilly outside. When I was all ready it was around a half hour later. After I'd finished up outside. I would start making breakfast.

When I neared the door, I was scared to open it. I don't know what exactly I could I do if he was still sitting there.

Grabbing the knob, I turned it slowly and crept out. At first I only saw Pluto sitting in front of his house. Then I turned to the left, and I saw him.

Messy hair.

Blood shot eyes.

Crumpled cloths.

I wanted to say something to him, but I didn't know what. At that he kicked his horse and off he was.

To where I didn't know. I just hope it wasn't the bar.

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"Mommy."

"Yea hun."

"Where are we goin?"

"To grandma's and grandpa's"

"Really?!"

"Yes" I smiled at him

"YAY" He shouted out happily.

Opening the door, me and Nathan walked inside.

"Hey Tim." I called over to him behind the counter.

"Grandpa!" Nathan called out running over to him.

Tim picked him up into a big bear hug.

"How you guys doing?"

"Were managing."

"Nami!" I turned to look, and saw Ruby walking out from the kitchen

"Hey Ruby." I smiled

"Come, come and eat."

"We ate toast and bacon and eggs Grandma" Nathan called over.

"Oh well that wont do! You forgot something very important!"

"What? What?" He called out running over to her.

She knelt down to his level and whispered,

"Desert silly."

"OOH! Mama can I go eat desert?" I nodded my head with a smile.

I was about to follow the three of them in when Rock came down the stairs.

"Hey Nami."

"Hey."

"I took Jack here last night Nami, made him sober up a bit before he went home."

"Thank you Rock..." He only nodded his head.

"Isn't there nothing we can do..." He said rubbing his chin a sad expression on his face.

"I don't know Rock... I just don't know."

He and I both sighed and walked into the kitchen feeling defeated.

I don't know... It just might be too late, it just might not. How can I know for sure? I cant. I don't even know what to say to my own husband, but maybe... just maybe he needs to know, even with everything that has happened...

I still love him.

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So guys? Like? Dislike? Please tell me. preeety please? lol

But um just to make things more clear with the year things, As you know the 1st year Jack and Nami met and married, the 2nd year they lived together, the 3rd year they had a baby, and the 4th year was when all this started to happen. Just so no one is confused.

See ya laterss

-GUNNer