Hey! =] Well ya, i kinda stopped writing this for a while now. Cause I was getting no , so it felt like there was no point to keep writing it xD. And ya well, I have some inspiration lol. Just wanted to say thanks to famouswriter17 and Berlioz853 for the reviews =D. Glad you two like the story. =] Hope you enjoy this chapter too.
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My eyes felt like they were glued shut.
For once the ground underneath me felt soft and comfy. It was as if I was laying on a cloud. I tired to open my eyes again, but they closed right away. The sunlight was blinding. I slowly lifted my hands to my face, and wiped away all the sleep in my eyes.
I tried to focus my mind on remembering what happened last night.
All that came to was seeing Rock laughing his ass off...
and nothing else.
Shit.. I was as drunk as a jack ass last night then.
Nami's gonna be pissed.
I slowly began to open my eyes,
I was a afraid of what I was going to find.
Me being stupid, watch it be Nami with a pan waiting for me to wake up so she can smack my head so hard, I'm knocked out for a year.
I wouldn't be surprised.
All I saw was a blurry mess of fire red hair, a few inches away from my face.
My eyes opened wide.
"How the hell.." I said quietly to myself.
This was so strange, Well this is what probably happened.
1) I got really drunk
2) I made my way home
3) It was around 3 am
4) I snuck into bed.
And now if I don't sneak back out of this bed very, very soon. I am going to have a reallly pissed Nami on my hands.
I slowly lifted the covers off of my self, and gently put them down. Lifting my self up, I was about to move one of my legs out, when she began to stir.
I froze.
She rolled over, and it looked like she was still sleeping thankfully. I finally got my legs out and I sat there, just thinking.
This sucks.
"...Jack?"
My grip tightened on the bed, my eyes wide. My breath still.
'Oh no..' I thought
'Oh no, oh no oh no'
"I uh.." I said.
"Where are you going?"
"Huh..?"
Oh.. I thought. She's half asleep. She's not thinking straight. She probably thinks what happening now is from 3 years ago.. When we were perfect. Perfectly in love.
"Stay.." She said eyes closed.
She had the cutest little frown across her lips. I adored it. I could never say no to that.
I snuggled back in under the warm blankets. Wrapping my arms around her, she laid close. Tears began to drip from my eyes. Oh how I wish, I could wake up and find her still in my arms. I wish I could wake up and find out that this had all been a dream, and I was still my old self. I wish I could wake up and find Nami laying close beside me, and that I could kiss her growing tummy each and every day. I wish I could hold my new born son again. Oh how I just wished she would love me.
I fell into a deep sleep.
Not ever wanting to wake up.
And when I finally did.
I was alone...
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I rolled over stretching, making a high pitched squeal noise as I always did when I woke up.
At least that's one thing that hasn't changed...
"Daddy?"
Aww.. great, I don't think I'm awake anymore.
I swear I'd die over and over and over again, before he'd speak to me..
I rolled over a little afraid of what I would find.
It was my son, I think.
He looked like Nami.
Red hair
Blue eyes
But his features, they were so familiar.
Like a dream that I knew I had but forgot everything that had happened in it when I woke up.
I guess the thing that confused me the most was that he looked like he could be 16 maybe even 17.
He looked angry, hurt. but mostly angry.
He pulled out a knife, and just looked at me.
"Here." He said coldly as he tossed the knife onto the bed.
By now I was sitting up and looking at him, then the knife, then him again.
"What!" He shouted.
"Just go finish your self off already!" a tear escaped his eyes.
"What do you mean Nathan?"
"You know exactly what I mean."
I stood up taking a step or two towards him. Then it came.
It hurt so bad, I hunched over in pain. I looked down and saw nothing it made no sense.
When I looked back up, my son was gone. The only person I saw was someone familiar.
He had short shaggy brown hair.
He looked healthy.
Fit,
Clean.
Then he changed, he crunched over in pain. His hair turned messy and almost dead looking.
Blood shot eyes.
Tired,
His clean cloths were ripped and crumpled.
Blood dripped from his side.
And then he spoke.
"Your killing me Jack... Your killing us! THEM!" he screamed.
He fell to his knees, tears pouring from his eyes.
I heard someone coming closer to us. I could barely turn my head to see who it was coming.
But I did see red hair.
Nathan..
He tossed that same knife at the Jack across from me.
It landed at his feet, he stretched his arm out to reach for it, and my arm automatically did the same.
I couldn't control it. I was reaching for air, as he was reaching for the dagger. He griped it, and as did I, but only I was griping air, and yet I could feel it in my hand.
He drew it back.
I copied.
He threw it forward, connecting with his chest as it stabbed into his skin.
and I did the same.
I screamed out in pain. It was unbearable. Unbelievable. I couldn't understand what was happening, it made no sense.
How am I over there, when I'm here.
My son aged 16 years.
My wife no where to be seen.
This is too much. I don't get it!
I managed to open my eyes, to look at a angry Nathan.
"Goodbye Jack." He said.
Then it all faded to black...
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Nami's POV
'These chickens are crazy,' I thought to myself.
They clucked till no end, dancing around my feet as I spread the bird seed on the ground.
I sighed. Looking around, I collected all the eggs I could see. I even lifted up one to get the egg from underneath her. She completely freaked out and pecked at my hand making me let go.
Pissed off as I was I marched out of the crazy coop.
"FINE! don't say hi then Nami!"
"Huh?" I said looking over to see Rock.
"Oh hey, Sorry I didn't see you there."
He laughed as he walked closer to me.
"How's it goin'?"
"Pretty good I guess.. Just got attacked by a chicken."
He broke out into a small fit of laughter.
"Oh I just looove your sympathy Rock"
"Sorry, sorry." He said through the small laugh.
"So have you seen Jack at all today?"
"No.." I said, "I swear I heard him come outside when I was in the barn. So I just guessed he was going to see you."
"Nope not with me, I even checked the bar and everything."
"Really?" I said.
"Wanna go find him?" Rock asked.
"I guess so... Let's go check inside first"
"Kay" Rock replied, turning to start his way towards the house.
I was a little scared of what we would find. If he was still inside I knew he did sleep in but com'on sleeping in until almost 4pm. That's a little much.
We made it to the front door, I pushed it open and we peered inside. I think he was on the bed, still sleeping. Well that's what it looked like.
"Found him."
Rock looked at me, then made his way over to Jack.
"Hey bud, wake up." He said nudging him but he didn't wake up, or even move at all.
Rock looked over at me and motioned for me to come over. I looked down at him, he looked...
Dead almost.
Then Rock bent over and shook him violently. Jack's eyes snapped open and he took in a sharp breath. He almost immediately sat up, pulled at his hair, felt his face, patted his chest and side, looking down to see if something was there.
"Jack?" I said confused.
He slowly turned his head to look at me. It was scary. He looked so tired, even though he probably got close to 14 hours of sleep.
"Time to get up sleepy head!"
Rock said loudly yanking Jacks arm pulling him almost out of the bed. All the while, Jack hardly responded. He didn't even care about what Rock was doing to him.
"I'm not a baby.." Jack mumbled.
"Sureee there buddy." Rock said, though you could hear the clear joke in his voice.
Taking a deep breath Jack slowly stood, He was wearing a red long sleeve shirt, and his boxers.
He turned his face to look at me, he was about to say something, until Rock started pushing him away towards the shower. Completely oblivious as to what Jack was trying to do.
"You go get cleaned up, and come with me and Nami to the Inn. It's time you actually talked to some people again Jack."
Jack was mumbling something under his breath, as he searched through his dresser for clean cloths.
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Jack's POV
"Ass.." I grumbled as I dug through my drawers.
I slammed the drawer shut once I had found my cloths. I didn't really mean to, but I was really pissed off and angry and mind fucked from that dream I had. It doesn't help either that I can't even talk to anyone about it... They would just throw me across the sea to the psycho ward.
I dragged my self over to the shower and jumped in. Once I had finished getting dressed and cleaned up. I walked back out into the main room to see Rock and Nami watching the weather channel. I gazed at the tv to see a man in a suit talking about the weather saying that it was going to rain.
"Don't listen to him." I said plainly.
They both looked up at me a little confused.
"That guy is always wrong." I shrugged and walked over to the front door to put on my shoes.
"Are we going or what?" I asked clearly annoyed.
They both got up and put on their shoes. It was weird they weren't talking much at all. It was probably because I was there. I know- well I have a very strong feeling that no one really wants my good for nothing ass around anymore. I'm sure if I just walked out and left no one would care. No one would even notice. They would all go on living and maybe one day it would hit someone that I wasn't around. Then if that did happen I bet you any money, they would just think that I got really drunk one night, and either fell into the river and drifted out to sea and drowned. Or just died from alcohol poisoning somewhere in a ditch.
"Jack?"
It made me feel even more like a piece of shit thinking about it, but I knew it was true. So whatever. Whats done is done, I can't change it. I wish I could...
But I can't.
"Jack!"
I snapped out of my thinking. Looking around I noticed that we were in the Inn.
"Oh... um hey Tim.." I said dumbly.
I heard a little pitter patter running sound coming from the right of me in the kitchen. Then Nathan came running out and Ruby followed behind.
"Hello everyone" she smiled.
"Daddy!" Nathan shouted running over to me.
I looked down at him, so innocent. I am so happy he is too young to understand. But I know he knows that I'm not around all the time, and that I act differently sometimes. I know he sees what happens, but he's to young to understand exactly what is going on.
"Up! up!" He giggled out.
I bent over and picked him up giving him a hug, I bounced him in the air a few times and then just held him. I looked around because I got that weird feeling like someone was watching me. First I looked over at Tim and Ruby but they were talking to Rock, then I cranked my head more to see Nami staring at me. I really couldn't tell if it was a good look or a bad look though.
"Look who's that Nathan?" I asked him pointing at Nami to try and make it not awkward.
"It's Mommy! Silly Daddy!" He laughed.
"Let's go see Mommy!" He said again.
I hesitated for a second or two then walked over to her.
She looked ever more beautiful close up.
I sighed. A sad sigh.
I tired to put a smile on but I could feel the fakeness in it across my face, and I knew it was showing.
"Hey Chumbum" She said smiling at Nathan. "You wanna go and see Uncle Rock?"
"Yea!" He shouted out. I set him down on the floor, and watched him as he ran over to Rock, Tim, and Ruby.
She turned to look back at me.
"Can we talk Jack?"
Oh no... This is it. It's over. She's going to end it today. I know it. I fucked up for the last time. I couldn't speak. I couldn't even get a simple breath out of my lungs so I only nodded. I was terrified, I thought I'd have more time. I don't know how I thought that, I guess it was just my last little leaf of hope, but now I know for sure that it's Winter, and that last leaf is dead and gone.
She started walking up the stairs, so I followed. No one even looked at us. Them making me come here was starting to make more sense.
It was all starting to feel like a trap,
and I just walked right into it.
I wanted to turn and run.
Run away and never come back,
run away and die somewhere.
Somewhere they wouldn't find my body.
I didn't deserve to be buried.
I would let myself rot, alone and away from all of them.
After all... you get what you paid for in the end.
Nami led me to her old bedroom that she used to live in before we got married.
I shut the door behind me as I walked in.
"Who are you."
I looked at her.
"Who the FUCK are you?!"
I'm scared. She's scaring me. I felt like a child being yelled at by his parents. That fear you get at that moment in time.
"I..I'm..."
I stuttered to find words to say.
She stared at me waiting. Her hair seemed to be glowing even more red then it usually did. I didn't even know that that was possible.
"I don't know.." I sighed.
She turned away from my eyes, and I sat down on the bed. Resting my elbows on my knees and my head on my hands. I felt a knot in my throat, and if I spoke another word I knew I would break out into tears.
"I don't even know why I'm still here..." She whispered under her breath but I heard it anyways.
"Then I'll just go Nami!" The knot broke. "I'll leave you all the fuck alone, how 'bout that. It sounds pretty darn good to me."
I could feel the tears pouring down my face, it felt like a little piece of my sanity was dripping away with every single tear.
"I know for a fact that everyone will agree! I've lost the privilege to have people care about me."
I stood up and was about to leave when she spoke again.
"Shut up Jack! Who the FUCK said to you that they didn't care!"
My eyes were locked on the door.
"Walk out that door if you want to. But know if you do, you can never come back. Because it's not us giving up on you. It's you giving up on yourself!"
She took a step closer to me.
"If you walk out, it means you don't care about yourself anymore, you don't care about US anymore!"
"I stopped caring about myself a long time ago Nami..." I said in a quite voice, my eyes never leaving the door.
I could feel her gaze locked on to me.
"What about us then? Did you stop caring about us to?"
I could hardly breathe, "N-no..."
My heart was racing my head was pounding. I needed to get rid of this feeling. I could feel it eating my body from the inside out. It hurt so bad.
I needed a blade.
I needed a drink.
I needed my drug.
I needed my death.
I wanted my death.
I could get what I wanted so easily.
I could die right now,
then I could be free.
Free from myself.
Free from this world.
Free from this pain.
I could free everyone else from Jack.
From Jack the Monster.
and maybe, just maybe.
Before I would take in that last breath.
The old me would come back.
The old me would smile at his love,
tell her not to cry,
tell her it was all going to be okay.
and most of all I'd tell her I was sorry.
"Jack..." She said.
I could feel the pressure on my mind go up.
The pain went up.
My heart beat too.
I fell to my knees,
everything was dizzy.
The room was spinning,
I couldn't see,
I couldn't breathe.
I was trying my best to keep it all in focus. I didn't want to pass out, I didn't... I couldn't.
"I.. I need to go."
I tried to stand but I couldn't. I crawled to the door and used the handle to hoist my dead weight up. Using the wall as a guide I followed it to the stairs. I thought I could hear her speaking behind me, but I couldn't make any of her words out. It sounded like static, like a muffled voice.
I made it too the stairs.
I was almost out.
So close,
and yet...
So far.
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Hey everybody! =] How did you all like this chap? I worked hard on it. Sorry I left a semi cliff.
So read and review and make me smile lol :D
-GUNNer