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Chapter 4

Bella POV

I was sitting in the parlor of Volturi when I felt someone plop down on the sofa next to me. I looked over to see little Alice Cullen smiling at me.

"Hey Alice, what's up?" I asked. I had apologized to her earlier about running off with Jacob before and she said it was okay but I didn't know if she really meant it.

"Nothing really," she said sighing. Then her eyes lit up and she smiled at me. "But, I did see Jasper today," she whispered.

"Did you talk to him?" I asked. She must really like Jasper.

"Kind of. He asked about you," she said slowly. I eyed her and saw that she was staring at me, as if she were waiting for me to say something. I had no idea what to say. "Bella do I have to spell it out for you?" she asked, obviously irritated.

"I have no idea what you want me to say," I said calmly. She rolled her eyes and scooted closer to me.

"Do you like Jasper?" she asked quietly. I could have laughed. I'd said as much as two word to Jasper since I got here.

"No, I don't like Jasper. What gave you that idea?" I asked. Alice smiled sadly and fiddled with the frills at the bottom of her shirt.

"He said that his sister talked to him about you. And that she wanted him to get to know you," she said.

"Why? Rose knows I've been hanging out with Jacob," I said.

"And Edward Cullen," Alice added. She was smiling like an evil villain. "It's obvious to everyone, Bella. You like Edward. And, I honestly prefer him to Jacob Black." I laughed trying to mask my true feelings. I felt slightly uncomfortable talking about this with Alice seeing as I never had anyone to talk boys with. I never had boys to talk about actually.

"Well, the point is I don't like Jasper. He's a nice person, and I wouldn't mind being his friend one day, but he's just not my type," I said.

"That's a shame," a voice said from behind me. I turned to see Rosalie standing in the doorway. She looked like a goddess as usual. "Jasper would be an excellent catch for you Isabella. He's the male equivalent to me."

"Well, Rosalie, you know that I've been hanging out with Jacob recently. Why would you think that I'd ever show interest in anyone else?" I asked.

"You seem to show a lot of interest in Edward Cullen. Personally, I don't see the draw to either of them," Rosalie said in a snobby voice.

"Well, your brother shouldn't have any trouble getting a date. He's gorgeous. And there are plenty of girls interested in him. Right Alice?" I asked turning to face her. She turned red and looked at Rosalie.

"Yeah, she's right. I like Jasper and I'm thinking of asking him out. What do you think?" Alice said slowly. I hated that Alice let Rosalie Hale intimidate her. I looked over to Rosalie and saw her smirking.

"Well, if you need my approval, I think the answer is obvious. My brother needs someone who can think for themself. Not someone who answers to my beck and call," Rose said. "Confuscious says 'Try again, Pixie'. Better luck next time." With that, she walked out of the room. I looked over to Alice and saw that she was getting teary eyed.

"Alice, please don't cry. You don't need her approval. She said it herself," I said. Alice wiped away a few tears and looked up at me.

"That's exactly it Bella. You do need her approval. Rosalie Hale will say one thing but she really means something else. If I go for Jasper, she'll make my life Hell. It will be her way of telling me that I'm not good enough and to back off of her brother, without getting catty about it," Alice said.

"Look, I know Rosalie is controlling and bitchy, but she means well. I can tell. And believe me when I say, you do not need her approval. Go for Jasper Hale," I said.

"It's just not that simple, Bella. Rosalie's word is law. She gets what she wants, eventually. You see how she doesn't want you to date Jacob?" I nodded my head. "You won't be dating Jacob." I laughed.

"Is it really that simple?" I asked giggling. There was no trace of amusement in Alice's face.

"I'm serious, Bella. You've been here for what, five seconds? I've known Rosalie for more than two years. You wouldn't believe the things she's done just to get her way. Her word is law," Alice said.

"I think I'll take my chances," I said laughing. I got off of the sofa and grabbed my bag from the floor. "I'll be back later."

"Where are you going?" she asked.

"To see Jacob. Well to see if I can see Jacob. I might not be able to, seeing as Rosalie has this whole sick control over me," I said sarcastically.

"Later, Bella," Alice called. I waved goodbye to Alice and walked out of Volturi. Rosalie Hale does not control me. I can do whatever I want and see whoever I want.

Edward POV

I was lying on my bed when I heard a knock on the door. "Who is it?" I called out.

"Umm, Bella," a small voice said. I immediately hopped out of bed and opened the door. Bella looked startled for a second, then her eyes glazed over and her mouth formed a perfect "o". Her eyes were cast downward and a slight shade of pink colored her cheeks. It was then that I realized I was wearing nothing but a pair of sweatpants and a smile.

"Sorry, I probably should have gotten dressed before I opened the door. I didn't know you were coming," I said sheepishly. She blushed even more but looked up to meet me. A small smile spread across her face.

"I was, just, umm, well I was looking for Jacob. Sorry to, umm, interrupt," she said. Ah, she was here for Jacob. I didn't know or care where he was.

"He's out. But you can come in and wait for him," I offered. She smiled and nodded. I led her inside of the small dorm and locked the door.

"Okay, let me guess whose side of the room is whose," Bella said smiling. She looked to the right of the room. It was covered in posters of the rock bands of today and the hottest cars. The bed was messy, obviously slept in. There were a pair of black cut off shorts on the desk chair and an empty can of Red Bull on the desk. She smiled wider and took a look at the other side of the room.

There were no posters. The bed was unmade, but not quite as messy as the other bed in the room. There were black and grey tshirts hanging outside of the drawers. A few photos were scattered on the desk underneath a few old books.

"Well, the right side is obviously Jake," she said. Then, she frowned and sat down on my bed. "So that means the left side is yours."

"Sorry to disappoint you," I said sadly.

"Oh no! I'm not disappointed. I'm just suprised is all. Your side of the room is a lot like my side of the room back at Volturi. Jake's side is more like Rose's," she said smiling gently.

"Really? That's surprising," I said.

"Yeah, Rose is every guy's dream date. She loves cars and rock music. It is weird that her and Jake have a lot in common seeing as they hate each other," Bella said.

"Well, yeah. But, what I meant was it's surprising that you and I are so alike when you're dating Jacob. Shouldn't he be more like you?" I challenged.

"Opposites attract," she said defensively.

"Sorry, it's none of my business," I said. At that moment the door busted open and in came Jacob Black.

"Bells, babe, what are you doing here?" he asked. He crossed the room and grabbed her hand, pulling her up into his arms swiftly. Bella giggled and kissed him on the cheek.

"I just came to see you," she said sweetly. I don't think she ever talked to me that way before. I felt sick watching the two of them.

"I'm just gonna head out," I said. I threw on a shirt and slipped on some sneakers. I looked over and Jacob was basically swallowing Bella's face. Did she honestly find that enjoyable? She pulled away and he began to kiss her neck.

"Edward, you don't have to leave. This is your room. I'll go," she said.

"No you won't," Jacob said, mostly to her chest.

"No, it's fine. I have somewhere to be," I said. I grabbed my bag and left before either of them could say anything. Though it looked like they were pretty content being wrapped up in each other like that. I didn't know things between them were that serious. Maybe Jacob had asked Bella out. Maybe she said yes. Maybe they were officially a couple. Maybe I lost all hope of ever getting the girl of my dreams.

Bella POV

To say that I was suprised at Jacob's reaction to me would be an understatement. He kissed me like he hadn't seen me in years. I did feel bad that Edward left his room because of us. I mean the two of them shared a room. How could Jacob be so inconsiderate to Edward?

"Bella, what's wrong?" Jacob asked. I shook my head and sat down on his bed.

"Nothing, it's just, I feel bad because Edward left. I should go," I said quietly.

"Forget him. I wanted to talk to you alone anyways," Jacob said. He sat down on the bed next to me and held my hand. "Will you be my girlfriend?"

I did not see that one coming. "Jake, I don't know what to say?" I asked.

"You could say yes," he offered. I laughed nervously. I felt that familiar blush creep across my face. The last time I blushed I'd been staring at Edward's abs. Suddenly, I felt guilty for thinking about Edward's amazingly hot body when my boyfriend was asking me out. Wait a second. I just called Jacob my boyfriend in my own head! That must mean something. "Bella, you still in there?" Jacob asked playfully.

"Yes," I said. I looked over at Jacob and saw that he was confused. "Yes!" I said again.

"Yes, you're still all there or yes you'll be my girlfriend?" he asked.

"Yes to both!" I said. I pressed my lips to his and kissed him softly. I pulled away and saw that he was mesmerized. I never had that effect on a guy before.

"Well I don't know about the first one, but I know you're my girlfriend," he said. He pulled me down on the bed with him and began assaulting my lips with his. His lips were hard and his kisses were urgent, but it didn't feel uncomfortable. He flipped us over so that I was under him and he threw off his shirt. Uh oh, I'd seen enough bad teenage movies to know where this was going.

"You know I love you, right?" he said. Uh huh, right on queue. The classic 'you know I love you' line. Now, the question was, would I be the stupid girl or the smart one.

"You don't have to say that," I said. Okay, stupid girl it is.

"What do you mean I don't have to say that? I do love you," he said angrily. I just remained quiet. "Bella, I've never met anyone like you. I really love you. You're more than just some private whore. You're special to me."

"How do I know you're not lying?" I asked, sitting up and leaning on my elbows.

"You don't. You just have to trust me," he said. I could have said no. I could have walked out of that room and never saw him again. I could have told him to find someone else. But I didn't.

"I trust you," I said. I laid back and he began to kiss my neck. His hands remained at my hips and he slowly began to peel off my clothes. Minutes later, we were both naked and he was staring in my eyes.

"I love you," he whispered. I nodded my head.

"I love you, too," I whispered slowly. And then I was gone.

*****

Bella POV

Walking back to Volturi Hall a million thoughts ran through my mind. First, I could not believe that I had allowed myself to be that girl. The girl that just lets shit happen to her. Yeah, I really did love Jacob. I mean, I still do love Jacob, but was it okay for me to lose my virginity on some used boarding school mattress? I never really imagined my first time, partly because I never had anyone to imagine myself with. At least, until I came here. But even if I had, I'm sure I would have imagined something a little more...glamorous. Do I regret losing it with Jacob? No. Why not? Because he was amazing.

When he...did those things he did, I felt like he really cared. He was so gentle, so soft, so sweet. It was perfect, under the circumstances anyways. But now I had a million questions. Were we officially dating? Were we completely public now? After we had sex, I said I had to get back before curfew and he just said see ya later. I didn't know what to expect. I knew I had to ask someone. And I knew who that someone would be. But I really hoped that that someone would be mercifull.

I ran up the stairs, taking them two at a time despite my klutziness, and bursted into my room. Rosalie was lying on her bed reading a book. It was The Art of War. I immediately felt intimidated.

"Rose, I need some advice," I said gently. I closed the door and stood in front of her bed.

"Go on," she said. She didn't even look up from her book.

"I don't really know what to say," I said slowly. Rose smirked and threw her book to the side. She looked up at me and her smirk disappeared.

"You look different," she said slowly. Oh no, was it really possible for someone to tell if you had sex? "Your hair is wreck for one thing and your holding yourself differently."

"Holding myself differently? How so?" I asked.

"You seem more comfortable with yourself. Relaxed," she said. Yeah, sex will do that for you.

"Oh my God! Who did you have sex with?" she whisper-screamed. Did Rosalie freaking Hale read my mind? How the hell was that possible! "Your blush gave it away. And before you freak out, I'm not reading your mind. You're just easy to read."

I let out a breath I didn't realize I was holding. I sat on the bed next to Rosalie and stared at my shoes.

"Well, are you going to answer my question?" Rose pressed.

"I had sex with Jacob. For the first time. It was my first time, not his and I'm just really screwed up," I said in a rush.

"You look more than screwed. How many times did you two go at it? Your hair is really a mess. Ugh, how many people saw you on your way here? Think of the gossip," Rosalie said mostly to herself.

"Are you seriously worried about gossip right now! I lost my virginity to Jacob Black! I'm confused and scared and I came to you for advice and all you can think about it what other people will say!" I screamed.

"Keep your voice down. Most of the house is out but people can still hear you," she said. I glared at her. "Relax, I'm just trying to protect you. You're an easy girl to get to Bella. I can tell. The last thing I want is for people to call you Jacob's new bitch. That's not a title you want to be called." I nodded my head.

"Okay, well you need to talk with him. Tell him how you're feeling. You know I don't like him and this is a big step for me, in helping you to fix things with him. Don't expect much from me, okay?" she said. I sighed and pulled out my cell phone to call Jacob. It went straight to voicemail.

"Voicemail," I sighed.

"Sleep on it, you'll talk to him in the morning," she said. I wanted to talk to him now, but Rosalie was right. Maybe I'd feel better in the morning.

Edward POV

I knocked on the door hesitantly. I didn't want to walk in on Jacob and Bella doing...what ever it was that they did. Jacob answered the door and he was sporting a small smile. His smile vanished when he saw me.

"I thought you were Bella," he said. I brushed past him and sat on my bed.

"Where'd she go?" I asked.

"Back to her room. I feel guilty letting her walk home alone after what we did," he said. A million thoughts raced through my mind at that point. Had they been alone that long? Had they gone that far?

"What?" was all I managed to get out. Jacob walked over to his bed and plopped down.

"We had sex, man. Do I need to spell it out for you?" he asked annoyed. He had no right to be annoyed.

"You had sex with her and made her walk home alone! Do you have any idea how she probably feels right now!" I yelled.

"Keep your voice down, man!" Jacob yelled back.

"No! How could you do such a stupid thing to her! You had sex with her and then you go and treat her like shit! Why the fuck are you even here?! You should be out there chasing after her! Making sure she feels okay! Have you even called her yet!" My words came out in a rush. I don't even think Jacob understood a damn word I said.

"Why the fuck do you care? You're not dating her!" he bit out.

"Neither are you asshole!" I said through my teeth.

"Wrong, I asked her out tonight. She said yes. So fuck off and mind your business. Bella is not your concern," he said angrily.

"Bella deserves so much more than you! What kind of asshole has sex with a girl and then leaves her?" I asked.

"She fucking left me!" he yelled.

"Well go after her! I swear to God, if you hurt her, I will fucking kill you," I threatened. Jacob stared at me, speechless. I don't think he ever looked so scared in his life.

"You're right. I'm going after her," he said, now much calmer. I took a deep breath and tried to compose myself.

"I'm sorry, Jake," I said slowly.

"No, you're right. I'll be back soon," he said. He grabbed his sweatshirt and left the room.

"Later," I muttered. Little did I know, that was the last time I'd ever see Jacob Black.

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