I very rarely split between character POV's during one chapter, i apologise if it is confusing, i do try to keep it to a minimum, but i think it is important to see certain situations from the POV of all involved.

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Chapter 7.

Alice's POV:

After giving Bella a gentle kiss on the head, she was asleep not longer than a few seconds later.

I decide to stay in her room with her tonight, as opposed to sleeping on the couch downstairs. Slumping into her computer chair in the corner of her room.

Werewolves, young werewolves....risking her life, to hear the voice of my misguided brother, his foolish actions, Edward if only you knew how wrong you have been, your plan to erase yourself from her life, has back fired, because in turn, she only wanted to erase hers, she isn't the girl you fell in love with, she's the faded shadow of it, only able to gain joy from the comfort of a young group of werewolves, and from the familiarity of another Vampire.

I wish I could be the one that she longed for, not the one who is similar enough to suffice. After all these months her love for Edward hasn't wavered.

And yet I sit her, the idiot that I am, realising I'm in love with her, but not being what she wants, how am I going to live with myself, I wish I had known earlier, realised earlier, because the guilt I am feeling right now, is all consuming, I'm in love with the girl my brother gave up, and condemned himself to a miserable existence for. She doesn't know a thing.

"Alice..." looking toward the bed from where I'm sitting in Bella's computer chair, I see Bella open her eyes searching the room for me desperately, "Yes, Bella?"

"Will you come and lay with me, please?" she asks, my mind is awash with guilt, can I really do this, should I?

Yes. Why not? Edward left her. "Okay."

I go to sit on her bed and lie myself down next to her, she looks up at me, a slight smile, her expression seems content. She pushes her arm across me, sliding it over my stomach and onto my waist, her hand holding me, she moves her head forward resting against my chest and with that, she's asleep.

I should be feeling guilty right now, for feeling what I'm feeling, her arm wrapped around me, her head resting on me, it feels wonderful, her depending on me like this, her clinging to me, her request for me to sleep with her, to be her comfort as she sleeps, but all the guilt i felt, had faded away as soon as she invited me to hold her.

Bella's POV

Alice is sitting on the chair across the room, I'm managing to keep my heart and breathing rate pretty steady, if it changed pace there's a chance she would notice the difference, although she does look like she is thinking about something, quite intensely , So maybe there's a chance she won't notice, I want her to come and sleep with me, if I decide she will see and although she looks like she is deep in thought, she could also just be searching her visions that could mean her seeing me decide to ask her to sleep with me.

Will she think that's weird? If she does, I doubt she will say no, she is loving in that way, I doubt she would decline, even if she were uncomfortable with it.

We'd had fallen asleep together before, spending time together downstairs on the couch and at the Cullen's house, doing the things that best friends do, watching movies or television shows, we did share a particular love of 30 rock.

We'd sit there together in hysterics, Edward watched with us once, he didn't seem to like it very much, Edward, Edward....it doesn't hurt as much to think it, I avoided even thinking his name for so long, because the pain it caused, was insufferable, Edward.

It hurts a little, but it's bearable. Maybe I'm too tired to feel the pain. It feels almost like a knee-jerk reaction now, an automatic response, without a cause.

I won't decide to ask Alice until the spilt second before I do, and hopefully since she thinks I'm asleep, she won't be watching my future.

I'm not too sure why I am so desperate to have her with me, but I know that I want her next to me, close to me and that's enough.

"Alice" I open my eyes widely, to give the impression of waking up out of my sleep looking around like I'm not sure where she is.

"Yes Bella?" she asks, "Will you come and lay with me please?" My heart pounds in my chest, god I hope she doesn't think I'm weird, what an odd request this must seem like, I don't think she saw me decide to ask, she pauses slightly, "Okay".

She appears by my bed and lays down beside me, smiling to myself a little, resisting the urge the grin in case she notices, I simply smirk, happy that she said yes, I slide my arm across her body, hoping that she doesn't mind too much, we were much more intimate on the couch downstairs, I was practically sitting in her lap, so I don't see anything wrong with this, pulling my grip around her tightly, I move my head to lean on her collarbone, and ease further down into her chest and close my eyes.

***

"Bella, I want you to know, that I would never hurt you, okay, Not ever."

"I know Alice" a smile spreading across my face.

"I would never though any choice of my own leave you, you know that, don't you bell's?"

"I know Alice" I reply smiling again. "But...why are we here?"

"I don't know Bella, you tell me"

"umm, I'm as confused as you are, this is the meadow, myself and Edwards meadow, we fell in love here"

" Most people don't remember where they fell in love Bella, they just know that they did" Alice said.

"Yeah I guess so, I just, I come here a lot, I think."

Alice looks at me, "Follow me" she says, gesturing with her finger.

"Where are we?" I say, our location having change within a fraction of a second.

"We're in the open fields, Bella, you can see for miles, across the fields, to the end of the coast line, and even further than that, into the ocean, there is no end here, no entrapment, no restrictions, this isn't like the meadow" Alice explains to me, smiling sweetly as she does so....looking around at the fields that go on for miles, I'm left with nothing to say but "Wow....Alice"