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Dont own Twilight, property of Mrs Meyer - If i did own Twilight, there would be no tracing of jaws and what not, there would be groping. Lol.
Chapter 10.
Alice's POV
Needing a few moments to regain my thoughts, not wanting to return to Bella in this state, I went to open the kitchen window, inhaling a few deep breaths and exhaling very calmly, I shut the window, and readied myself to go upstairs.
Hopefully Bella hasn't noticed my absence.
Knowing Charlie was in bed; I was shot up the stairs and was at Bella's door in a millisecond. Opening it, I saw Bella had pulled herself under the covers, she must of noticed that I had left, I heard her shallow breathing and small sniffles, approaching her, I bent forward, and tapped her lightly on the shoulder "Bella, is everything ok, is this because I left you? I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you, I just went to talk to Charlie for a short while-".
Throwing the sheets off of her, she sat up quickly, using the back of hands to wipe her eyes, she flung her arms around me, holding me tightly, and breathing deeply into my neck.
"Bella, I'm sorry, I won't go again."
" No Alice, I'm not crying because you went" she cried out, her eyes opening widely, as her eyebrows arched upwards, an urgency to talk, etched on her face
"I'm crying because, well I'm crying because I heard....what you and Charlie were talking about and I heard you apologise, and I heard what you said, and you were blaming yourself, for..." she rolled her eyes downwards, gesturing a sweeping pattern over her body, starting at her head, down to her knees
"This..." she continued.
"Alice, please, I'm asking you don't even begin to accept a thread of the blame, this has nothing to do with your departure, this state I worked myself up into, it's not your fault, and there really isn't anything you could of done to change the way I reacted to him going, it's not your fault that he is so controlling and so convinced that he is right all the time...."
I see Bella pleading with me not to feel guilty and maybe she is right, maybe there was no way for me to have changed anything, but worse than that, even worse than the regret and guilt weighing heavy on my heart, for such a long time, now i have the overwhelming feeling of being defeated, my leaving was not a factor in this, it wasn't my departure that contributed to her emptiness, it was all him, so as long as he would of stayed she would of been fine, the pain I'm feeling in realising this, is agony, I'm blaming myself for causing the girl I'm in love with months of depression, thinking there must of been something that I could have done differently. There wasn't.
Only Edward could have prevented this-
"..you were the only one who came back for me Alice, you were the only one who loved me enough to watch me, make sure I was safe, even when you had gone to start a new life halfway across the country, and you didn't have to but you did, that's what love is supposed to be like, you trust me Alice, and you know me, you know me better than anyone, you know me better than Edward does.."
I can't take it, I know all of this, everything she is saying is leading somewhere I don't want to hear, a thank you perhaps, for knowing better than Edward did...
" .. and I heard you say that you love me, and I heard the remorse in your voice and it didn't need to be there, you tried so hard, you are the only person that could console me in months, you made the pain go away.
I have been thinking about our relationship, and comparing it with mine and Edwards..." what? " and my relationship with Edward well it doesn't compare, it doesn't even come close to what I feel for you Alice, I mean it, I've been thinking about it all, every single detail and I realised something, and I know I shouldn't feel it...." she paused, taking in a deep breath after her frantic outburst, I cant think straight, what is Bella saying?
What shouldn't she feel?
Bella's hand reached out cradling my cheek, my skin reacting to her touch, the soft surface of her palm, I can feel the heated blooded rushing to her underneath the surface of her skin, wearing a doe eyed expression, she meets my gaze, her deep brown eyes, looking alive for the first time since I saw her yesterday evening, I can hear her heart thumping in her chest, her breathing hitched, I should probably tell her to breathe
"I love you Alice"
"Bella, brea-"
"Alice, I love you" she repeated, more firmly this time, not averting her gaze, her heart beat is practically beating its way out of her chest, I've never heard a humans heart pound this way,.
"Bella, I, how? What? I don't know what to..." I mumble a barely coherent sentence.
"One more time, Alice, I Love You."
With that I pull her up from the bed, and bring her body close to my own, meeting her gaze, her hand falls from my cheek, down to her side, moving my arms to wrap around her neck, my skin ablaze from the small amount of contact our bodies our making, I feel her hand gently rest on my hip, and that is all the confirmation I need, pulling her forward, I pressed my lips to hers, capturing them between mine, softly kissing her, I don't recall feeling like this before, this kiss was something else, it revealed a new sense of longing, one that seemed deeply embedded, sending little sparks of electricity all over my body, her warm lips pulling away from mine, opening my eyes, her eyes fluttered open, a smile played across her lips.
"I guess third time's the charm" she began giggling to herself.
I couldn't help but laugh along with her, realising how dense I must have seemed, she had told me she loved me three times, and I all I could go in the moment, was stare at her blankly¸ taking much too long to process the information.
"I love you too, Bella...I'm sorry I didn't respond, it's just that I had been thinking about it also, but I didn't quite know what to make of the information and-"
"Alice, I think I've done enough talking for the both of us, let's be quiet now, hmm?"
She smiled before placing a kiss on my lips, pulling my body into hers, I could feel the heat all over me, her grip on my waist tightened as the kiss intensified, the both of us, applying more pressure, there was no hesitation in the kiss, only want, need, desire.
Bella flicked her tongue across my lower lip, prompting me to open my mouth, and respond with my own, as I felt the soft, slick push of her tongue against mine, massaging just the tip of my own, a deep moan escaped my throat, I ran one of my hands through her silky brunette locks, pushing her head forward, her tongue delved deeper into my mouth, our tongues now stroking each others, slowly.
I gradually withdrew my tongue, trapping her bottom lip between mine, before pulling away from her, her lip dragging between mine, slowly before our lips parted.
Bella let out a small whimper of protest, placing a small peck on her lips, I urged her backwards, her knees buckling backwards against the edge of the mattress, she was now sitting on the bed, looking up at me, her face flustered, a beautiful shade of pink flush, her eyes blinking rapidly¸ as she tried to regain herself, her breaths now nothing more than quick panting.
She took my hand in hers, pulling me downwards, I happily obliged, lowering my body until i was sitting on her lap, cupping her face between my hands, tilting her head toward mine, our lips met and our kiss, was just as intense as before I had broken it, her hands held onto my back, her fingertips sliding underneath the fabric of my top, scraping against my skin, leaving trails of heat in their wake, releasing my hands from her face, I placed them on her shoulders, applying pressure gentle, she fell backwards, into the mattress.
Following her forward, our fronts pressed together, I adjusted my legs, pushing one between hers, which had fallen open slightly, so that my thigh rested just between the middle of hers, Bella began shifting backwards further into the bed, underneath me her legs opening just a little more, my thigh slipped forwards, at this, Bella groaned, biting my bottom lip, nipping at it.
My eyes were as black as onyx now, and I kissed her back, passionately, delving my tongue deeper into her mouth, I felt her fingertips squeeze into my back, sliding my hand down the side of Bella's body, my fingers stopped, at the edge of the shirt she was wearing, I lay my hand flat against her abdomen, pushing it slowly upwards, over her stomach, I let my fingers brush over her, I heard Bella's gasp at the action, again her hands pressed into my back, a physical sign of gentle encouragement.
This was unbelievable, hearing the sounds Bella made, escaping her lips, seeing the expressions her face wore, when she was enjoying my touch, the heat from her body, flushing all over me, the scent that danced through the air, making me inhale deeply, taking all of it in, the taste of her, sweet, irresistible, addictive, thrilling every single taste bud on my tongue, Bella assaulted my senses in the most pleasurable way I could ever know.
My hand continuing on its path upwards, the cotton of Bella's shirt rubbing against it, the heat of her smooth skin under my fingertips, inhaling, taking the moment in, I brushed my thumb of the fabric of Bella's lace bra, I could feel her hardened nipple, protruding through the fabric under the pad of my thumb, a quick gasp fell from her mouth, her body arched upwards, searching for friction, her hips began rolling, grinding against my own, her legs falling open completely, I pushed my thigh all the way through, until I hit the apex of them, the contact of my thigh, pushing against her core, making her moan into my shoulder, the sound, sending a shudder of ecstasy down my spine-
A high pitched noise, began to ring out in the room, What is that? Where? Shit. my phone, the phone continued ringing, I would ignore it, Bella didn't even look around to investigate, she was caught in the rhythm of our lips pressing against each other, our bodies grinding together.
It was addictive.
I didn't want to stop.
I wouldn't.
The ringing got louder, hearing Charlie grumble in his bedroom, I snapped out of my daze, hesitantly pushed myself off of the bed, Bella turning her head to look at me, a sort of panic on her face, "Is Charlie awake?"
"Nope" I muttered, "False Alarm".
The phone began ringing again, this level of persistence isn't normal, there must be a problem, flipping the phone open, I didn't recognise the number.
I answered...
"Alice, its Rosalie..."
"Rosalie...Hi, No...It seems that i was wrong"
"You were wrong? Are you sure?"
"Of course I'm sure, I'm....with Bella right now..."
"Oh, well then there could be a problem."
"A problem? What type of problem?"
"I may have – he deserved to know Alice, we couldn't leave him in the dark about it, i thought after he knew, things would return to normal, our family has separated because of this whole situation, we could just get on with our lives-"
"What. Are you talking about?
"Edward – I told him what you saw."
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"The Volturi. They'll help me. If they don't. I'll do something else. What can i do? I could feed in the city. Expose myself to somebody maybe. I'll destroy something, a landmark perhaps? A display of my strength... or my speed?
Whatever i do, i must do it soon. I'll end it all, No life at all, is better than a life without her alive. First i will go and see the Volturi. That is where I'll start."
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