Always and Forever
Ruined
"I don't care if you can control it or not! Why the hell did you imprint on ME?" I shouted at him.
I knew I was hurting him, I knew I was causing him he most pain he has ever experienced in his life, but at the moment I was so furious I didn't even care. I hated the fact that even though I was so angry at him, I still felt my heart tug and sting for his pain. It was like his pain was my pain.
That feeling only fueled my fury.
He whimpered, "I'm so- I don't know...Emily ple-"
"DON'T!" I screamed at him,"Don't even try Sam! You loved HER first! You promised HER you would love her, you promised HER all of this. WHY didn't you imprint on her?! I don't care that you love me and that you can't control it! I HATE you! I HATE YOU!"
His voice was so soft I could barely hear it, "I know...i know, you should...you have every right-"
"YES, I do have every right! How DARE you come into my best friend's life, love her for so long, just to take it all away! She used to call me and tell me how HAPPY she was that she had you, she used to tell me all the wonderful things you did together, she used to tell me that she LOVED YOU, and she was so sure YOU were the one! She won't even TALK to me now! Its too PAINFUL for her to even LOOK at me, much less TALK to me, knowing that YOU'RE in LOVE with ME!"
I paused for a moment, my fury towards him building up inside of me, I felt like there was no end.
But there was still a apart of me that screamed at myself to hold him in my arms to kiss him, to tell him everything would be okay...I put and end to that thought immediately.
Sam was looking down, though I could see the tears that rapidly fell from his eyes. His hands were placed on either side of his head, as if he were tyring to hold his head in place. His breathing was shallow and short, I could tell he was depressed. And his body was vibrating slightly, like there was something inside that was trying to break free.
"I know...I know, I hate myself too...I hate myself so much...I wish I could just die...its all my fault...."
I could not stop my hateful rant, it kept flowing from my mouth. I felt like I just needed to get this out.
"You RUINED everything! EVERYTHING! She was my SISTER, she was my BEST FRIEND. And you RUINED it! I HATE you! I WILL NEVER LOVE YOU! How could you love someone else when she still LOVES you?" my voice began to falter with tears of my own, "How could you break her heart, after everything?! WHY?"
"I HATE MYSELF!" Sam cried out suddenly.
I stopped my ranting, something held myself back from saying anything more. A sense of foreboding abruptly swept through me. I watched him with wide eyes and my mouth hanging open in disbelief to what was happening.
The vibrating of Sam's body turned violent. It looked like he was literally moving from side to side at lighting-fast speed. It was to the point were I could barely make out distinct human features. His hand were no longer at his head, but balled up in tight fists at his side.
I knew he was trying to control himself. But somehow I knew it was far too late for that. I knew he wouldn't be able to control it.
I don't remember much of what happened next. There were three things about that one instant, that have been permanently etched into my mind forever.
I heard a horrible crunching sound matched by a malicious snarl.
I felt my face slash open, and unimaginable pain.
The last thing I remember was the long agonized howl that rung sadly in my ears, and lead me into darkness.