Disclaimer- You know the drill, I sure as shit ain't Stephanie Meyer and the only things I own are my laptop, my car and my beloved guitar

A/N I won't bore you all with the details of my personal life except to say that I've been incredibly busy and quite simply not in the mood to make any time to update.

I've not been in the mood to update any of my lovey dovey never plausible in a real life situation melodramatic teenage dribblings but since everyone is kind enough to review and I've been somewhat inspired by the brilliant FF I was reading today I decided hell why not this was going to be quite the depressing chapter anyway.

To all of those who want me to update my other stories I'm sorry and I will update as soon as I get past my depressed teenager stage that I seem to be going through. I simply can't write 'happy' chapters whilst I'm in a bad mood because my cynical side comes through and my characters would probably end up killing each other or themselves before the story was through.

Chapter Fourteen

I couldn't bear to stare at the judgmental faces of the people who loved me so instead I chose to focus on Emmett's crumpled, unconscious body laying in a dead faint on the living room floor.

The room was full of tension and no one seemed able to break the uptight silence that had overwhelmed us. I was still fighting my sobs as I felt a pair of arms encircle me and then Bella's kind voice in my ear

"Shh Ali honey, it's alright. It's going to be alright"

Touched by her incredible ability to forgive me I threw my arms around her neck and bawled into her shoulder while she stroked my hair.

"How is it going to be alright Bells? Everyone hates me and I deserve it" I moaned

"Ali sweetie that's not true, no one hates you "Bella protested and Rosalie scoffed loudly.

"Speak for yourself Bella because right now I'm not very fond of her, judging by the look on Edward's face he's not too happy with her either and I can't speak for Emmett but considering the fact that he's unconscious I'd say he isn't exactly thrilled by her lies"

I lifted my face from Bella's shoulder and glanced at Rosalie's furious face, her blue eyes were hard and uncompromising focusing on me with a hatred that I had never imagined would be directed at me from anyone much less my best friend.

Unnerved by her hateful expression I quickly averted my eyes from hers and foolishly instead chose to focus my sight on Edward, this was foolish because the look on Edward's face was nothing like the fierce expression that I had prepared myself for in its place was a look of utter disappointment and this broke my heart far more than any frown or glare could have.

"Ed" I whispered and he glanced at me quickly before averting his eyes to any direction but mine.

I almost cried again at the sight of the devastation that I had caused, this was all because of me and I had no idea what I could do to make it better. I had betrayed my family and my friends; I had lied to everyone that I cared about and fallen in love with a guy who only used me for sex.

"I'm so sor-"

I began before Rosalie cut me off with a vicious

"save your lies and apologies for someone who wants to hear them Alice because right now I have better things to do like wake Emmett up"

I bit my lip and nodded

"He hates the smell of vanilla, I'll go get some from the pantry and it should wake him right up"

"no" Rosalie hissed "I'll get it"

The room was awkwardly silent as she disappeared into the kitchen and I chanced another glance at Edward only to see that he was still focusing on anything but me

"Edward I really am sorry, I didn't mean to lie to you"

"I know" He said quietly and I felt a spark of hope that he might be beginning to forgive me "but please just save it for when Emmett wakes up and we can talk about this properly" and with that he followed Rosalie into the kitchen.

I bit back my tears because I knew that I deserved every moment of this and much more.

"Bella no one is going to forgive me are they?" I sniffled and she smiled kindly at me

"I can't say Alice but I've already forgiven you, I know what it's like to be in love and I can't fault you for that, I just don't approve of the way that you went about it"

"I love you Bella, you're the most forgiving person I know" I smiled weakly and she grinned back at me "I love you too Alice, you're truly the sister I've never had"

We were interrupted by the sound of Rosalie and Edward's footsteps, in her hand Rosalie clutched a small bottle of vanilla essence which she then carefully unscrewed and poured all over Emmett's face.

Emmett came to life immediately coughing and spluttering.

"Rosalie" Edward scolded "that wasn't necessary, you could have just waved the bottle under his nose or something"

"I could have but I didn't" Rose snapped "Don't test me because I'm about ready to hit someone and you're putting yourself in a prime position bud"

Edward threw his hands into the air and stepped backwards as Emmett gagged loudly on the floor "gross, vanilla essence is disgusting" he groaned.

"I know Em, I'm sorry and I assure you that you can wash it off as soon as Alice tells us what the hell she was playing at" Rosalie began kindly but by the end of her sentence her voice had turned into a bitter hiss.

All eyes in the room turned to me and I sank back into a big comfortable armchair.

"Okay guys before I start I just want to let you know that I never planned this and I certainly didn't intend for things to turn out this way.

It just kind of happened, that night at Jasper's party I saw you guys hooking up and I made the incredibly stupid decision to get utterly and completely drunk to try and repress that image as much as I could.

That was the night that Jasper and I...well you know. Anyway I'm not going to justify my actions by saying that since I was drunk it was alright but if I hadn't have been drinking it never would have happened"

Rosalie glared at me "are you trying to say that this was our fault?"

"No of course not!" I protested "I knew what I was doing and I was completely responsible for my own actions I just didn't think of the consequences"

"Fine, one drunk night with a guy that you hate is understandable and we get why you wouldn't want to tell us Alice but it didn't stop there, you had a relationship with him and you lied to us and that is not understandable and it' not okay" Edward stated as Rosalie and Emmett nodded their heads in agreement and Bella shot me a sympathetic look.

"I know.

What you have to understand is that it was to put it rather bluntly 'The. Best. Sex. Ever."

I ignored the glares from Emmett and Edward and continued.

"And so when he called me the next week I just couldn't say no, I didn't think that it would lead to anything I really didn't and I was so ashamed.

I wanted to tell you guys I really did but all I kept thinking was 'it's Jasper Whitlock' we all hated him it wasn't just me and I couldn't handle the thought of you all being mad at me or disappointed in me. "

I laughed wryly

"I guess that came back to bite me in the ass big time.

Anyway the more time that I spent with Jasper the more I noticed the little things about him that were so sweet and endearing like the way he gave me the cutest pet names and nicknames and how he treated me like his equal and like a princess at the same time.

And then when I had that awful pregnancy scare and he was so kind, he looked after me and even bought pregnancy tests for me when I was so sure that he would just laugh at me and tell me to get out of his life. That's when I started to fall in love with him."

"Hold on" Emmett screamed "WHAT PREGNANCY SCARE?"

Shit, I cursed internally; I hadn't meant to mention that.

"I... I had a tiny little scare when I thought that maybe I could be *cough pregnant cough*"

"you had unprotected sex with Whitlock, King of the Man Whores Whitlock?!" Edward seethed and I cringed

"look I'm not going to go into this right now, I'm pretty sure that you don't want to know all the ways that Jasper Whitlock bent me over and fucked me senseless"
Edward narrowed his eyes at me and I, immediately regretting my words decided to continue as though I hadn't been interrupted.

"So I kept seeing him and I kept putting off telling any of you, I didn't think that you would understand I guess I just felt guilty, anyway I guess you guys coming home early this weekend put an end to all the secrecy anyway"

I trailed off and stared at my feet, waiting for someone to say something, anything.

"It's not only the fact that you were seeing him Alice, it's the fact that you lied to us, that you went behind our backs and lied to our faces. Hell you even had the nerve to make us feel guilty for ignoring you and for that you've lost our trust"

Emmett said grimly and I looked up at him, meeting his eyes which were full of frustration.

"I know, and I'd do anything to get it back. Name something, anything and I'll do it just please forgive me" I murmured and Rosalie's head shot up as she replied in a heart beat.

"Break it off with him, date one of Emmett and Edward's football buddies and stay the hell away from cousin and I'll consider forgiving you"

"Em? Ed?"

"Do what Rosalie says, Jasper Whitlock is a bad influence on you"

"and you on him" Rosalie interjected

"I can think of a million guys better for you, date one of them, stay away from Whitlock and never lie to us again" Edward continued.

Bella opened her mouth to interrupt but I held up my hand to silence her.

"Okay"

"Alice don't be ridiculous, you love him" Bella frowned

"I said I'll do it" I sighed and tried to ignore the crushing suffocation I felt as my heart shattered into a million pieces.

NO FLAMES!

THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS ARE GOING TO BUM PEOPLE OUT BUT LETS FACE IT AS SOON AS YOU ALL READ THE SUMMARY YOU KNEW THIS MOMENT WAS COMING.

DON'T FRET THOUGH BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I DON'T THINK THEY EXIST IN REALITY, I AM A FIRM BELIEVER IN FINISHING A STORY WITH A HAPPY ENDING.