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5 - The Morning After
EPOV
I couldn't believe my luck. Bella had actually stayed. I thought she was sure to go home to her fiance. Instead she stayed and made love to me. As I lay with her in my arms and watched her sleep I thought back to our passionate night. Her calling my name as she climaxed. I really am the luckiest man in the world. No that's not true. If you were the luckiest, she'd be here with me every night for the rest of our lives... The one thing nagging on my mind was the fact she still didn't seem to remember me. I was sure something in her mind would click and she would re-live that happy summer in Phoenix. I don't want her to think I'm crazy so I'll drop it for now. But I am determined to make her remember.
I was starting to feel tired, but my mind wouldn't shut down. I was still on a high from being with Bella. I sleepily wondered if she would leave Jacob for me. She had admitted to loving me too, and wanting me as much as I wanted her. She couldn't deny that, could she? An uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach made me more anxious, but I ignored it. I planned to enjoy my time with Bella while I could. I'd deal with everything else later. After all, I had promised her a night of fun with no strings attatched, I wasn't about to go back on my word. I nuzzled my face into the side of her neck and slowly driffed to sleep......
BPOV
A bright light in my eyes woke me up. That was odd, I always closed the curtains in my bedroom so I wouldn't be bothered by the morning light. I opened my eyes drowsely and did a double take. I wasn't in my bedroom. This bedroom was larger than mine but didn't have a homey feel the way mine did. The room was immaculate, except for a trail of clothes which led from the foot of the bed to the large living room which was visable through the open bedroom doors. I closed my eyes as I remembered last night. Edward pinning me to the living room wall. Me tearing our clothes off as he carried me through the appartment to his large, almost alluring bed. Where I had yanked my engagement ring off when he wasn't looking and put it in his bedside table. For that night, I wanted to be anyone but future Mrs. Black.
I turned around and found Edward, sleeping peacefully with his arm wrapped around me. I leaned up and kissed him gently on the cheek and he smiled in his sleep and tightened his arm around my waist. All of me wanted to snuggle into him and go back to sleep. To call Jake and call off the fast approaching wedding. But I knew I couldn't. Our families had been told, and our fathers Charlie and Billy, who were lifelong friends couldn't be happier. Jake had also moved out of his small appartment and moved into mine. Not to mention my friends who were planning our wedding with more enthusiasim than I had could muster.
It wasn't fair! It was my life! If I didn't want to end up with someone who I didn't love one-hundred percent, like I now realised that I did with Edward, why should I? But I couldn't do that to everyone, I couldn't hurt Jake, suprise my friends or hurt Charlie. He loved Jake like a son and I didn't want to ruin the plans he had had since I was born. He was always trying to push Jake and I together and was thrilled when we started going out in highschool. He had never taken our break ups seriously and insisted we were meant to be together. Like we were like sun and the moon. Complete oppisits, butnever without each other. But last night had taught me many things, like the fact that even if Jacob was the moon and I was the sun, or even the other way round! Edward was the sky. The entire existance of everything that I knew! He was always there! But never seen in any other way than he intended to be seen.
All the thoughts of my wedding and Charlie had depressed me so I decided to think about happier thoughts. My mind automatically drifted to last night and I tried to fight the smile that crept to my face. I couldn't believe I had actually slept with Edward. I was still trying to convince logical side of me that it had actually happened, and tried to tame the squeeling teenage girl inside me that wanted to do a happy dance. It was strangley easy to tame her, though I had a feeling that was because I would have to leave Edwards arms to dance. I lay beside him wondering what it would be like to stay with Edward and leave Jake. The more I thought about it the more appealing it sounded. Would we marry? Would Edward and I have children?
More time passed but I wasn't keeping track of how long. It might have been ten minutes, or an hour. A loud beep broke the silence. Quietly as I could I sneeked out of Edwards grip and padded to the living room to take my blackberry out of my bag. I noticed I had 2 missed calls and 5 messages. I was surprised that I hadn't noticed them but realised they must have arrived when I was busy with Edward. I blushed at the thought. I opened the first message and my heart stopped. It was from Jake.
Bells u okay?
Where r u?..X
That one was from early last night from the time, it looked like I had been resisting Edward's advances at that moment. It made me feel a little better knowing that I hadn't been doing anything wrong at the timebut it wasn't long before you were, my conscience reminded me. I sifted through the next four messages. 3 from Jake and 1 from alice. She said Jake was worried about me and called her to see if I was with her. Great I thought there goes my aliby I felt another stab of remorse as I thought that.I didn't know I could be so calous. The last was the worst. So full of fear and love I started to cry.
Bells baby, please call me
I'm going out of my mind here
I'm sorry if I did something to upset you
love you so much belly....
The rest of the text had kisses in it. I couldn't believe he was apologising to me. I was the cruel heartless bitch that was sleeping with her boss, and he was the concerned fiance blaming himself for my abscence. That and the use of my nick-name when we were small had me bursting into tears. I had to get home to jake and apologise for staying out all night, though I still had no idea what I was going to say to him. I headed towards the bedroom, picking up clothes and dressing on the way. When I got back in the room I noticed that Edward had rolled over and was now hugging the pillow I had used. I suddenly didn't want to go. I wanted to strip down and get back into bed with Edward. I was torn between what was right and what I wanted. Of course my conscience won and I was soon standing outside my front door, wondering what I was going to do about Jake. Would he still be up worrying?. Was he suspicious about last night? Who should I tell him I was with?
Finally I bit the bullet and opened the door, I was surpised by the sight before me. The room was trashed. The floor was littered with papers all of the ornaments on my mantle piece were broken on the floor and one of the couch cushions had been ripped. In the middle of all this was Jake. He was sitting, completely out of it on the kitchen barstool. He didn't look up when I came in, and I was sure he didn't hear me.
Jake?" I called out heisitantly, afraid of the greeting I would get. Not that I didn't deserve it. I deserved more. I was a slut.
Jake looked up. Looking dazed. Then a string of emotions went through his face, love, disbelief, pain and anger. The last one scared me. I knew Jake had a temper, but I had never been on the receiving end of it.
"Bella?" he called out, unsure. His eyes were unfocused, as if he was looking through me, and not at me.
"Jake" I whispered in a broken voice, the tears started to flow. He was at my side in an instant. "Bella, are you okay?" he asked frantically "Who were you with? Did they hurt you?"
I sobbed more at that. Edward hadn't hurt me, he had made love to me. And while Jake was worrying over me, I was wishing I was with Edward again. After reassuring Jake that I was okay, I went for a shower, to wash Edwards scent off me. Thankfully, Jake seemed to buy my story of meeting up with a friend after work,and getting so hammered I had to stay at her house. Jake tried to get me stay home from work, but I knew I couldn't. I had to get today over with, then maybe we could go back to normal. I would marry Jake, and Edward would meet a nice girl from a good family and they would have a big showy solciliate wedding. Just thinking about it made me feel naseous. Was this how Edward felt when he thought about my wedding. It was a horrible feeling. I felt like such a bitch for putting him through this. It had to stop. Just before I left the living room I thought of something.
"Jake..?" I asked, unsure of how to proceed. "How did the living room get so trashed?" I was almost afraid of the answer.
"Oh..." he smiled looking sheepish, but there was something else there he was hiding.. "I just don't handle worry well I guess...you really scared me you know Bella" I nodded, though I didn't really believe him, it seemed more like something a person would do in a fit of rage...not sick with worry. Again his eye's were heavy, guarded as I kissed him goodbye and walked out the door.
Just before I got into the elevator in my appartment building, jake ran out of the appartment saying he wanted to ask me something. "It can't wait he insisted" when I said I'd talk to him later. The next words shocked me completely, in the worst way possible. "I want to move the wedding to next month..."
EPOV
I knew I shouldn't have fallen asleep. As soon as I did Bella bolted. Not that I blamed her. I was her boss and friend and practally begged her to fuck me. Hell, she probably felt obligated or some shit like that. And as soon as I closed my eyes she made her way back to Jakie, and who could blame her? I certainly didn't. He could over her things I never could. Like a real relationship without lies and secrecy. That didn't stop me from wanting her though. I craved her, she was like an addiction to me. My own special fix. I just hoped I could quit cold turkey, there was no easing off stage for this type of drug.
I got to the office a bit late, after cleaning my appartment until there was no evidence of last night, I could still feel her precence though. Which pissed me off no end because I didn't even believe in that shit. At this stage I was going to have to move! When I exited the lift at our floor I looked around subtly to see if she was there. I found her leaning over the office secretaries desk,her ass high in the air, talking about something serious. I walked straight into the office and closed the door. I threw my briefcase on my desk and sat on my chair with my head in my hands, this had to stop. We had to get the awkwardsness out of the way and get back to normal. I was about to call her into my office when she walked in holding two coffee's.
"Knock, knock" she announced smiling heisitantly and holding out a coffee to me. "Thanks" I smiled a weak smile and had a sip.
" About last night..." she began.
"Bella I get it, it's fine" I assured her though I didn't get it, not one bit. "Last night was a once off, never to happen again and never to be spoken about after today" I said fimly, smiling encouragingly at her. She looked relieved at slightly pained, as if she didn't want to forget sbout us, but that was probably wishfull thinking. "So, what does Jacob think?" I asked her after an uneasy silence.
Her eyes teared up and she took a minute to answer "I told him I spent the night with Leah after getting drunk"she said refering to the secretary she had been talking to earlier. "He believed it" I could tell by her expression she was hiding something, had he hurt her? I was seeing read with rage at the thought.
"Did he hurt you" I spit out through my teeth. She looked shocked.
"Of course not" she said indignantly. "He never has, and he never would..." her voice trailed off at the end, as if she was unsure that last bit was true. After that she left giving me a swift smile as she did so, but it wasn't right it didn't reach her eyes. I was going to have to stop the awkwardness I just didn't know how....
BPOV
I wasted the whole day. By the time I left and half six(after spending an hour stalling) I still hadn't done an ounce of work. Edward was kind about it, I think he thought I was still worried about last night. Which I wouldn't have been if it hadn't of been for Jake and his shocking announcement this morning.
*****flashback*****
"What?" I asked unsure that I had heard him correctly. "Next month?...." He grinned, my grin but it was a bit different than before, more bitter somehow.
"Come on now love, your hurting my feelings" he said teasingly, with a hint of seriosness in it.
"I'm just surprised" I clarified not completely honest. "Why so soon?" I asked. "Theres no rsh is there?....besides Alice will be pissed" I smiled half-heartedly. He smiled but his face became serious. "
I was so worried last night, I thought something horrible had happened to you. I was afraid someone had hurt you, I want everyone to know that your mine and NO ONE else's" he spoke so fiercely at the end I was nearly sure he knew about me and Edward. "Besides...." he said softly and he seemed to lose the words. He shook his head and smiled. "We'll talk when you get home" I nodded and kissed him swiftly on the cheek before leaving
*****end flashback*****
I was so distracted on the way home I nearly crashed. But at this moment in time I would have welcomed a trip to the hospital, it would give me more time to stall. When I got home I took as long as I could to get up to the appartment. I was sure that Jake was about to confront me about Edward. When I walked in I saw that the appartment had been cleaned and there was two classes of wine sitting on the coffee table. Weird, I thought Jake doesn't even like wine, I walked into the kitchen to see Jake 'cooking' (I'm using the term very loosely) dinner.
"Hi" I whispered going behind him and wrapping my arms around his waist.
"Hi Bells" he said. "I was hoping to finish dinner before you came home. It was supposed to be a surprise"he sounded disappointed.
"It's okay"I assured him. !It looks like you need my help anyway" I said looking at the pot in his hand.
I quickly salveged dinner and we sat down to eat. I was so nervous I kept drinking. Before I knew it I had polished off a bottle by myself.
"No Bells" Jake said when I reached for a second bottle. "we have to talk remember" I nodded and apologised in a small voice "It's fine Bells" he said rolling his eyes. "Now, you want to know why, besides the reason I gave you this mornnig, I want to marry you next month" I nodded slowly. "I just think that we should get married as soon as possible so that if anything happens....if Charlie..." he seemed to be struggling with his words but I understood what he meant, He wanted us to get married soon, so if anything happened with Charlie we would still have happy memories of our wedding with him, and he would know I was happy and had someone to look after me. I started crying at the thought of losing Charlie and Jake wrapped his arms around me and carried me to bed.
"I think your right Jake, we should get married as soon as possible" I sobbed into his chest. I continued to cry into the night but fell asleep in Jakes strong warm arms, the only problemwas they were the wrong arms........
JPOV
After what felt like hours Bella finally fell asleep. I felt guilty about bringing Charlie up but it had to be done. I wanted her to become my wife as soon as possible and she was heisitant, It's not like I don't know why. It was because of her boss Fuckward. She wanted him and he wanted her. The only reason they hadn't gotton together yet was because it was against company rules. I was grateful for that, because Bella was mine, not his. He was some pretty rich boy who was looking for some sordid affair. I wanted to marry her and father her children. And he had to get in the way. Last night had been horrible. I knew where she was and what she was doing. How? You ask? Call it an instinct True I shoudn't have trashed the appartment like that, but I couldn't help it. She belonged to me and no one else. It's not like I'd ever hurt her or anything. Then this morning she had come home smelling of sex, with him. I knew I needed to nip this in the bud, and this seemed like the perfect way how. Now I just needed to gently push her in the right direction, meaning my direction. Now I just needed a distraction for Edward...and I had the perfect person.....
Here I am once again! Lol! I'm sure loads of you are getting frustrated with the fact Jacob/Bella are still and item, but, have patience and trust, everything will work out. Me and Batman both don't like Jacob, and don't intend to let Edward be sad for Jacob's happyness.
The next chapter will bring in more drama, so be prepared! Lol!
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