Lovesick Melody.
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A/N: Hey everyone! I just got back and I am super tired. I hate being jet lagged don't you? Anyway, the trip was very fun and on our last day we were crying so much. I miss it there already. The only thing I hated was the weather though, ecspecially in freaking Boracay. That place was like a desert but it was so beautiful. You could see the bottom from a far. And the sand is so soft. It's just Ah-mazing! In other news... Aww. This story is coming to an end! I'm aiming for this story to be ten chapters. But it might change. So that's just a heads up.
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When I woke, I woke happy. And when I looked in the mirror, I was smiling foolishly. I walked down the stairs to go and make some breakfast. Maybe it was a good thing that Sauske drunk a cup of alcohol. It'd make things far less complicated. Cleaning the dishes, I nearly dropped a plate when I heard Sasuke's voice, "Sakura! Make me some tea! Ugh. I feel sick."
My heart thumped, scared that he would remember what had happened, "Right. Okay. Tea." Okay, I was treating this very lightly. When I grabbed the container which held all the tea leaves my hands shook. Calm down! I scolded myself in my head, I had to act normal. Unfortunately, luck wasn't with me and I dropped all the tea leaves, "Sorry Sasuke! Would coffee be fine?"
"Make it black." he called. Since when did he climb down the stairs to sit on dinner table chair? Oh shit, now I have to be extra normal. Running towards the cabinet, I slammed my foot against the counter top, I groaned in pain, "Haha. Hey, are you okay? You're acting rather suspiciously this morning. Eh, I guess it's better then seeing you have that depressed look you've had on your face lately. Actually put milk in that, Cafe Au Lait."
He doesn't remember about yesterday. I feel relieved, but also.. a bit disappointed. When I handed him his coffee he said thank you while I just looked away, I was sure my face was bright red. My greediness grown proportionally with my love for him. I scolded myself to act normal once again. But this love is anything but normal, I reminded myself walked to school with my messenger bag. The only thing I could do is to put a lid on my heart and shut it up. I'm scared, what if this spills out someday?
I stopped walking and placed my finger tips on my lips, I think I'll be okay for now. Because now, I have a treasure. When I came back home, I was just having a normal conversation with Sasuke. Somehow, we gotten on the subject of my mother. He told me how they met, what he thought of me as I kid. And he was pretty worried when I refused to call him dad. I laughed at that memory. But then I thought, how could I call him dad? When I fell in love with him at first sight? I looked up at the picture we had of my mother in the living room.
"You're a senior now... so seventeen?" I nodded, Ami and I were in the same grade but she was eighteen or nineteen because she flunked, "So when Sakumo got into that accident, you were... about twelve maybe thirteen? So it's been nearly five years. Time sure does fly." The memory of my body laying over my mother's lifeless body crying out her name hoping that she would somehow revive. My hair was shorter back then.
Out of no where, Sasuke ruffled my freshly brushed hair, "What was that for?!"
"It's a mess now. You sure did grow up." He looked nostalgic. What's this all about? "Do you remember, when Sakumo died and until things calmed down, we slept together, glued to each other." I didn't know what he was saying.
"I don't remember that," I replied cluelessly, "You're just joking!"
"No, I'm serious. I remember that day clearly. You said you wanted to die with her, because you prefer dying then being alone. You said that you were more afraid of being alone then dying. And that's when I thought that this girl has nothing in her heart to hold her together and give her strength. I was already an adult, both of my parents were happy and healthy. And I could manage to live alone. So little by little I wanted you to open up to me. By knowing that I was here for you."
When he was about to walk away I tugged on his shirt, "I'm sorry. Because of me, you were never able to express your grief." He must have been grieving for mother's death too. But he had to stay strong... for me.
"To tell the truth, my mind was blank from shock... But.. by protecting you. I was able to plant my feet more firmly on the ground. You saved me."
That's when I realized that Sasuke and I, we were both saved by each other. For a moment I stopped walking and looked up at the ceiling, Thank you mother. For introducing me to this man. Mother had always been sunny and cheerful. Everyone who knew her treated her as a friend. And she did the same, I wanted to become a teacher like her. So I aimed for the education department.
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"Congratulations, Sakura!!" everyone screamed. My grandparents and Sasuke were in the living room drinking some fruit punch, "It's amazing how you got in your first year applying!" praised my grandmother.
"I didn't actually think you'll get into college that fast." said Sasuke.
"Hey! I get things done when I try. Unlike somebody who didn't get into school his first year!"
"You brat! Do you realize that you just alienated every student who didn't get into college their first year?"
"It's your fault! You could just praise me like any other normal person you know!"
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I was sitting in on the couch when I realized that my grandmother and Sasuke were no where in sight. Grandfather gave me this velvet box and I smiled at him cheerfully. I couldn't wait to show Sasuke. When everyone left, since it was getting awfully late I thought this was the best time to show Sasuke, "Hey Sasuke." I said coming up from behind him, "Look what grandfather and grandmother gave me to celebrate me getting into college."
"They're earrings!"
"They're not just any earrings they are pure pearl earrings. They've been asking me what I wanted so I told them just to get me these. I tried refusing but hey, after a while I just gave up and asked for these. Aren't they pretty?" I said in awe. Sadly, I didn't have any ear piercing because Sasuke refused but since now I'm technically an adult, I shouldn't be worried of what he would think.
"You... You are going to put holes in your body?!"
"Wow! You're so old school. Grandpa and grandma are more forward thinking then you are. When were you born?" I said. By the look in his eyes, he was having trouble with something. I was one hundred and ten percent sure that it wasn't because of these earrings. Was it so hard to tell me? I looked down sadly, I could tell him everything but he can't tell me what was bothering him. Some relationship we have.
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Two days later I gave Sasuke a paper which I was sure he wouldn't be to happy about, "What is this?" he asked in a bored tone.
"Those, are the plans for my graduation trip and where we're staying." I said.
"You're going? I haven't heard anything about this before!"
"That's why I'm telling you about this now.. better late then never."
"You should have told me before you decided!"
"But I knew you would object.."
"Jeez, right when I'm getting really busy. What? You expect me to eat cup of ramen for the rest of my life?"
"If that bothers you so much. I'll prepare a few meals and put them in Tupperware. So you could just re heat them. And I'll freeze some things too. It's about time you learn how to cook for yourself, Sasuke." Sasuke was so annoying when he gets like this. Jeez.
"You're not going with a guy, are you?"
"WHAT?! Of course not!" I said turning my back on him. He then complained that I had to look him in the eyes and tell him that answer with a straight face. That night, when I plopped onto my bed with my night gown, I sighed. If Sasuke was acting the way he was because he was jealous that made me happy. But all he sounds like right now is just one of those bothersome parents. Sasuke known me since elementary school. In his eyes, do I still seem child in his eyes? What can I do so he could see more of a woman?
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A week later I car pulled up in our house, "I'm off." I said to Sasuke who was going to walk me out, "Make sure you eat proper meals and don't fall asleep on the couch."
"Yeah, yeah. I get it just hurry up and go and then hurry up and get back already." confused by his statement, I shook it off like it was nothing. Just then Ino and Hinata jumped out of the car and smiled at Sasuke, "Hello. Please take care of Sakura for me. Watch out of her will ya?"
"Sure! Leave it to us!"
"Goodbye, Sakura."
Were those girls traveling by car the whole entire trip? Hn, I remember now. Sakura did mention something about her two friends recently getting their licenses. She was envious at that time. Thinking that they recently received their licenses gave chills down my spine. All of a sudden the phone rang and I picked it up at the first ring, "Hello?!" I wasn't sure if I imagined the urgency in my voice.
"Hey, it's me. Sakura. We just came in the hotel. Safely."
"What the hell took you so long?!" I glanced at the clock and noticed it passed six hours.
"Sorry. We got lost and well, yeah. It was just a hassle."Other voices called Sakura before she spoke in the receiver, "Oh. Sorry, it's dinner so. See ya!"
A week passed and I charged through the door. I missed home, and most of all I missed Sasuke. Holding up a bag I announced that I was home and I had presents for the man I love. But before I could even pull off my shoes Sasuke called me into the kitchen saying that he needed to talk to me. The first question that popped into my mind was if he was going to start yelling at me. I complied when he told me to sit down on the dining table. I then noticed his body it was skinnier but that wasn't all in his eyes were determination and sadness, "You look rather gaunt. Have you been eating properly?"
His next words stunned me and I was sure that they were unexpected, "I'm returning you to your former name. You will be holding the Haruno name once again and you will be going to college from your grandparents house."
I couldn't find my voice until it settled in, "...Wh.. What? Why so suddenly?"
"Actually, we've been discussing this for a while. At the celebration dinner the other day they brought it back up and we decided now was a good time. They are really looking forward to it, Sakura. They even prepared your room already. "
Anger suddenly rushed through me, "Why did you decide this alone? Without informing me? Don't you think I have a say in this as well? It's my future." I could feel my face display the anger I felt inside of me.
"Don't make that face. You and I both know you love your grandmother and grandfather."
No.. "Am I a bother to you, Sasuke?" Living a part from Sasuke was something I didn't want to imagine because I know that I would have rather die then actually be apart from him, "I mean. Have I been a burden to you all this time? Am I right?"
He sighed and leaned on his left hand his lit up cigarette in the other, "Don't be ridiculous."
No way in hell was I going to move, "Do you have a girlfriend or something? Are you scared that I might get in the way of your relationship?"
"I'm leaving the area as well." His eyes lit up as he continued, "I'm going to travel around the world and draw. I won't stop in Japan. I'm going to go where ever I want and do whatever I please so I don't have any regrets. I want to absorb many different things and melt into each land." Looking into his eyes I could tell he was serious, "It has always been my dream. Does it not suit me?" Sasuke's voice is so calm and he's speaking slowly. He only speaks this way when he is absolutely determined.
"Oh. I see." I could tell immediately because I've always been by his side, "Then I'm sorry for troubling you." So here I am, with my bags right next to me standing in front of Sasuke with a smile on my face, "Off I go." I told myself that I had no ight to stop him, he decided this and it's Sasuke's life. I understand this completely that I could even smile. I bowed before him.
"It's like you're off to get married." he commented.
"I know!" I giggled. I had to tell myself that I was fine. I'll begin a new life and let myself go with the flow from now on. Living with my grand parents if very peaceful and I enjoy it most of the time. And college seems like it's full of interesting things. Like Sasuke, I, myself will absorb new things. Wait. I can't think about him. I can't talk about him. Hopefully, everything will be fine in time.
In my new bed, I closed my eyes hoping that sleep will overcome the second I lay my head down. Although the memory of him kissing me played over and over in my mind. How could I live like this? How could I live without knowing if Sasuke was all right? I can't stand it, knowing that he isn't down the hallway or in his office drawing another picture.
A knock on the door caused me to sit up and I was surprised when my grandmother walked in, "Grandma. Is anything wrong?"
"I just got a phone call. Sasuke-san is leaving tomorrow."
".. Really..? That's... nice.." I could here the need for me to see him once again just before he leaves.
"Go see him!! I'll tell your grandpa that you left early morning!"
So she knew, "Grandma.. I love you!!"
My hands clicked the door opened while I held about three plastic bags. Seeing Sasuke with shock on his face was pretty hilarious but seeing Sasuke in general made my stomach twirl, "I thought we should have a going away party. I got the snacks." After five minutes we found ourselves sitting on the couch while I was nibbling on a pocky.
"How's college?" he asked.
"Different. But it's pretty fun. The new places and the new people. Yeah, it's just really different from high school."
"Join any circles yet?"
"I'm thinking about it." There were so many things I wanted to say.
"I was in the bass fishing circle."
"Really now?" But I'm talking about silly things happily. It's as if I'm warding off tomorrows parting. Which was reality.
Sasuke yawned, "Well. I'm going off to bed, I have to wake up early tomorrow. Thanks for coming by."
I smirked knowing that he thought I was going to leave, "I'll stay up a little longer, I have to clean up." He asked if I was leaving and I told him the truth. That I got premission to spend the night.
"... But your bed isn't here anymore.."
"This couch is fine. Oh! Or we could just sleep together. Didn't we sleep together at one point? We could reminisce the old times..."
"Reminisce..." Then suddenly he exploded, "Just when do you think you're talking about!? That happened long ago!!" I could tell that he was angry but I replied calmly and told him that we were related at one point so it shouldn't really be any problem, "Quit joking around!!! No, no no!!!!!" Man was he pissed! I faked a yawn and told him he was being so stingy, "It isn't a matter of me being stingy! Listen to me, you better not say such naive things around any other guy. Normally if I guy and a girl was in this situation.."
"I wouldn't mind.." My heart bgan to beat faster, "I wouldn't mind if that would happen to me and you. Because I.. have always.." My beat began to beat so loud I was scared that it was going to jump out of my chest, "Have always loved you.."
"STOP! " he bellowed, "Don't say anymore. Go home. I'll get you a cab."
"Why won't you let me say it?! Don't you realize that we won't be able to see each other anymore? You'll be traveling around the world while I'll be in college! Why don't you just let me say it? What's the problem!?" I placed my head in my hands crying my heart out.
"When you calm down. Get a taxi and go home. Bye." was his last words before he disappeared from my sight.
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A/N: So what do you think? I say it wasn't my best because I'm really tired but at least I tried right? Review please! Sorry if they are some mistakes I finished this chapter at exactly 6:55 in the morning...