Dedicated to ____(insert your name here)______

"It's killing you? because if it is, you'd better see a doctor. that's a problem i can't help with. i don't know how to open up to someone yet and springing all of this stuff on me at one time isn't helping any. i don't knowif we're going to work out because we haven't tried yet." i smiled up at him and noticed how the moonlight shone over his cheekbones. i tried not to laugh at the fact that my mind kept wandering and focussed on the conversation. "come inside. the food's hot and the fi...lm.... erm." i trailed off as Brady's face came steadily closer and closer to mine, until his lips touched mine.

"Uh...Brady?" i whispered quietly as he took a step back and ran his hand through his hair.

"Yeah?"he seemed scared,as though getting ready for my rejection.

"Can we do that again? it feltnice. Like home,but not because i tried to kiss the house once but it didn't taste that good and i had to go and disinfect my mmouth and then i had to go to the hospital because apparently you're not meant to do that and i was worried and scared so now i don't kisss the house but still... if felt nice. Safe. If you can taste safe..." i frowned up at him and he grinned.

"Yeah, i understand how you feel. i feel that whenever you're around me."

"Oh,i only feel that when we kiss... it must change for each and every person in the world or something. Okay, i'll see you inside." i turned and opened the door, walking into the kitchen. "Collin?i thought we were going to watch a film...?" i frowned as i looked around the now crowded kitchen and gulped as i saw the mass of half naked men in the room.

"Yeah, sorry sis... erm... Brady? there's a new fish in the group." my eyes widened and i shook my head,backing away.

"No please no!"

"No!! it's not the evil one who's been following you around for years and is always there when you turn around if we go fishing." he turned towards the guys "it's why she can't play go fish." he turned back to me "that one we had for dinner that time dad caught it remember? and we gave Harry Clearwater some... 'Memba?" i nodded slowly and sighed, looking down.

From here down is new two thirds of the chapter :P

"okay..." the tallest male in the room who had spoken first nodded at Collin who moved to stand next to Brady. "the new cub's name is Lexus." i laughed a little before growing silent at the glare i was given.

"Where is he?" i looked over my shoulder at Collin, sighed, and walked over to the fridge.

"At my house, Paul's with him in case he runs again." i frowned as i pulled out a PEPSI (they rule) and closed the fridge door. "He won't go far anyways... i think we should talk about his circumstances..." i looked up and saw everyone looking at me.

"What?" i asked slowly.

"Could you leave?" The superior looking one i felt like a rebel, not like rebel without a cause though, james dean died later on and it wasn't funny but a rebel all the same. Well, not a rebel as such but i wanted to stay in my kitchen, i was a little peckish.

"Excuse me?" i walked over to him and stood on my tippy toes. "you come into my house and expect me to leave so you can chat privately? who's kitchen do you think you're in because you are definitely not in mine. i swear." i shook my head and sat down at the table, pulling over a bag of chips. "continue if you want but i'm not leaving." he looked incredulous, as if someone had slapped him in the face.

"Don't you know who i am?" he asked with a tone of authority booming in his voice, as if not to be reckoned with.

"Nope, and i don't know if i want to know now. oh wait, you're that Sam guy... yeah, i met your wife and baby. Anyway, you might be able to talk to people like that but there is only one man who can ask me to leave a room and act all authoritive and that's my pappy and since he's not here, and this is my and Collin's house, there is no way you can move he from the kitchen. Even if me and collin kept to seperate parts of the house we'd still be half and half in the kitchen." his face dropped. "i measured."

"Go sis! i mean erm... sorry Sam." i looked round at Collin, frowning as the look of joy in his face turned suddenly to respect and he looked down.

"Right, okay then, everyone outside. now." he shot me a glare before walking out of the door and my heart seemed to plummet for some reason as i realised that my brother and Brady were following.

"See ya later sis." Collin shot me an apologetic smile as he exited the room and in my mind i was a little chibi clutching on to her blankie with huge eyes, mentally asking him to come back.

"Will you be okay on your own for a few hours?" Paul asked me. I was surprised he was even talking to me, i thought i was quite rude for the things i had said and hung my head in shame before nodding. i was mentally saying no but i iddn't think i should tell them that i get lonely, then they'd do it more often... well, i speak as though they have always been there for me... "cool. don't go wandering off now." he shot me a smile before walking out the door and shutting it behind him.

I gulped as i looked at the window to my right and remembered the red eyes which had stared and watched me when i was younger. I ran to the living room and shut the door before walking over to the sofa and sitting down, trying to shake the feeling of being watched.

(i wrote this in the room with the computer, scared out of my mind that someone was behind me because the doors in the back of the room face the garden :S)

I ran upstairs and got changed into shorts and a vest top before running downstairs holding a duvet cover as quickly as possible just in case the darkness got me when i turned off the light.

I clicked the film on and nearly screamed as i heard a knock at the door an hour later.