Hey there

I'm sorry I'm not posting that much at the moment but I'm not in such a good shape. Those who read my other story will know I was in an accident and lately I've been having nightmare which means I get less and less sleep and the therapy I'm doing isn't working the way it should so walking is a little had for me and it's really depressing. But I try my best.

Anyway I wanted to thank all those lovely people who write reviews. And especially Navygirl14 because she has been reading my first story and always wrote such great reviews and now she's reading my second and she also writing reviews. So a reallllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy BIG thank you and a kiss.

So now on with the story.

Love & hugs

Banygirl03

Bella POV

The weeks went buy and soon it was time for Charlie to leave. We moved all of my stuff to the Cullen's house over the week and here we stood in LA (thank God it wasn't sunny) and I had to say goodbye.

"Well dad. What can I say? I won't wish you good luck and I won't say goodbye. But I hope you have a great time. And I hope you won't forget me."

"Oh baby stop that! How could I forget you? But thank you. I love you princess. Don't forget that and if you ever feel like you need me just come down here ok? I will call you. Every day. And now go. Before I start to cry and lose my masculinity. Emmett will beat me up over this."

"You don't have this from me: but Emmett almost cried himself." I whispered. I knew he could still hear me but I didn't care. Dad laughed and gave me a big hug and than I left for the car. I was driving home with Emmett and Jasper in the Jeep.

When I was sitting inside I let the tears fall while Jasper fastened the seatbelt. I rolled down the window and looked at my dad waving him goodbye. "Hey dad…" I screamed.

"Yes?"

"Good luck" I said and he smiled.

I couldn't help but cry most of the way. I knew Jasper felt bad because he thought he kept me from my family. In the end I was trying to sooth him while he tried to sooth me. Emmett didn't say a word which was not normal. "Emmett. What's wrong?"

"It's nothing Bells. I just….well… I didn't think you would take it so hard. Are you not happy to live with us now?" he looked sad.

"Emmett…" I couldn't believe it. He thought I was sad because I had to stay with them.

"It's not that Emmett. I know I will have a wonderful family but he's my daddy you know. I will miss him and I cry because I'm worried about him. Who will cook for him? Ok he's got Sue but she will only move down here in a month. He could already be starved by the time she arrives or he burned the house down trying to cook. I love living with you now but that doesn't mean I can't be sad. I love you Emmett and I'm happy to live with you now." I touched his shoulder and he took my hand a squeezed it letting me know he understood.

When we arrived in Forks Jasper filled the tub for me and I slipped in. the hot water felt good.

I didn't know how long I've been lying there but when I opened my eyes I saw jasper sitting on the toilet seat looking at me.

"Hey" I whispered and felt embarrassed for a second because I was totally naked.

"What's wrong Darlin?"

"It's nothing…." I could look up and when I felt him near me I couldn't help but blush.

"Bella. Tell me."

"It's just… well… I'm naked you know."

"But you don't have to be embarrassed. I've seen many naked women and I wouldn't mind seeing you…" he trailed off and I knew he was sorry for what he said.

"Jasper can I ask you something?"

"Of course."

"Well you said you have seen many women. How many exactly? I mean you know I've never…"

"Bella what ever happened in my past isn't like this with us. It's right. I have seen many women. While I was in the army women would throw their selves at me just because I wore a uniform and when I was with Maria well… we're vampires. We are sexual creatures by our nature. But it was just sex. With us… it will me making love. It will be new to both of us."

"But you will still be more experienced and I will only be a little girl and I will make a complete idiot about myself." I sighed and slipped deeper into the water.

"That's a lie Bella. Stop talking about yourself like that. When we will make love it will be beautiful. Yes I have many experiences but maybe I just earned them to do my best at pleasing you." He took my hand and lifted my arm from under the water.

He slowly let his finger brush over my skin. "I will spend days in a bed with you doing nothing but make you scream my name. I will touch your skin and it will burn my fingers just like now. I will kiss your lips and taste your sweet skin." He started kissing up my arm and I couldn't help but shudder. This felt good. When he reached my shoulder he let his hand wander under the water and stop just above my breast. He looked at me and asked permission to touch me. And when I nodded slightly he brushed my nipple with his fingers and I moaned his name. His hand played first with one breast and than with he other. All the while he was watching my face with wonder and as he started to move his hand further down I wondered what he was up to. When he was about to reach my most intimate part I stiffened up. Nobody has ever touched me there. I didn't even do it myself. But I had often wondered what it felt like to be touched by Jasper. But now I was scared.

"It's ok Bella. Don't be afraid I won't hurt you. It will always be pleasure. Let me pleasure you darlin. I know how much you need it. I do too. But right now it's just about you." I lightly opened my legs and his hand cupped my sex. He let a finger wander between my folds and started playing with my clit. I moaned his name and he smiled. His lips lingered on my shoulder and every now and than he would kiss me.

He slowly slipped a finger into me and I arched into it. Never had I felt anything this amazing.

He moved his finger in and out of me and soon added another one. I couldn't help but moan. And suddenly I wondered where the others were. "It's ok. You can let go. Nobody is here it feels good doesn't it?" he whispered into my ear and soon I could feel a warmth spread through me and I grasped for Jaspers arm. "That's it darlin. Let go. Feel it. Cum for me…." And just as he said it I let go and was hit with a mind blowing climax. I lay there in the tub and let Jasper wash me clean. "Thank you" I whispered and he smiled. "There is no need to thank me, love. It's my pleasure."

When he was sure I was clean enough he wrapped a towel around me and I couldn't help but smile at the fact that I didn't fell shy about my body. He hadn't seen my in the tub. He had felt me and when I stood up and looked at my body with awe I smiled. He told me I was beautiful and he dried me and afterwards carried me to our bed. We lay there cuddled together until I fell asleep.

Jasper POV

Pleasing Bella was a wonderful experience. She may didn't know it but somehow it pleased me too. When I told here we were sexual creatures it wasn't a lie. And if I wouldn't be such a gentleman I would probably have ravished her today. But she meant too much to me. I wanted her first time to be perfect.

When she stood up afterwards and I got a chance to look at her I couldn't help but actually stare. I had seen many beautiful women in my life. But none like Bella. Here breast were perfect. They weren't too big or too small. They were the perfect size. She had a tight stomach and the perfect curve at her hip. As I compared her to Rosalie and Alice I thought she was perfect. Rosalie had all too much and Alice almost nothing. But Bella stood there like a goddess letting me take her in. her legs were thin but somehow strong from dancing. Her back had the perfect shape and I could have kissed down her spine the whole day. When I did kiss her she giggled and I had to smile. Her ass was a vision. Just perfect to touch.

And the way her hot pussy had felt around my fingers, so tight and wet and warm. The way she said my name. I could have stayed hours there just pleasing her.

Now as we lay in bed I realized she had a slight mark on her shoulder. I had marked her.

I kissed the spot and whispered I love you.

I swore to myself to never let anything harm her and today in the tub she asked me about all the women and I had to be honest with her. They all didn't mean anything to me. But Bella was my life. I had to make sure she was happy. I would never let anything from my past hurt her. She was troubled, embarrassed. Thinking she wouldn't be good. It mattered to me that she was still a virgin. I would be her first and her last man. She would learn things from me and I would gladly teach her. And I would be proud of her. But whatever happened between us would be beautiful, amazing. She had to learn to be more comfortable about this. About us. About me touching her. I would slowly lead her to us making love. Little steps would I make till I finally could make her mine in every sense of the word.

When Bella woke up the others had already come home. We went downstairs and she ate some breakfast. Today we wanted to go shopping in Seattle. I wanted to get her mind off of Charlie. Bella had worried about money when she moved here and I had told her that money was never something to worry about. I was quite good when it came to finance and over the last 160 years I had made more money than anyone could ever spend. She had told me she didn't want me to spend money on her. I had kissed her and told her to shut up. She would one day be my wife and than she would get all the money I had too. But since I couldn't wait that long I had my bank assistant give me a second credit card just for Bella. She had the right to spend all the money right now.

When we went to the car and she opened the door she saw the latter. She opened it and took the credit card out.

"What's this?"

"That my love is your credit card. I want you to have it. I know you got a little money on you r own. And just by the way I invested it a little. But you now have full access to my account."

"Jasper that… that's too much… I mean…."

"Bella take it please? I love you and you're living with me now and one day you will be my wife and I want to share all this with you. I don't spend much money but you can. For whatever you need." I kissed her soft lips and held her hand to my dead heart.

"Thank you Jasper. I love you."

We drove in silence for a while when Bella suddenly spoke.

"You want me to be your wife?"

"Yes. One day I'm going down on one knee and ask you properly to be my wife and when that day comes all you have to do is say yes. And as soon as you do I will make you a Hale."

"What if I wanted to be a Whitlock?"

I was stunned. Whitlock had a much deeper meaning.

"Than I will make you a Whitlock."

"Ok." I took her hand and kissed. She would be mine. I would just have to find the perfect ring for her.

That's it. I hope you like it and please give a depressed young lady some reviews to build me up a little.

Love you guys.

Big hugs

Bayngirl03