So my dear readers,

it took me a while to post the next chapter but I hope that the almost 3000 words make up for that. I probably keep writing this story from now on so that I can finish up with one of my stories. But maybe not. Anyway. I will post the next chapter to this story tomorrow evening (German time).

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banygirl03

Jasper POV

I held Bella the whole night. A few times Carlisle would come into our room and look after her. The whole family was worried. Emmett sat infront of our door the whole night. I could hear Esme cleaning up the kitchen. She always did that when she was worried. Rosalie was in the garage and working on the Jeep, while Alice pushed her credit card to the maximum with online shopping.

Oh why couldn't Bella see herself as clear as we did? I felt how Alice was jealous of Bella just like Rosalie was. True we are seen as the most beautiful creatures to any human. But as vampires we could ourselves 'normal'. Just like to humans looking at each other. There wasn't anything magical about us. But Bella was a natural beauty. Her mind, body and soul captured men on her own. She didn't the vampire-beauty for this. God only knows what she will look like when she is changed.

I still worked on her surprise and tomorrow I would have a meeting with an architect from Washington. The family had decided to rebuild our basement a little. It had a few rooms and we wanted to demolish a few of the walls, keep all our packed up stuff in just one room and make a big dancing room with mirrors and parquet and all that Bella would need for dancing. The man convinced me they would be able to that in just one week if we could move out for that time. So we all planned a trip. We would be on summer break soon and we would take Bella to Isle Esme for a little while.

I had already talked to Charlie about that and he loved the idea. Another problem for me was that school would end for me this year. Actually we intended on me going to college but since Bella still had a year of school before dance-school I would stay of course. So right now I was looking for a job after school. Something to keep me occupied while Bella was at school. A law firm in Port Angeles was searching for someone for the account staff. I applied and got accepted. I would get to work from home and that was best.

But what really had me worried was Mike Newton. With me out of the way he could do as he pleased. At least that's what Edward could read from him. But Edward already promised to look after Bella since most of his classes were with her.

I felt Bella stir in my arms and looked down to see her open her eyes.

"Hey" I whispered.

"Hey...." she sighed and snuggled deeper into my chest. I rubbed her back and kissed her forehead. It always took Bella a while to get her brain to function. She always explained it like turning on a chain-saw. Sometimes it work at the first start but if you haven't used it for a while it takes more tries.

"my head hurts like hell." I heard her whisper. And the second she said it Carlisle was in our room with a tray full of food and painkillers.

"Here, angel. Eat first and take on of these afterward. You should get dressed after breakfast because I'll drive to the hospital and take you with me to do some test and see if everything is alright with you." Bella only nodded.

Carlisle set the tray in front of her and left the room. Emmett was still sitting infront of the door and looking at Bella. When she looked up she saw his sad face. He was beating himself up over this. Ever since we came back from LA he felt like Bella didn't want to be here.

Bella gave him a weak smile and patted the spot next to her feet. Emmett got up and sat at the end of the bed. Together we watched Bella eat.

"Emmett stop it please." Bella whispered.

"What am I doing?"

"You're looking worried and you beat yourself up over my mistake. Please it has nothing to do with me living here with you. OK?" she said.

"But ever since Charlie left you're not the same. You smile less and now that."

"Its not because of Charlie."

"Than what is it?"

"OK I'll try to explain. You know I always danced right? And now I don't do that anymore. But my body is changing because of this. I was always very thin and now I'm gaining a lot of weight and I can't take that. It'll be better as soon as I loose some weight." she said and I was stunned. Lose weight??????

"Emmett. Go please." I said.

"Oh boy someones going to get punished." he said and left.

"What are you talking about Bella? Lose weight?"

"Well I decided to put myself on a diet."

"No."

"Yes."

"No I won't allow that. Damn it Bella. Why can't you see yourself clearly? You are beautiful. Stop making yourself down. You have a healthy weight and I won't allow you to lose any weight."

"But this is my body. Jasper I don't feel good about myself and.... people will start talking about me."

"Exactly. All your life you had to be perfect. You had to be thin and athletic. But Bella I want you to enjoy your life. Eat candy as much as you can and don't care what others say about you. Can't juts....be.... for a while?"

"But what if it gets out of hand? What if I will get fat?"

"Oh Bella. This is stupid. Just because you eat you won't get fat. Esme is cooking healthy food all the time and you're not just sitting around. Maybe we could find something to keep you moving. How about we buy bicycles? We could drive around with them. That would keep you in shape as well!"

"That sound nice." Bella smiled.

"And we got the Wii... we'll drive to the mall and by that sports packet as well. You can do yoga and tennis and I don't know what else. How does that sound?"

"Oh Jasper. I love you. You take such good care of me."

"Bella, I know it is to early but somehow I think of you as my wife already. And I was raised to take of my wife. It's my job to keep you safe and happy. I love you."

"I love you too. I'm sorry for my behavior. I didn't mean to be so....."

"Its alright. We'll work this out. But there is something else I wanted to ask you" I said.

"Sure.."

"the family planned a trip to Isle Esme this summer right after graduation. And we want you to come with us. We can sit on the beach and sun bath and we can swim and do whatever you want."

"Isle Esme?"

"Yes it was a gift from Carlisle to Esme."

"Wow. That is amazing. But you really want me there? It sound like this is a family thing."

"Bella you are family."

"OK. Than I would love to come. Maybe Emmett can show me how to snorkel." she smiled at the door and winked at me. And a second later the door burst open and Emmett stood there with a big goofy grin.

"Really?????" he smiled.

"Of course. Who else is better at this than a big brother bear`? Oh can you catch fish with your hand like a real bear???" Bella smiled.

"I sure can babes."

Bella ate the rest of her breakfast and than went to shower. I insisted that she at least let me sit next to the shower. During her shower Bella started singing and it was a beautiful sound but as soon as she remembered that I was there she stopped and felt embarrassed. This time I let it go.

A little while later Bella and I climbed into her car while Carlisle took his and we drove to the hospital.

Carlisle did a few test and I waited outside though I could hear every word. Apparently everything was alright.

When Bella came out again she smiled at me and I knew it was her silent question if she needed to explain anything. I juts shook my head and held my hand out for her.

"So Angel, what would you like to do now? I know Carlisle insisted on you taking it lightly and that you should rest a lot but I thought we could get you something to eat from the Chinese place and go grab a movie from the store and than head home to watch it in bed? What do yo think?" I asked.

"Sure. Sounds good." Bella answered but it sounded a little sad.

"Whats wrong? We could also do something else if you like?"

"Its not that. I just....well I've been acting very weird lately and I think I should make up for that. But I just don't know how Jasper. I never intended to hurt you or the others but it seems like this is all I ever do." she sobbed.

"Oh sweetheart. Come here" I pulled her into my arms and rubbed her back. I could sense that there was something else going on.

"Tell me....." I whispered.

"You know... all my life I had to be perfect and I always had to be the cute little princess. I was never allowed to just be. My mom took care of what I wore, what I ate , said and what I did. But the dancing.....that was a time when I could juts be me. I was so good at it because I worked harder than anyone else. It was my freedom-card. I knew that if I only worked hard enough I could become part of a world-tour and be away from my mom. I would earn enough money so that Charlie wouldn't have to work anymore. That was my biggest dream. And I see your family and I wonder why mine hasn't been this way. Why couldn't I grow up with a real mom and dad, playtime's at the park and movie nights at home?"

"we're not perfect Bella. It may appear that way but we aren't. All of us come from a different backround and we all have our troubles. We fight a lot over things that a not worth it. But Carlisle and Esme always make sure we never let a day pass without letting each member of the family know how much we love them. We know we can depend on each other. And you are part of that family now. The reason that Emmett is so upset is because he can't help you. He doesn't know how to make you happy and he doesn't know how to handle it when you cry because his inner demon is telling him to protect his own. You are the sister he never had. The other girls don't need protection. But you do. In his eyes you are a breakable little girl with a broken past, a broken soul and all he wants to do is lock you inside his arms and never let you face the world because it's cruel and harsh. And I do know that feeling. Because I feel the same way. If I could I would steal you away from everything and build you your own little world."

"Oh Jasper. You don't need to do so. I appreciate that but you don't have to. You're right. I have a broken past but when I moved here I was happy and when we started dating I was even happier. Your family is all I need and I couldn't live anymore if I lost any of you. I I also do seek Emmett's protection because after all he is my brother bear. And when we come home I will tell him that. Thank you!" she smiled again and I that made me happy. Maybe all that Bella needed was a little bit of assurance.

Emmett POV

The three of them had been gone for quite a while now and I was getting worried. What if something had happened to Bella? I should have listened more closely last night.

Everyone always thought I took life easy I didn't. Not if it involved my little baby sister. Every since she came into my life everything seemed different. She just had an effect on the family. Lately I had spent a lot of time with Edward talking about his sister and I realized what I had truly missed out on as a young boy. But now I think god gave me the chance to be a good big brother to Bella.

Last night as I was sitting at their door I started singing "Over the rainbow" by Ella Fitzgerald. I always liked that song. Even as a guy. And I remembered the times Rosalie and I would listen to that song when she was sad or hurt by her past. It would make her pain go away and it made my pain go away so I sang that song for Bella as well hoping she would be healed soon.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't even hear the car pull up but when I sensed someone staring at me I turned around and saw Bella.

"Hey baby sis. How did it go? Everything alright?" I asked with a false smile and opened my arms. I had the need to feel her near, in my arms. Bella walked up to me and sat down on my lap her face away from me staring at the video game I was playing. Even though I was a big guy Bella and I fit perfectly into the big lounge chair we bought for hours of video games.

Bella rested her head on my shoulder and sighed while I wrapped my arms around her tightly.

"the bad doctor said I was just fine. I'm supposed to rest and take it lightly. And you know the worst of all this?"

"No. tell me."

"that doc is living right here to control if I follow his orders." she sighed again.

I had to chuckle at that. "Well that is truly bad."

"Emmett there is something I have to tell you"

"OK. Go ahead!" I was scared.

"Well I wanted to apologies. I haven't been well lately. But what is really horrible is that I haven't be a good little sister. I just wanted you to know I love you. And I hope I can still count on my big brother. I need a little protection from the world from time to time and I hope you will keep me safe?" she whispered.

"Oh baby Bells, there is nothing in the world I would do more gladly. Well except for screwing Rose."

"Well I don't want to be part of that so let me know before." she laughed.

"I'll do that. So what is the plan now?" I laughed.

"well Jasper and I bought Pizza for me and we got a movie. We wanted to watch it up in our room since the others went hunting. You and Rose are very welcome to watch with us. Uh we could make a big slumber party. We could set up beds in the theater and we could all watch movies. What do you think?"

"Yeah that sound cool" I snuggled her closer to me and sighed, lying my head against hers.

We stayed like that for a while.

"Hey whats up with you two?" Jasper asked from the doorway. I turned Bella and myself around what made Bella laugh a little.

"Oh nothings. Just some cuddling between sister and brother. We discussed our new plans for tonight. Bells and I ware up more a slumber party in our theater."

"OK. So we should set up everything. Bells and Rosalie can change into something comfortable that while."

"Cool." Bella said and got up. "Rosie??" she shouted and a second later she was right next to her.

"We should get dresses for the party."

"Yap. Time for girl talk than."

The girls left to get changed and Jasper and I moved everything around in the home cinema. We collected all the pillows and blankets we could find, moved the spare mattresses in there and set up food and drinks for Bella. We got a few movies and pulled the first one in.

"So how did the talk with Bella go?"

"Good."

"Hm."

"Thank you. I know you must have told her about my feelings and I'm glad you did. I know you all thinks that I go around life and always am happy. But I'm not. I do breed sometimes and I do need a little assurance. I guess I just need a new goal in life. And right now that goal is making Bella happy."

"I know how you feel Emmett. She's my everything. After I graduate I'm going to ask her to marry me. I want to marry her on that beach on the island."

"Cool."

We had come to an understanding.

After 30 minutes we were all collected and lay out on the floor and started the movies.

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