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Chapter 10

Jasper POV

It was 2 days after my graduation. We had packed up all the stuff we needed. Charlie had been here all week and flew home today. Bella and I would be flying to our holiday tomorrow morning at 6, the others would come a week later. They wanted to give us a little alone time but also because Esme wanted to talk to the architect about some things he should do on the house.

Bella and I were just on our way home from the airport. Bella was listening to her Ipod and looked out of the window. Since we've said our goodbyes to Charlie she hadn't said a word.

"Bella, darlin', are you alright?" I asked after I pulled on one of her earplugs till it fell down.

"Hm.... sure." she answered.

"Tell me, sugar. Whats up?"

"I just....it's so hard to see Charlie leave again." she sighed.

"I know but just think about our holiday. We'll have a lot of fun and when we come back we'll spend another week in LA!" I kissed her hand and hoped that would cheer her up a little.

"You know...my mum called yesterday. She wanted to know how I was doing and how school had been for me so far.... and she invited me to her as well."

"That does sound nice but I guess it wasn't that nice huh? Would you like to go?"

"I don't know. I guess I would like that. But I want you to come with me if I go." she looked right into my eyes as if she was afraid I would reject her.

"Of course I would." I smiled at her and she smiled back, put the earplug in again and closed her eyes. After a while she was asleep.

Bella POV

it had been an exciting week for me. I had to take care of Charlie and pack my back. And on top of that I had a horrible phone call from my mum. I was happy that Jasper decided to go with me. I would call her when I was in LA and maybe we could go from there to NY.

I remembered falling asleep in the car but when I woke up I was alone in the bedroom I shared with Jasper. Next to me was a folded card.

My beloved Darling,

you looked so peaceful in your dreams that I didn't want to wake you up. The family went on a hunting trip near to the house. I hope to be home before you wake up but just in case I don't I wrote you the note.

Remember that all my dreams revolve around you and that I count every second until I'm right next to you again.

In everlasting love

JW

I folded the card again and stretched myself. I got up and went to take a shower when I looked into the mirror I saw that my hair could actually use a cut. And just as I was about to my telephone it started beeping.

'Made you and appointment at the hair salon in Port Angeles at 3. Already told them everything they need to know! Enjoy!! Alice'

That evil little pixie. Sometimes it was hard to live with her. But I was actually happy for her talent.

I looked at my watch and saw that it was already 11 so I took a quick shower and got dressed into jeans, high heels and a top. Over it I wore my leather jacket.

By the time I was done it was a little after 12 so I decided to drive to the Diner and grab a muffin. The talk with Jasper and Emmett really made me realize that there was nothing wrong with me. I decided to take it lightly. I would eat like always and do a little sports nearby.

Carlisle had already attested me that I wouldn't be able to go to sports this year as well so I could had to find a new class. I decided to go the extra literature class. They read and discussed old classics.

I got out into the garage and noticed that my car was no where to be seen and than my phone vibrated again.

'Rose had to take it to the mechanics. Take Emmett Jeep. Keys on the board next to the door. A-"

The Jeep??? Was that woman crazy??? But I didn't have another choice. So I got the keys and slid into the drivers seat. Gosh it already looked big standing infront of it but sitting here it looked like a castle on wheels.

Just as I was about to start my phone rang again.

'Be careful. I love you. JW'

'If you hurt my baby I won't warn you before Rose and I f****. Be careful. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!! EMMETT'

I took another deep breath and started the car. Getting out if the garage was a little tricky. But maybe I was just too nervous but once I was driving for a while I realized that it was actually quite cool.

I arrived right on time for my appointment and really enjoyed it.

The hair stylist was called Marc and he obviously was VERY gay. He gossiped with me like an old lady and he told he me he once saw me on one of my shows on Broadway.

All the while he cut and even dyed my hair.

But I loved what he made of my hair. It now looked a little brighter all together. Almost like caramel. But he also but a few highlights in. I really did look good. I just hoped Jasper would like it.

After I was done I had to sign autograph for Marc and he took a picture with me. He told me he would hang it up in the salon.

I drove back home but stopped at the local supermarket to get a few things for dinner. I knew Esme always kept everything at home but today I felt like cooking something out of hand.

When I got home I went up to my room and changed into an old sweater and pulled my hair into a ponytail and than started cooking.

The others were still not back but I hoped they wouldn't take that long. When I was done coking I made myself a plate and sat down at the big table and for the first time I noticed how I alone I really was.

Of course I loved Jasper but there were things even he couldn't give me. Not even the others. I had found a new family but I didn't share a past with them. I didn't really miss my mom but I did miss my dad.

I missed the dinner times we had together. We would talk about the day and somewhere through dinner I would push meat over on his plate and he would let me steal things from his plate and even when I cleaned up afterwards he was there. He wouldn't help me but he would sit either on the table talking to me or he would watch a game. But he was just there. And every now and there he would come into the kitchen and lay a hand on my shoulder.

I pushed my plate away and lay me head on my arms and let silent tears slip from my eyes. Why did I have to take all this upon my shoulders? I loved my new family but why couldn't I be completely happy? They did all they could. During dinner Jasper always used to sit next to me.

And suddenly it dawned on me. It wasn't my situation that made me so depressive. I only felt that kind of pain when Jasper was away.

Suddenly I felt someone touch my head and I shot up. "Jasper" I sighed and let myself fall into his arms.

"I'm so sorry. It took us longer. I won't ever leave you alone for this long. I promise." he whispered into my ears. Suddenly he pushed me back a little and opened the ponytail I still had and brushed my hair out with his fingers. "You look absolutely beautiful, my goddess. I don't think I tell you that enough sometimes. I love the new hair." he smiled and captured my lips with his before I could protest.

"Shit Bells you do look fucking hot! Ow! Rosie!" I suddenly heard from behind me. I turned around and saw the whole family standing there.

They all complimented me to the new hair and we sat down at the table. Jasper pushed the plate infront of me again and gave me the fork.

"Well Bella I guess we have to tell you something" Carlisle suddenly said.

"We had to wait for you to get behind your depression on your own so we knew for sure you felt that way. And when Alice saw you today we had to stay away as long as possible."

"Why what is wrong with me?"

"Nothings is wrong Angel, you just mated with me" Jasper said

"What?"

"Well technically it is easy: When two souls find the missing peace to on another they mate. It barely happens for humans because their feelings are not strong enough to last but is seems like you can feel stronger than most humans."

"So what does that mean????"

"It means that you are connected to Jasper. He is supposed to take care of you and protect you just as you are to protect him. Whenever you two are separated you will feel this kind of pain and depression because it is in your nature to be with your mate. You can learn how to train this feeling but it will take a while."

"Are you all....mates?"

"Yes. We are all connected to the other."

"Wow. This is freaky. Will it have a side-effect?"

"Like?"

"I don't know. I won't grow a tail now will I??? oh gosh if that's happens I'm never going to find jeans again!"

"No goddess you will stay the same. You just have to get used to me being a little more protective with you. My mind recognizes that you are weaker than I am and that you need a lot more protection so my senses open up a little a more. I will get more sensitive to your feelings and your reactions. And when I sense that something is wrong I will go on autopilot I will protect you in every possible way."

"You should tell her EVERYTHING jazz!"

"what? What else is there???"
"Well it also means that Jasper will be more sexual about you now."

I swallowed hard and looked up at Jasper. "Care to explain?"

"Well I already told you that we are very sexual creatures but with our mates its even worse. Everything in me will tell me to mark you as mine and everything in me want to give you pleasure. So when I feel you lusting after me my body will tell me to give into this and give you what you want. But I will tune it down as much as possible."

"well...my own personal sex slave...."

that got them all laughing. "bells you really rock!" Emmett smiled at me.

"So let me get this right: If I suddenly lust after ice-cream will you get it for me even if we were...lets say...on an airplane without any of it in sight?"

"Well that would be bad because my nature would tell me to get it but my rational minds will tells me to protect my nature. So I would just make you lust after something I could give you."

"Cool."

I tried it out anyway. I had already eaten most of plate and was up for bed and ice – cream. I brought out the strongest emotions I could for those two things and suddenly saw Jasper's eyes turn black. He took my hand and walked me into the kitchen. He made me ice cream and than rushed me up to bed.

This would be a lot of fun.

Jasper POV

I didn't know how to take all this. Bella was still human and her needs were not as controlled as a vampires. I would have to find a way to stay in control when she did lust after me.

Right now we were sitting om our bed and I was reading her from one of my civil war books. Bella had eaten the ice cream and now rested her her head on my chest while I ran my hand through her hair. She did look like a goddess now. Tomorrow we would fly out to Isle Esme and we would be all alone.

Suddenly I got the feeling to kiss Bella. She reached her head up and looked up at me.

"You're a bad little girl!" I smiled and tickled her. I turned her onto her back and threw the book next t the bed. I hovered over her and looked into her eyes. She was totally relaxed.

I kissed her forehead, down on her nose to her cheek and than her lips. I let my tongue slip over her bottom lip and Bella moaned and opened herself up.

I lightly touched her tongue with mine and soon we were fighting over control. When she needed to breathe I started kissing down her neck to her shoulder while my hand pushed up her shirt. I slipped it over her head and there she lay before me in just her bra and the jeans. I quickly slipped them off juts like my shirt.

Bella wrapped her legs around my hips and pushed against me when I kissed her again. I felt her hand travel down my chest and touch my scars. But she wasn't disgusted. She was feeling pain. I had to vanish it. So I started kissing down to her breast.

I lightly traced the outside of her breast and than slipped my fingers behind her back to open her bra. When it was finally off I took one nipple into my mouth. Lightly sucking on it and taking it between my teeth pulling on it.

"Jazzy" Bella's sighed and ran her hand further down to my jeans and opened the first button.

I stopped what I was doing and looked into her eyes. She wasn't ready but she needed more.

I let her open up my jeans and slipped them off.

Bella rubbed herself against me when I started playing with her nipples again. The more I played the harder she would rub herself against me. And suddenly I felt it: she was bringing herself to climax this way. I stopped what I was doing and looked down at her.

"Do you trust me?" I asked her gently

"with everything." she whispered back.

I rolled us over and slipped Bella's panties off as well as my boxers.

Bella looked frightened for a second but I ran my hand down her back and pushed her closer to me. "Don't be afraid. I know you're not ready but let me bring you the pleasure you deserve. Please?" I kissed her neck again and brushed her hair over her shoulder.

I sat Bella over my erection and kept a tight grip on her waist. And every so slowly I started moving her back and forth again. Bella bit her lip and I took one hand from her hip to slip it over her lips. I wanted her to scream if she wanted to. "Let it out goddess. Don't ever hide it" I whispered.

Bella leaned up a little and started moving on her own and soon I could feel her cumming.

She rubbed herself furiously on me and when she came she made the most adorable and sex sound I ever heard. That sound got to me as well and I came all over my stomach.

Bella slumped against me and I held her as tight as I could.

After a while Bella lifted her head and looked at me. "Did you not...didn't you enjoy it?" she suddenly asked.

"how can you think that?" I was shocked.

"Well you're still...." and than I noticed I was still fully erected.

"Oh. That's not the reason. Well as a vampire I can go on and on and on and on and on..."

"I get it!" she laughed. She pushed herself up on her knees and tried to get up but I held her close and when she struggled to get free it happened. I slipped into her until I felt her hymen......

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