A/N: Whoo. So I continued it because when I went back to "Change", apparently, my syntax was still out of it. So. Here we are, with the KuroFai thing... Again. :)
Disclaimer: TRC doesn't belong to me.
You're waking up slowly. You know that, but it's so warm, and even with that insistent headache of pain and fever and dying, you want to stay in the darkness until you die--
"Fai's going to die! Yuuko!" Mokona's shrill voice cuts through your miasma of dying sleep.
You know the Dimensional Witch was about to give them an ultimatum, yet… You have to die; have to die for what you did to Ashura. It's finally your chance to leave, and you can leave with a good conscience because if you die Syaoran-kun--
Syaoran-kun.
Syaoran-kun wouldn't be able to use your magic. You could do something by dying. It was enough for you--
Your mouth works instinctively, saying facts you already knew, facts that were just an excuse--"If I continue to live… Syaoran-kun's magic will also live. It's only half of the magic but it's too great. He won't be able to be…" You pause for a breath. It's hard, talking like this. "Stopped."
You know it's Kurogane's--no, not Kuro-chuu anymore--fist that slams into the pillar of rock, even if you can't see him because half of your world is gone.
He was never in your world, really.
He's shouting at you, and even now he grabs you by the collar of your shirt that is stained with your blood. A shudder makes its way through your body because the sensation of being held at complete mercy is so reminiscent to Syaoran-kun's change.
It takes a lot of effort to keep your head locked into position so that you can look at him straight in those eyes.
And you apologize. "I'm sorry…" For everything.
You don't mean to trail off at the end, but it's hard to keep your head up when all you want to do is just fall back into the abyss. And even though it's bandaged and even though it feels like it's still there, it still hurts to think about the fact that you can't see both of Kurogane's eyes.
You want to die.
With that, you can finally let your head loll back down to limp submission, just like you wanted to do after sending Ashura to sleep.
But no. Kurogane is still asking for a way and the witch was saying that there is one…
You pretend not to listen and just lean back into Kurogane's arm. Surely the price is too great for your life, after all. It would be better if you die. And like this--being touched voluntarily, not like you are some abomination or monster--it doesn't seem that bad to you.
Kurogane cuts you out of your half-dead haze. "I get it. I'll pay the price for the water, so hand over the blood."
You're struck with real fear again. He is actually going to make you a vampire. He is going to actually care--
This time, your mouth works splendidly, even though it sounds like a hoarse croak and you still trail off at the end: "Stop…"
"SHUT UP!"
You're stunned, then, actually opening your eyes--eye--to see him glaring down at you, angry for you, angry at the thought of losing you (not to mention you feel conceited right then, because being cared for is so different than being tossed aside) and you smile involuntarily.
You don't know why you're following through--you want to die, want to die so much--but you know he will just pry your jaws open if you refuse the blood, and force feed it to you anyway (how characteristic of him), but underneath all of the layers of indifference you…
You know you can't die.
So when the blood drops into your mouth, so disgustingly coppery and wrong, you swallow.
For a moment--nothing.
Then your body is on fire and you're soundlessly screaming, opening and closing your mouth. You think you're supposed to be able to deal with this amount of pain, but no, you're clutching the sheets, your back twisting out of proportion and oh God this is so much worse than your eye--
"Hold him down."
Suddenly, there are arms around you and in a spasm your hands are digging into soft flesh. You can feel your nails scratching and elongating and then slipping back into your fingers and you know you're hurting Kurogane but you can't seem to stop--
Your vocal cords can't work, you can't scream, and you're ripping his skin into shreds again and again and you can feel fangs inside your mouth.
The bandages are in disarray across your face from your struggles.
You're even more of an abomination now than you ever were before. You know it now.
And Kurogane knows it too.
The pain stops.
Everything stops as you look at Kurogane straight in the face, the places where you two touch on fire from blood and heat, so hypersensitive after this change…
The blood in your mouth tastes like heaven now. Your taste buds changed to--
Kurogane has insinuated himself into your world. He was never supposed to.
You're numb, and you collapse.
You never remember letting go of Kurogane.
A/N: Reviews? Lol. My ego has been getting big of late.. Ah, well. If you run across any tense mistakes, run it by me. I wouldn't be surprised. xD
