A/N- Alright, this is officially the longest I've gone without making an update and I feel bad about it, but this chapter is also longer than the others, hopefully you find it interesting! Also, if you check out my bio page there's a link for pics, so far I only have pics of the characters, it is a folder within my photobucket album, so you can go through the folder and see how the characters sort of look! Please R&R!!

Chapter 7- JPOV

I can't believe Carlisle actually let her change happen. I'm surprised Edward let it happen, and I was still in shock thinking about the fact that Bella will no longer be human Bella, but vampire Bella. The images that flashed through my mind only spiked my fear, images of the past two days flashed through my mind, Bella's incredible strength when she was sick, and then thought about the strength she was bound to have when the transformation was complete.

Even though the thought of her strength had me scared, I had to admit it'd be much easier to have Bella around if I didn't have to worry about human blood as much. When Emmett had found out she was in the process of transformation he practically flipped, I mean like, in the air, yet at the same time, he didn't want it to happen.

It was the final day of Bella's transformation and she was merely a few hours away from the final part of the change. Hours had never gone by so fast, it was down to the last few minutes and the past three hours seemed more like three minutes.

The final minute of the transformation passed and I could hear the last sickening sputter of her heart as it came to a stop. This was it, it was done, she was now damned for eternity, right next to us, destined to be a monster from here on in. I scoffed at the thought, Bella, Bella of all people, could not be a monster, ever, it was like, immpossible.

I was sitting on the chair to my computer desk, watching her. She finally opened her eyes, if there was a person in the world I never thought I would see with red eyes, it was Bella, sweet, kindhearted, Bella. Yet here I sat, staring into a pair of ruby red eyes, not too different from mine at one time.

She didn't move, I didn't move, we just stared at each other. If someone that didn't know we were vampires were to have walked in, they would have thought she was dead, or possed by the devil at the very least because of the color of her eyes. "Hey, Jasper." she said quietly. I swear that if I wasn't completely frozen before, I was now, her voice was ten times as smooth and ten times as beautiful.

"Hey, Bella" I finally choked back. She smiled slightly and I could swear I could feel my dead heart beating again. She slowly sat up, pushing the blanket that had been on her, onto the other end of the couch. I swallowed hard, she was ten times as gorgeous, her hair looked healthier but her skin was slightly more pale, yet it didn't look unhealthy.

As pretty as I know Rosalie is, Bella definitely beat her on the beauty scale, she won't like that, I'm sure Edward's just going to be ten times as jealous as he is now, though I had to give him credit, the jealousy had almost completely faded away, he was starting to get over the fact that she liked me more than him.

I watched her as she slowly got up and walked around the room a couple times at human speed and then faster, but she didn't once even break into a run, not even a jog. When she slowed, she was in front of me, I opened my arms and without hesitation, she sat in my lap and rested her head on my chest. I realized she smelled almost exactly the same as before, and it was sending my senses into overdrive."Thank-you." she said quietly, I frowned.

"For what? Damning you for eternity? That's hardly something to be thankful for."

"Why do you say that? The way I look at it, you're not damned at all." She was still speaking quietly.

"Carlisle's going to like to hear that." I muttered.

"Well, why do you think you're damned for eternity?" She hadn't spoken at normal volume yet, and I was beginning to wonder why.

"After you've lived for as long as I have moving place to place every few years, with the same six people, existence doesn't seem so fabulous. You really don't think about it as being an existence, but rather a never-ending torture session, believe me, you lose hope fast." She took my face in her hands and looked straight into my eyes, the next four words she said, I would never forget.

"Hope, is never lost." This, this she said in a forceful, full volume voice. Her voice was ten times as beautiful as it was when she spoke quietly, I could already tell that this wasn't going to go over entirely well with Rosalie.

"Hope is never lost." I repeated quietly.

"Exactly."

"Alright, Emmett's been dying to see you for the last three days, oh, and by the way, we had to smash your truck up and we sent it into the ocean, so everyone thinks you're dead." she was silent for a long time and then she nodded.

"I kind of figured something like that." she was speaking quietly again.

"You can speak in normal volume you know." She nodded. I couldn't help but to roll my eyes. "You probably want something else to wear..."

"That'd be nice..." Before I could say anything she said it for me. "I'll go raid Rosalie's closet, being careful not to take any of her favorites. With that she left the room and came back two minutes later, completely changed.

"Let's go downstairs, Carlisle's had to keep Emmett away for the last three days..."

"They've all went hunting, there's a note on the kitchen table." she stated matter of factly.

"Um, you managed to go, raid Rosalie's closet, get dressed and go downstairs in that two minutes." she frowned.

"I guess so..."

"Ok, whatever, we'll wait for them downstairs, come on." she followed obediently, staying exactly a foot behind me the whole way.

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We had sat and watched TV for about twenty minutes before Bella got up and started wandering around. I heard the door open and then Bella's quiet voice. "Hello Emmett!" she seriously had way to much energy to burn. I got up and wandered out to the front door. Where Emmett stood in shock. When Edward and Carlisle came in, I watched their mouths drop and they froze too.

Emmett was first to speak. "Damn!" both Carlisle and Edward smacked him across the back of the head. "What?!" Edward and I shook our heads. Bella on the other hand, stood rocking back and forth, staring out the open door behind them.

"Bella?" Carlisle asked cautiously. With that she took off out the door.

"Shit!" we all cursed at once before running out the door after her at full speed. We couldn't find her anywhere, even Edward, the fastest of us lost her almost as soon as she hit the trees. Then it became a frantic search.

I was just about to give up, I had stopped by a tree and looked around, there was no movement anywhere, no sounds what so ever. It frustrated the hell out of me, not only because I knew she was out here, but because I was breathing in her scent.

The next thing I knew, she was on my back. "I'm a vampire. Rawrr!" her voice sang playfully into my ear. Next thing I knew, Emmett, Edward and Carlisle were all standing in front of me. Carlisle looked thuroughly relieved, Emmett looked amused and Edward just looked plain annoyed.

"We've been looking all over for you!" Emmett said, still looking amused.

"Are you kidding? I was watching you guys the whole time!" Bella replied in her musical voice, all of them froze. I had forgotten they had only heard her speak quietly when Emmett came in the door, they were obviously completely stunned.

"Ok, seriously, how fast can she run? I mean, Edward even lost her..." Emmett finally said, looking from Bella to Edward.

"Psshhhh!! Edward ain't got nothin' on me!" Emmett and Carlisle laughed, and I tried to not laugh myself.

"She's a newborn, what do you expect?" Edward covered quickly.

"Her to be out chasing after the scent of blood." Carlisle replied. I guess it was my army instincts kicking in when I immediately started to back up slightly when Edward and Emmett fanned out on either side of Carlisle, creating a semi circle around Bella and I. I had to stop myself from backing up. "Let's get her back to the house." Carlisle said quietly.

"Aww, but I feel like running! I want to run!" Bella whined

"I don't think so." Emmett replied.

"You can run around later, Bella, after you've got some blood into you." It took a long time, but we finally got her back in the house. Once in the house, Emmett so kindly chained her to a chair, though Carlisle disapproved, he didn't complain.

Soon enough, we had human blood in front of Bella, she leaned away from it. "That smells repulsive!" Carlisle pulled the glass back and set it on the kitchen table. He then pulled out the glass of animal blood and held it out in front of her. She leaned back, just as she had for the human blood and wrinkled her nose. "That doesn't smell much better Carlisle." Bella said, speaking quietly, she hardly ever spoke at normal volume.

"Try this." Carlisle said frowning and holding out the glass of human blood. She gave it a wearly look but took a sip all the same. It was almost immediately that she spit in out, spluttering and coughing.

"That's the most disgusting thing I've ever tasted!" we all looked at her shocked.

"Try this." Carlisle said, holding out the glass of animal blood. She parched her lips and leaned away, refusing to take a sip of it. Carlisle forced it to her lips, she still refused to even take a sip. Finally Emmett and Edward held her mouth open and Carlisle poured the blood in her mouth, I immediately turned away, I couldn't watch this.

It was only when Carlisle placed the empty glass on the table that I turned around and looked. She was struggling furiously against Emmett, Edward, Carlisle and the chains. Finally she went nuts, tore out from the chains snapping them and jerking away from Emmett, Edward and Carlisle like they weren't even there, rushed over to the sink and spit it all out, spitting out what she had been forced to swallow.

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It had been a month, Bella had been declared dead for just as long, we had all gone to her funeral, we talked to Charlie a bit and then came home to Bella, who's energy had been depleting since her second day of being a vampire.

We didn't know what to do, she wouldn't drink human or animal blood, everyday her energy went down, Carlisle was constantly checking her over, trying to figure out why she wasn't attracted to blood. Finally one day Carlisle came home, Bella was on the couch, she hadn't moved all day, in fact, she had hardly moved for the last week. He immediately went to the kitchen, I watched his movements, he pulled something out of his bag and as soon as he poured it in the glass, Bella was in the room. Carlisle was shocked, he picked up the glass and Bella flew towards him. "Bella, stop!"

After she was being held back by Emmett, Edward and I, she finally slumped, sobbing tearlessly to the floor. "It smells so good..."

"Bella, do you know what this is?" she groaned.

"I don't care!" she said stomping her feet.

"It's snake venom." I gave Carlisle a weird look. "We've tried everything else, but this seems to be what gets her going. So, Bella, let's try this." Carlisle took the glass and pressed it to her lips.

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