Bella's POV
I was leaving England when bits and pieces of what had happened the night before started becoming clearer.
I looked down at my arm and saw the bandages and knew what I had started again without really knowing it.
We had kissed. That much I knew.
The thoughts running through my head when I thought about the kiss were jumbled. I was thinking about how much I cared about him but also how much I was afraid of him. He reminded me of my last relationship. Every little thing he said or did and even the way he acted reminded me of my ex and that scared me. I didn't want to get hurt again. I don't think I could handle it if I did. So I shut him out. I ran away from the only thing that mattered to me.
I must have passed out while kissing him though because after that, I couldn't remember anything. I remembered the kiss and then waking up. Everything else was just black.
One thing was certain now more than ever. I had fallen in love with Danny and nothing could change that.
Danny's POV
I still couldn't believe she was gone. Everyday I woke up hoping that she was still next to me. She never explained why she left. She just left. Everyday I stay in my room and just play different chords on my guitar.
I don't know why but ever since I found out she was gone, I've played the same tune. It finally got so bad that I just wrote the notes down so I wouldn't forget them. I don't think I'd be able to though. It's like I'm letting go of how I'm feeling through the music.
The guys still try to get me out of my room and I do go downstairs now but I never really talk to them. I just stay in my own little world.
I've overheard them talking to our manager about me. They have said I'm becoming depressed. Is that what this is? I've become numb. I guess I feel like if I just don't feel then I can't hurt. That's a lie. I still feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest.
Dougie came into my room today and asked if he could borrow my laptop. His had just stopped working about a week ago and he was having someone work on it. If they couldn't fix it, he was just going to end up getting a new one. He hasn't been around that much nowadays. Sometimes he just disappears and doesn't get back until the sun is setting.
Anyway's, back on topic. Dougie had asked me if he could borrow my laptop for a while and I just nodded to say yeah. He walked over to the table and picked it up and left the room, leaving me in my own little world again.
Dougie's POV
I still remember going downstairs and seeing Tom and Harry and the note. I still remember how I'd felt after reading what she had written before she left. I wanted to talk to her and tell her that she was wrong to leave and that she should come back and stay with us.
The one person that was hurting more than me was Danny. He may be trying to act like it didn't bother him that she left and that he is moving on but all he is doing is blocking everyone out of his life. He barely ever comes downstairs. He is always in his room. He has been playing the same song over and over again.
I have also been sneaking off sometimes. No one knows where I have been going.
I had found out Bella's new cell phone number. She still doesn't know how I got it and I'm not telling. I had called her one day and we talked for a few minutes. I've been talking to her since then. I have to just drive around or go somewhere away from the rest of the guys so they don't find out that I'm still talking to her. I don't know how they would react but she had made me promise that I wouldn't tell them I know where she is. I don't always know though. She moves around so much now that I gave up trying to keep track of her. She tells me about the problems she is going through at the moment and I keep trying to get her to come back. She tells me about her book and just about everything. She doesn't tell me about why she left though and sometimes she almost does and that's when she mysteriously has to go.
One day, I needed to check something online and seeing as how my laptop is being worked on because it decided it wasn't going to work one day, I asked Tom and Harry if I could borrow one of theirs but they were both on them so I went to ask Danny. As soon as I got to his door, I heard him playing the song that he has been playing everyday since Bella left.
I knocked on the door before opening it and walking in.
"Dude, um, .......Can I borrow your laptop? I won't be on long. I just need to check something real quick." I asked.
He only nodded, letting me know I could so I walked over to get it and walked out of the room and to my room. I pulled up the Internet and started typing in the link.
You know how sometimes when you go online, it saves what you were searching for or what web sites you were on?
Well, I was typing in the link and a list of sites showed up. I looked at them and saw one that struck my curiosity. I clicked on it and waited for it to load. When it had finished loading, I scrolled through the page, my eyes getting wider by the second.
What was Danny doing to himself?!
