Disclaimer: These characters don't belong to me except for the one's I have made up and don't steal my story. A/N: Kadaj's thoughts are italicized.

Chapter Three: Day of Purgatory.

Kadaj found himself in the white again. It was just yellow flowers. He saw and smelled their powerful aroma. They calmed him. They were brilliant in comparison with the white landscape. Kadaj stood in the flowers and let his senses take in his surroundings.

"Hello Kadaj. Dreaming is nice isn't it?" Aerith's voice came over him. He opened his eyes but he did not remember closing them. There was no one in front of him. He scanned the horizon but there was nothing but white.

"I bet you haven't slept like this for a while." Her voice behind him. Aerith's shoulders touching his back. He turned around suddenly to see her facing him with a sad smile.

"Ms. Aerith, it's a dream which means it nothing but my active subconscious making up things." Kadaj said as if it was an absolute fact.

"So now I don't exist. That what you're tell me. You were content before this, with me. What has changed?" Aerith said with her hand on her hip.

"This isn't real. I just see you when I sleep. And if you can prove that you are real then show me my brothers and his man you spoke of before." Kadaj said eyeing her with eyes swirling with confusion and anxiety in his green mako eyes.

Aerith stared too before letting out a sigh, "So I was going to have to show them to prove to you. I was going to show you anyway, Mister Rush. Your brothers aren't here they are else were but you can't see them yet, but I can show you Zack."

Aerith waved her hand beckoning someone from behind Kadaj. Kadaj turned his head and saw no one there. He raised an eyebrow as he was surprised before he heard Aerith giggle behind him. His eyes narrowed. He didn't like to be played with. He turned to face Aerith and was greeted by a second face he didn't recognize.

"This is Zack. He is a wonderful man and takes care of me not to get lonely in here." Aerith said with a smile as Zack hugged her from behind.

"Hi there. You must be Kadaj that Aerith told of me yesterday." He held out his hand to the confused yet suspicious Kadaj. Kadaj looked at his hand then back to Zack face with a face that said, 'Who do you think you are?'

"I have never seen you before. Why are you here if …" 'this is a dream.' That last part omitted.

"Well since I'm here for you, Zack promised too, as our last ward looks as if he doesn't need the help as much as you do." Aerith said stepping all around Kadaj in what looked like a single step. "We are here to help Kadaj, but you must accept it and believe on your own. You can't ask me about everything but do some things, okay."

Kadaj looked somewhat cross but hurt, too. "Hey, Kadaj you have to face lots of things and you lead to wake up, too. Sleeping all day is lazy. Ask Cloud about me, he'll know"

Zack winked and Kadaj's world went black and he awoke back in the cell abroad the Shera.

The world was out of focus as he came to in his dank cell. Glancing at the wall next to him, he laid there stare with his hands by his sides. He thoughts were blank excluding the whispers of "why's" and "what's" that would come to mind.

"Uh, this is ridiculous" Kadaj's hair fell into his face as he sat up on the cot. He pushed his hair back with his gloved hand, frustrated. This isn't how thing should be. His eternal clock told it was early morning but later than when he used to wake up. It looked the same as it did yesterday.

Kadaj stood up and graceful stretched out his kinks in his back from lay on the stiff cot. He adjusted his leather assembly. It was sticking to his skin from night sweats. He sighed as he unzipped his jacket and peeled it off his shoulders. He hated to sweat in his clothes as they were the only ones he had for a while. He let the top half fall down to his waist.

Kadaj glared down at the cot in front of him but the turned to look at his torso which he truly hated. It was smooth, with pale scars from labs to fights he had been in. But actually the worst was that it was too smooth; just skin all the down. Unlike most he did have a belly button like most, but a circle surrounding four scars where he had been connected to something but he knew he wasn't born like normal humans.

He thought back to the doctor and how he did say anything the day before. The young man, lost in his own world, didn't notice that someone walking the hall of his cell until they stopped at his cell door. Kadaj turned his head to see Nara standing in WRO uniform as she had been wearing yesterday.

"G'morning, Kadaj. I assume that you are hungry now seeing you didn't eat much yesterday. You will be having eggs and toast this morning. Do you have any objections?" Nara said keeping her face very serious up until she began to smirk, giving herself away. Nara was not designed to be serious or commanding. Kadaj found slightly amusing but all around foolish.

Kadaj rolled his eyes before turning to Nara; "No, Nara, I have no objections." his voice smooth and docile as his face stayed over all pleasant. He liked games to if she was going to play with an expert in falsehood.

The young woman glanced in the cell seeing the prisoner bare skin and blush rose on her cheeks. Kadaj really did not notice it, but decide to pull his top back up, becoming suddenly self-conscious.

Kadaj turned completely around to face her, "Could you bring it here or am I going to be going out to the kitchen, Nara?" Kadaj inquired in the same tone as before but coated with sarcasm.

"No you can't. Why don't you stay here till I get back?" She was acting childish but she couldn't help but playful taunt this man. Kadaj watched her turn on her heels and walk toward the door. He waited impatiently her return plagued with an emotion unknown and he was hated it. It like an alarm was going off in his head.

The black-haired young woman returned with a tray of food that in turn was pushed into Kadaj's cell into his waiting hands. He took the tray and looked at the mushy eggs and brown toast.

'This certainly looks "great", but who am I to complain about? I'm the prisoner here.' Kadaj thought making him angry, but he squashed it and all that was felt was a lonely slightly empty feeling. Kadaj walked over to his cot and sat with the tray in his lap. He tore off some of the toast, putting the dry, stiff bread in his mouth. It tasted just how it looked, crusty. He ate all of breakfast quietly with his 'company'. Nara stood in front the cell patiently watching. It slow annoyed the silver-haired teenager but he ignored her as he ate.

"Kadaj you are expecting a visit from Dr. Lucas later today and I have been told that this will be my last time to see you as well." Nara said, disappointed. Kadaj frowned at her but nodded instead. He wanted to ask why but he could figure it out. They didn't want anyone around him too much for too long. There was always the chance that he could use or hurt her if she became to close to her prisoner. The teen stood up and placed the tray back through the slot into waiting hands.

"I understand. Well hopefully we will see each other again, Nara. When will Lucas be coming?" Kadaj spoke with his usual charming tone. He stood tall at the entrance of the cell facing the WRO soldier.

"He will be here in a couple hours at the most. You will have to wait 'til after he done checking on the sick bay. He told me to tell you he has some questions to ask you, that's all. So behave for the doctor; he is an amiable and kind-hearted person." Nara took the tray and balanced in one hand while she stuck her hand in the bars. Kadaj looked at her confused. This woman should be scared of him somewhat if she knew what he could do. Just placing her hand in the bar, he could have killed her in a moment. He took her hand anyway and shook it in a tight grip. He squeezed it to he heard it crack then abruptly let it go and let his gloved hand fall to his side.

Nara looked at him in shock holding her aching hand. "You should think before you do things like that, Nara. It could be dangerous with someone else, but I wasn't going to hurt you; just teaching you a lesson." Kadaj said in a serious tone, face unchanged. Bluish-green meet a misty-gray, as Kadaj looked at her. Nara looked away to her feet with new interest. The young woman nodded her head and stepped back.

Kadaj felt somewhat bad for the woman. It wasn't her fault that she thought that people were good. He could understand naiveness from when he was younger, but now he would not trust anyone.The silver-haired man stood gazing at nothing through the bars. His attention turned to Nara as she suddenly turned and walked down the hallway. His eyes followed her to the door and watched as she disappeared leaving him alone … again.

He stood against the bars, arms crossed across his chest. Kadaj had nothing else to do but wait for the doctor to come to him. So there he waited, standing unmoved, for hours until he heard the door open. He looked sideward as normal looking male WRO soldier escorted Dr. Lucas down the hallway. The cell slide open with clink after the guard stepped away allow the physician inside the cell.

Good to see this afternoon, Kadaj." Lucas said with a smile. " You seem well as possible, but there are some things I want to talk to you about. Please sit..." Kadaj peered at him sideways on his left side. Kadaj noticed that hair covered the right side of his face had gotten longer lately and needed to be washed, but that could wait until later. He stepped forward but made no attempt to sit down. "..or stand. It doesn't matter to me." Lucas eased onto the cot slowly looking at the silvery teen opposite him.

"I was looking over the chart for you and I seem to have hit a snag. It looks as your body can adjust it heat index in order to survive. Is that correct?" Lucas was curious and it showed.

"Yes, I was designed that way. I'm much more advance than most humans that come from the life stream. It so I can fight in anyplace without a disadvantage." Kadaj knew from training he had done at the labs. "It's extremely hard for me to get sick with me immune system too." He added watch the man in front of him. Lucas looked just as intently.

"Hmm, well since you know everything why am I here?" Lucas crossed his left leg over the right. He was just teasing Kadaj and he played along.

"You are just a curious man but you cover it by saying that you do things because you feel responsibility as a doctor to do it. I'm unique and you have probably only heard of the people like me that are created to be bringers of destruction." Kadaj tilted his head to the side look down at the man. The physician smirked and looking serious but his eyes were laughing and bright.

"Am I that simple to read? Well since you already know more than me, I have some advice for you, sleep and eat more regularly now because you really don't need to be up all night thinking. Your brain needs to cool down sometime when it been running with no food in your stomach. I know habits are hard to break but you should try. It doesn't matter what kind of changes were to your system you're still human and need the bare basics." Lucas smile had left his face by the in as he turned into his more professional persona. He stood from the cot and stuffed his hands in his pockets, nodding his head farewell.

Kadaj looked at the doctor as he left, not turning his head in curiosity. He watched the dent in the cot rises, listening to the foot steps of the two men leaving. The door of the hall shut with a thud that echoed though the whole hall. Kadaj didn't move for a minute and stared at the wall in front of him. What was there to do now but wait until something happens? He thought back on the advices that he got from the doctor. He would sleep more if he didn't have dreams about people he had hurt and people he didn't know. His dreams were never very pleasant but some were filled with scenes from the world after Jenova and Sephiroth had been reunited.

Kadaj had trained his body to athletic perfection as a teenage and as a young child. He hadn't thought of it much he had been concentrated on find his mother after he had left Shinra's labs along with his brothers. The well being of his body was never a priority in his head just the fact he could keep going forward with his mother's wishes. He had nothing else to do now but think and sleep. He needed a plan on how he would live if he got out. 'If' being the accentuated word.

Kadaj walked over to his cot and lied down on the mattress. The place where Lucas had sat was still warm and Kadaj was pulled towards the warmth it gave off. He curled on his side warping his arms around his torso. His eyes shifted all over making sure no one could see him in such a weak state, showing vulnerability. He wished he could go back to way things were. Nothing he cared was here anymore nor his purpose.

'Things won't change now. I'll just live like I did before just without my brothers. Everything will get better and I will be the same, I'll wake up tomorrow and here about my decided punishment.'

Kadaj went to sleep with this on his mind but, he didn't know how wrong he was.


Sweet merciful heavens!!! How long has it been since I updated!?! My wrong against you can't be expressed please review Not Flame. Tell ne things that you like and if you find something wrong tell me because I don't have a beta and I edit badly. The next should be up by the end of the month at least, sorry I have lots of stories in the making.

(P.S. Purgatory-cleansing,purify or expiate)