Author's Note: I appreciate the reviews. Thank you so much. I have been trying hard to please everyone, this being my first fanfiction with an original character. Thanks again for adding me to your Story Alert list. Once again, anything you recognize as JKR's I do not own. Also, I know that Jordayna seems to slip into a different personality in this chapter, but I know that is what happens when people are broken in the way she is. Happy Reading!


"Until you crash

Until you burn

Until you lie

Until you learn

Until you see

Until you believe

Until you fight

Until you fall

Until the end of everything at all

Until you die

Until you're alive!"

"Savior"-30 Seconds to Mars

Chapter Seven: Save Me from the Crash

"Parkinson!" Draco yelled to Pansy when the Heads Group caught up to her in a corridor. The rest stood back as Draco confronted her.

"Yes, Draco?" Pansy answered sweetly even though she cringed when Draco used her last name.

"Where's Jordayna? She went to meet you and she hasn't come back."

"I don't know. She never showed. She was probably too afraid I guess."

"I doubt it." Harry said stepping forward.

"Draco, I can't believe you brought those lesser beings with you! I thought you were better than that!"

"Don't change the subject. I know she went to see you I walked her to the castle doors." Draco told her.

"Well then she went somewhere else from there. She never met me."

"Fine, but if you are lying, I'll make sure you wished you were never born." Draco threatened raising his wand at her to emphasize his point because something told him she was lying.

"Malfoy, we should go, we have the whole castle to search." Harry said to him. He knew Malfoy would throw an Unforgivable at Pansy if they didn't get him out of there.

"Yes if we don't find her, we'll go to Professor McGonagall." Hermione reassured him.

Draco lowered his wand and Pansy sighed with relief and stomped off.

"We'll find her." Ginny offered. Harry put a hand on his shoulder.

"I hope so, for Pansy's sake because if she was lying then I will hex her into next week."


I stirred awake. I hadn't known what happened after the curse hit me, but I think I could figure it out. Nott has always wanted me for sex. It was the main reason he had started to date me in our fourth year. He constantly had been trying to get me alone and naked. I hadn't broken up with him because someone was finally accepting me.

"I see you've finally come back love. I have to say I enjoyed you thoroughly. If you don't want to go crazy from being Imperiused too many times, then I suggest you stop the mind tricks and do things more willingly."

I could only nod. I would do whatever he wanted to never wake-up with this feeling again.

"Good girl, now drink this." He handed me something. I assumed it was a Befuddlement Potion. I drank it and hoped to Merlin someone would save me.


They had searched for a few more hours before Hermione made them go to McGonagall.

"Students, what are you doing out at this late hour?" McGonagall had prodded the moment they had gone to her office.

"Professor, Jordayna Mallerd is missing." Hermione explained.

"When did you see her last?"

"Draco took about fifteen minutes to explain the entire situation to her.

"I see. She has been dueling with Ms. Parkinson. More importantly, Miss Parkinson is the last person was supposed to have seen her. Miss Greengrass please go to your dormitory and retrieve Miss Parkinson. Mr. Zabini alert Professor Slughorn that his Head Girl is missing and that I will need him here with Veritaserum."

The students nodded and did as they were told. Draco, Harry, Ron, Hermione, Ginny, Zacharias, and Luna sat down in chairs that McGonagall conjured for them. Draco was visibly uneasy.

"Mr. Malfoy, is there something wrong?"

"Yes, Professor, can I speak to you privately?" Draco asked giving Harry a look. Harry nodded knowing that he was about to tell McGonagall about Jordayna's mental abilities.

"Sure Mr. Malfoy, will the rest of you wait in the corridor a moment." McGonagall commanded more than asked.

"Malfoy, we're her friends too. We want to know what's going on!" Ginny demanded.

"No, it's okay everyone. Let him talk to her." Harry commanded. He knew that Jordayna wanted to keep her abilities a secret and made sure they did. He nodded to Malfoy as the others headed out. He trailed behind to make sure they were all out.

"Now what is it?"

"Um, Jordayna has special abilities."

"Go on."

"She's able to do magic mentally. It is one of the reasons most of her duels with Pansy ended quickly. Pansy was not a match for the mental ability Jordayna has, and Pansy found out. She wanted to tell the whole school to make everyone shun her."

"Oh, Mr. Malfoy, I already knew, but if Miss Parkinson then she could have found a way to use it against her."

"That is what I was worried about." Draco admitted.

There was a knock at the door. McGonagall crossed to it. She opened it a small crack to see who it was.

"Come in Professor Slughorn. Good evening Miss Parkinson."

"Why am I here?" Pansy whined.

"Do you have the potion?"

"Yes, Headmistress."

"Miss Parkinson you are here because it has come to my attention that Miss Mallerd is missing. You were to have been the last person to see her.

Half an hour later Pansy had told them all about Nott's plan to keep Jordayna as his own at a small family home he owned in the southern part of the country. She talked all about the planted Portkey to kidnap her. Draco was boiling with anger. She was out there somewhere being held captive by a prick.

"We'll alert the Ministry and her parents. Thank you students for bringing this straight to me."


Morning was finally here. I spent a good portion of the night doing things I did not want to do with Nott. He handed me another goblet it was the second dose of the Befuddlement Potion. Under its pull I am unable to do any of the more complicated mental magic. I miss my friends, my family, and unexpectedly I miss Draco the most. It has only been twelve hours since I left Hogwarts, but it felt like days.

"You should stop thinking and get some sleep. I have a meeting with my godfather over some business dealings."

"Okay." I agreed. I had broken. I could not say no now. I lost everything I had been. I was no longer worthy of anything. I crawled back to the bed where I had given Nott my body unwillingly. I shuttered on the bed and looked at the ceiling. Over on the dresser there was a picture of Nott with the other boys of our year in Slytherin. Draco was smirking, Blaise was making faces, Nott was grinning, and others were crowding around Draco and Blaise. It was funny because at that moment I thought Draco and Blaise started to wave at me.


The Heads Group had not slept at all after they were dismissed from McGonagall's office. They hung out in the common room trying to reassure Draco everything was going to be okay. The only one who looked grim was Harry. Draco appreciated that Harry hadn't offered any comforting words.

"Thanks for not offering solace." Draco thanked Harry.

"You are welcome. I won't offer it because I know what you are thinking and it only makes those thoughts worse. You're blaming yourself and wishing you had gone with her to the Quidditch pitch. I won't tell you it'll be okay, but I will say that they'll do their best to find her."

"Thanks Potter. Who would have thought that you and I would be standing here as friends today worrying over the same person?"

"I'm not sure I even believe it sometimes, and if someone would have suggested it before this year, I probably would have hexed them."

"Want me to make breakfast?" Hermione asked from behind them. "Professor McGonagall has excused us from class to rest from the night."

"Sure. Thanks Granger."

"No problem Malfoy. She's our friend too. I'm sorry that Pansy and Nott did this to her just as much as you are. I want to make the best of it. I know we were enemies in the past, but today we our two friends worried over someone we care about."

"I'm sorry too." Ginny added. She took Harry's hand. She remembered the time spent worrying about Harry so she sympathized with Draco. The difference being Draco knew what was happening to Jordayna.


He had brought me into the shower with him. He wanted to see me wet. I was crying because I knew he wouldn't notice. He got upset when I cried and would use the Cruciatus Curse. I think I've been here for about a week. Why hadn't anyone found me? I can't take this anymore. He come from behind me and touches my breasts. I try not to cringe because that makes him throw curses and hexes too. I let him do this to me while I try to block it out. His stronger doses of the Befuddlement Potion have worn out my mental capabilities completely. I just think of Draco and hope one day we'll be okay again. I know he won't like me anymore after this, but I still hope we can stay friends. I think about leaving this small estate in Canterbury. London is less than a two hour drive away. I know I would not make it though. I don't have a car, and Nott has wards on this place. I think of my father. I hope he still loves me when they find me, if they ever do.


Draco shot up. He saw images of Jordayna in a shower. He could see that Nott was with her. It was like he was in her mind for a moment. She had thought for a fleeting moment about how Canterbury was only a short drive away from London. She wanted to see him and her father and stepmother. He had to tell McGonagall.

"Are you sure?" McGonagall asked a second time.

"Yes."

"I'll let the Aurors on her case know at once. You should owl her father. He has been worried about her. Did you meet him when he was here?"

"Yes. I will owl him at once." Draco answered. He had met Robert Mallerd on many occasions as his father had made it a point to know the wealthiest wizard from America.

(Memory)

"Yes Mr. Malfoy, I've heard so much about you. Thank you for joining us. This is my wife, Kathleen, and my daughter, Jordayna." Mr. Mallerd had introduced the tall blonde and short strawberry-brunette to my father as I sat there emotionless. Father always said I was to be seen and not heard at those functions. I only spoke when spoken to by an older wizard.

"I'm so sorry. Where are my manners? This is my son, Draco. I believe he's already met your daughter at school?" I knew Father was waiting for my reply, but the Halfblood beat me to it.

"Of course Draco and I know each other Mr. Malfoy. We are in the same year and house." Jordayna said with such false sweetness in her voice you'd think she was one of us.

"Is that so? Well it must be nice to have American blood in Slytherin. You are a beautiful young witch too. I see where you get your lovely dark hair from, but what about those majestic eyes?" Father asked glancing between Mr. and Mrs. Mallerd. I knew she got her ever-changing eyes from her birth mother. All of Hogwarts knew Jordayna Mallerd's mother was a Muggle to whom her father was no longer married.

"I get my eyes from my mother. She is an American Muggle." Jordayna answered with a tone that dared Father to make a comment.

"Well isn't that lovely?" He asked in a condescending way.

Later when we arrived back at the Manor, Father was disagreeable with me.

"How could you not tell me about her, when you obviously know her?"

"Honestly Father, she slipped my mind." I lazily drawled. It was not a wise decision because he punished me with a Cruciatus Curse and sent me to bed. I could hear him yelling through the vents. He was cursing her too. She had talked to him in a tone. No one talks to Father in a tone and survives the wrath.


I could feel arms lifting me from the bed, but I didn't turn to see the person. I believed Nott was just back for another round. He had given me a thick-strapped, low-cut tank top and a pair of silk green boxers to sleep in.

"Jordayna Mallerd?" A male voice I didn't recognize asked.

"Yes." I answered meekly.

"I am Auror McKinley. I'm here to get you out of this place."

I wept. I couldn't believe someone had finally found me.

"Ssh, it's okay. We're going to take you back to Hogwarts. Madame Pomfrey will be able to fix you." He told me, but he was wrong. No one could fix how broken I had become.