Author's Note: Sorry this took awhile to get out, but it's been a long weekend. Once again JKR's stuff is hers anything else is mine (minus the songs of course). Happy Reading!
"Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight"
"I Miss You"-Blink 182
Chapter Eight: Miss Me
Auror McKinley had held onto me and we apparated to Hogsmeade and from there we Flooed to McGonagall's office.
"Professor McGonagall, we found her."
"Oh thank Merlin." She came over to where he was holding me. She felt my head. My skin was ice cold and clammy because Nott had only let me use him for warmth and I probably had lost a kilogram because he barely fed me. "We need to get her to the hospital wing."
McKinley carried me to the hospital wing where he gently laid me on a bed. Madame Pomfrey came over and started fussing with examining me. I just wanted to never move again and my friends and family.
"Can I see my father, mother, and friends?" I meekly managed to ask. I just wanted to see people who cared about me.
"Oh of course dear, I'll let them know you are here at once. Let Madame Pomfrey attend to you." McGonagall answered and rushed off somewhere.
Within minutes, the entire Heads Group was by my bedside. Ginny rushed to me and gave me a back-breaking hug. Harry told me he was glad to see me alive. Ron and Hermione seconded his opinion. Daphne and Blaise each gave me a hug. Draco held my hand and stared at me in disbelief.
"Students, please let Miss Mallerd breathe. I need to finish examining her." Madame Pomfrey scolded. Everyone but Draco backed away. She looked at him sternly, but he shook his head. Madame Pomfrey just went about her examining around him.
"Jordayna!" Someone exclaimed from the doorway of the hospital wing. I looked over to see my father and Mum rushing towards me. I was so grateful to see them. They both hugged me much to Madame Pomfrey's dismay. "I am so glad they found you. Are you okay? What happened?"
"Daddy, I'm really too tired to answer so many questions." I told him. I really did feel awful. I tried to remove my hand from Draco's as not to make my father uncomfortable, but it only drew more attention to the situation.
"Mr. Malfoy." My father nodded his head to acknowledge Draco next to me.
"Mr. Mallerd." Draco nodded back.
"Jordayna, Kathleen, will you excuse me and Mr. Malfoy a moment?"
"Sure, darling." Mum answered. I just nodded. Madame Pomfrey was happy to be able to reach me fully again in order to finish her examinations.
"Well deary, you'll need to stay here over night, but there's nothing more I can do for you. I will want you to come back in two weeks, however, so you can do a small check-up. I told her I would. She then shared a look with Mum and pulled her out into the corridor where my father and Draco were talking. A few seconds after they went out there, Draco had entered.
"What was that all about?"
"Your father just wanted to protect you, but I told him that I had every intention of doing the same." Draco answered taking my hand again. It was so comforting, that when Madame Pomfrey re-entered with my father and Mum in step, I was sad to hear her usher all of them out.
"We'll be back in the morning before we leave for home. We trust that you are in safe hands again." Mum told me as she bent down to kiss my forehead. "Thanks Mum." I mumbled back as my father did the same before exiting to wherever McGonagall was letting them stay for the night.
"I'll be back in the morning too." Draco said reassuringly. He and the others left.
The others and I made it back to the common room. I couldn't shake the way she looked lying there in the hospital bed with jagged gray irises and loss of weight. I could tell just by holding her hand that Nott had barely done enough to keep her alive for himself. It made me seethe with anger.
"Here, take this. Go back to her. She needs you." Harry said handing me his Invisibility Cloak.
"I can't borrow that, Potter. It was your father's."
"It's fine Malfoy. Take it. It's just for tonight."
"Okay." I answered taking the cloak from him. He walked upstairs to go to bed. I took the cloak and wrapped it around myself. I adjusted it to make sure I was completely covered. I then ventured out of the portrait hole and towards the hospital wing.
It took me about fifteen minutes to get there. She was still lying on her bed completely awake. I made sure that Madame Pomfrey had retired for the evening and then went over to her side.
"Hey Mallerd." I greeted as I took off the cloak. She jumped a little. "Oh, I'm sorry. I just wanted to see you. You've been gone for a week and I can't imagine what he did to you. I don't want to imagine what he did to you. I want to kill him."
"It's okay Draco. I'm fine."
"You're so damn stubborn. Of course you are not fine! You were kidnapped! He took you away from us. Damnit Jordayna, just let me taker care of you." I said as I climbed up onto her bed.
"I know I'm stubborn. It's how I survive. I'm not used to having someone. I don't know how to react to it. I'm sorry." Jordayna admitted while she started to cry. "I just don't know how to react. He had me for a week. He used the Imperius Curse on me. After waking up from that and not knowing what had happened…I just gave in. I let him give me the Befuddlement Potion to block out my mental magic. I just gave into him Draco. I was too much of a coward for death instead I let him use me. I'm a whore." She was sobbing. I held onto her. I wanted to kill Nott with every fiber of my being.
"You are not a whore. You did what you needed to do. You did what was necessary to keep yourself alive. Trust me if anybody understands that, it's me. You are a beautiful eighteen-year-old woman who had to deal with a terrible situation. You did what you felt would keep you alive. You are not a whore." I reassured her as I caressed her arm.
"That's not all of it. Madame Pomfrey thinks I could be pregnant. She wants me to come back in two weeks to tell for sure. What do you think of me now?" She said as she bowed her head.
"I think that you have a lot of people who would support and care for you. I would."
She looked up at me. She had a watery smile. "Really?"
"I promise. I think I might love you. You're smart, brave, stubborn, devious, and beautiful." I confessed to her.
"You love me?"
I did, and I told her so, "Yes, I do."
"I love you too. The only thing that kept me going for the last week was that I thought I'd get to see you again."
Two weeks later, I was sitting in the hospital wing behind a curtain with Madame Pomfrey. She was telling me that I was carrying Nott's child. I had hoped that since the last two weeks had been better than she expected she might not be pregnant.
"Do you want me to alert your parents?"
"No I'll write them. I'm guessing that they'll be expecting something from me today. You told them the night I was brought back right?"
Madame Pomfrey nodded. She hugged me. "I'm so sorry. I wish I could do something for you, but I can't. I can give you some potions to ease morning sickness and other things."
I nodded and took the vials she gave me. Afterwards, I went back to the common room where everyone was awaiting the news. I shared the information with them because I trusted them. They had all been so worried about me when I was gone.
"Inter-house relations." I said to the portrait of Dumbledore. He let me in the room. The whole gang happened to be sitting around keeping themselves occupied.
"I'm pregnant." I announced sadly.
"We're so sorry." Ginny said hugging me. "But if you need anything, we'll take care of you. We won't let you do this alone."
"No, you will not do this alone." Hermione agreed.
"We're all here to help you." Daphne and Luna chimed in and gathered around me. Draco sensed my overwhelmed feeling and came to my side.
"I think after this news you need to get some rest." He said taking my hand and leading me upstairs to my room. I was in a haze. I let him lead. "Are you going to be okay for N.E.W.T.s tomorrow?"
I nodded. It wasn't N.E.W.T.s I was worried about. It was what my mother and stepfather would say when I went to visit them for the second part of break when they found out I was pregnant. "N.E.W.T.s are something I can handle. It's what my mother and her husband are going to say and do to me when I get to Chicago this break."
"Wow Ron you did real well!" Jordayna exclaimed because everyone was celebrating their N.E.W.T. scores and their next term positions.
"I can't believe I actually passed everything!" He said excitedly. "I still can't believe I get to teach flying with Harry!"
"I get to teach Charms!" Hermione squealed. "And Daphne is helping. I can't wait! Next term is going to be the most fun we've had at Hogwarts!"
"Blaise gets to teach first years Transfiguration." Daphne announced.
"That's really great."
"What are you two teaching?" Daphne asked Jordayna.
"We actually both got assigned first year Potions." Draco answered for her.
"That totally works!" Daphne said excitedly.
"I know! Ugh, is that really the time? I need to go finish packing for the train tomorrow." Jordayna explained. She went upstairs to her room.
"Hey there, I had a question for you." Draco was standing in the doorway to the bathroom.
"Yes?"
"Would I be able to accompany you to Chicago? I've never been before. I think it would be fun, plus you'll have some support if your mother and stepfather give you grief over the other thing."
"I would love that! I'll let Daddy know! I'll have him get you a ticket." She said as she flung herself into his arms. "I love you."
"I love you too. Well I'll leave you to finish packing. I'll be back for bed." He said as he started to head back to his own room.
"Draco?"
"Hmm?"
"Thanks."
"Pleasure's all mine."
The first couple of days with Daddy and Mum were amazing. They were supportive and told me that I would get through this pregnancy and that they would pay for things. I cried many times because of how grateful I was to be blessed with them. They were amazing people.
It was Christmas Eve and we were sitting in front of the fireplace reading. It was a tradition we had. We would just sit and read until midnight. At midnight, we would wish each other a Merry Christmas and then head to bed. In the morning, we would eat a really big breakfast and then unwrap presents. I no longer believed in Santa Claus but that didn't stop them from buying me the same amount of presents. I was grateful even though I didn't believe I deserved them.
The grandfather clock in the front hall struck twelve. "Well, goodnight dear daughter. We'll see you in the morning." Daddy said as he bent and kissed my forehead.
"Goodnight Daddy. Goodnight Mum. Merry Christmas."
"Merry Christmas." They both said as they headed to their room. I followed slowly behind them. My room was empty. I missed actual sleep. Something I only got with Draco around, but I would be seeing him in two days when we flew to Chicago.
When I finally woke up Christmas Day, I suffered a little from some light morning sickness, but it subsided. When I knew that it would be gone for the rest of the day I headed down to the breakfast table in the kitchen. Daddy and Mum were already there. They were eating our favorite breakfast.
"I made sure the house elves saved you some." Daddy said to me as I put two French toast slices on my plate and added a heap of strawberries and whipped cream to them.
"You're going to be hyper all day if you do that." Mum scolded. It really wasn't true anymore, but I think she liked to say it out of tradition.
"No I won't. I promise." I said in my best little kid's voice. It made her smile.
We were gathered in front of our eight-foot lavishly decorated Christmas tree. I was handing out the presents among the three of us. I of course ended up with the biggest pile. I said thank you a million times like I did every year. I felt like Daddy over-spent on me every year.
I started to unwrap my presents. I had gotten six new books, a poster of a band from back home, three new outfits, and baby things. I started to cry.
"Do you not like them?" Mum asked me.
"No, I do, it just makes this so real. And I feel bad because I don't want to have this baby. I know it makes me a bad person, but I just want it to go away." I cried. Mum came over and gave me a hug.
"I know baby doll, but we just have to deal with what we're dealt. I love you. You'll be okay we promise you."
I wished it were that easy.
Draco had met us at Heathrow two days after Christmas. It was going to be his first time on an airplane. I wished I could tell him that it would be fine, but I didn't believe that myself so I'd be lying.
"Do these things really fly with something other than magic?"
"Yes."
"And you trust that?"
"Nope, but my mother refuses to see me unless I take Muggle transportation."
"Well then, onward with the airplane."
We were sitting in two seats on the left side of the plane. I let Draco have the window seat because I hated looking out of it. It always made me want to throw up and since I was already in a state of throwing up unnecessarily, I felt it was a wise choice.
All throughout the flight, Draco was anxious and excited at the same time. He enjoyed the in-flight movie and let me sleep on his shoulder. It was the first flight that I didn't have to put on a personal music charm.
"Attention passengers. We will be arriving at O'Hare in Chicago momentarily. Please fasten your seatbelts for the landing." The pilot announced to the flight.
I got off the plane only to run to the nearest bathroom and throw up. The descent caused my morning sickness to flare up. I came out of the restroom.
"Okay?" Draco asked.
"Yes, just some awful morning sickness. Let's head to the arrivals section. Our car should be waiting there."
"Your mother isn't here to pick you up?"
"Welcome to my world Malfoy. You've seen how Daddy is with me. Well now you're going to see the polar opposite with my mother. It's going to be a pleasant ten days. I promise you." I muttered with sarcasm.
"It'll be okay. I'm here for you."
"I know. I'm grateful."
The car had dropped us off at the front of the house and both my brothers were there to help unload mine and Draco's luggage. "Hello Jordayna!" Michael hugged me and grabbed one of my bags. "Who are you?" He asked Draco.
"Michael, this is Draco. He's my boyfriend. Mother said he could spend the vacation with me here. He's going to be staying in the guest room on the third floor."
"I don't know why she does that to you. You live in this tiny room in the basement and she gives your guest a room three times the size of yours." Daniel, my other brother, said from behind Michael.
"Daniel this is Draco. Where's Nicolette?"
"She'll be here later. She couldn't stop helping investigations just because it's Christmas." Daniel answered sarcastically.
I settled into my room, and mentally prepared myself for the verbal abuse I was going to receive at dinner tonight.
