I'm sorry for not updating for a while! I have been very busy with school! I know it's a lame excuse but oh well. I also couldn't figure out what I wanted next to happen, so I hope you like this chapter. This isn't my best chapter, let me tell you that. Oh and thanks to CullenGirl30 because I know this story is kinda boring, but you still review! Thanks to all the other reviewers too.
BPOV:
Edward and I walked up to the school silently. We hadn't said a thing to each other since I got in his car since he picked me up. We walked and walked and walked until we got to our first period class. We were really early, so we just sat in our seats. Our seats were near the window, and I had the seat closest to the window.
I looked out the window and saw it was raining. I love the rain. I love the fresh smell it gives to the world, the feel of water dripping onto my face, the taste it has when a drop falls on my tongue, the sound it makes when the raindrops hit the ground, and the sight it happens to make. Just the sight of the rain falling down to the earth makes me feel complete. When I think of rain, I think that the earth is crying. Crying because of sadness or joy, who knows, but the earth is crying. Right now the earth is crying of sadness because of Laurent. Why did Laurent have to die? Why did he have to leave this world?! Why did he leave Tanya? Why did he leave us all? Why him?? I was getting angrier within the second, not because of Laurent's death, but because Tanya would not tell us what happened that night. I clenched my fists and started glaring daggers at the rain. No! Laurent is not dead! He didn't leave us! He wouldn't leave us! He shouldn't leave us!! He just wouldn't! I can't believe he is dead! No no NO!!
"Bella, please relax. Please talk to me. What is going on through that pretty little head of yours?" Edward asked. I totally forget about my surroundings and looked around. Everybody has already taken his or her seats, and we were watching a movie today.
"Nothing. I'm thinking on nothing! Nothing is wrong! Do you think something is wrong?!" I snapped at him.
I couldn't believe I just did that, but goddammit I was angry! I felt guilty that I was so harsh, but I just couldn't let my disturbing thoughts get out of my head. Once I saw his face, I softened a bit. He looked like somebody had just told him his puppy died. He looked shocked, of course, but hurt too. Hurt that I was not telling the truth and I was being rude. I grew guiltier, but I didn't say anything. We turned towards the television and bored our eyes in the television. I just sat there and zoned out, clearing out my thoughts. Eternity later, the lights turned on and the bell rung. Edward and I silently got up and walked down the hall. We passed by Jessica and Lauren, and I heard a part of their conversation.
"I know! Tanya is such a bitch! She didn't shed a tear this morning. She looked normal, like nothing ever happened! The whole school knows about Laurent and we even told her! But she didn't say anything, she just looked away! I bet she was with him just to get laid!" I stopped in my tracks, and turned slightly. Edward noticed this, and gripped my hand firmly.
Jessica added, "I know, ugh that whore. She's messed up, like a freak. No wonder she hangs out with Bella, they're both freaks!" That's it! Oh hell no was I going to let this go by without any warning! I stalked up towards them and tapped them both on their shoulders. They turned around and once they saw me, they looked at me with disgust. I simply scoffed at them.
"Hey bitches. You both shut up about Tanya! Nobody talks about my friend like that! And you have no right to call Tanya a whore! In fact, you're the whores. SLUTS of the SCHOOL! And you know what? I am not a freak! Neither is Tanya! So BOTH of you have to shut the fuck up!! And keep off of MY BOYFRIEND because he isn't interested! The only girl he wants is me! See?" I went up to Edward and kissed him hard in front of those sluts, and I mean with tongue and everything. I went back up to them and said, "Got it? He's mine! So back off! Go fuck yourselves bitches! And get out of my way!"
I pushed past both of them and ran to the door. I pushed open the door and went outside where it was raining. I tilted my head up to get some rainwater on my face, and then went over to a bench and sat down. I looked at my hands in my lap and started thinking over what just happened. I did it. I finally had my word out there. Isabella Swan is not a freak! And I won this fight, fair and square, and they know it.
Edward caught up with me and sat down next to me and pulled me up on his lap. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my forehead. He rested his chin on my forehead while I took in his smell and presence. And I started crying. And when I mean crying, I mean crying hard. I cried for who knows how long, but I fucking cried. I cried for Tanya, Laurent, my friends, my family, and for myself. Once I cleared up I decided I was ready to talk.
"Edward, I'm sorry for earlier. I was just upset. Why did Laurent have to die?! I don't think I can handle it at the funeral! Laurent was my best guy friend, next to James! They were like my brothers because we have been friends since elementary school! They helped me get through the torturous years. I just can't let the fact that he's dead sink in. He isn't dead! He can't be! He wouldn't do this to me! He would stay alive for us..." And I kept on rambling on and on.
Finally, Edward cut me off and said, "Bella, he is dead. I hate telling you this, but I have to. He is dead, and I am upset too. I know I've known him since the beginning of this year, but he's become my friend too. I know this is really hard for you, and I just want to let you know that I will be here for you. You can always tell me anything. You know that, right?" He looked at me with loving eyes. Loving? Did I say loving? No, we have only been in a relationship for 2 months. He can't have those feeling for me, or can he? But the question is do I have those feelings for him?
"Yes Edward I know I can tell you anything. I just really want to get back to class now. And one more thing, can you do a favor for me?"
"Of course anything. You name it."
"Can you protect me from Lauren and Jessica? I don't think I'm their favorite person right now."
Edward chuckled and ran his hands through my hair. "Of course. I have to say, I wouldn't want to get on your bad side. You should have seen their faces before you left!"
I laughed with him, and wound my arms around his neck, locking my hands together. He leaned forward and placed his lips on mine. My eyes closed and I started listening to my instincts. He licked my bottom lip, asking for entrance. Our tongues battled for dominance, and he won. His tongue reached everywhere in my mouth, like he was searching for something. We kissed for who knows how long, but we had to break apart for air. But that didn't stop his kisses. He kissed along my jaw and started going down my neck. I loved this so much, but I had to let it stop, because we might get caught.
"Edward, we have to stop. We're still at school. We have to go back.." He frowned slightly, but stopped anyway.
It stopped raining, and we both got up. We started heading towards the school and got in. I looked at my watch and saw I had to go to gym. I groaned, knowing I would probably get hurt today by the tennis rackets. Let me tell you, tennis is not my kind of sport. We walked to my locker and I got out my ipod (just in case we are running).
"Hey Bella. Edward." I heard an unwelcome voice. We turned and saw Mark. I looked at him disgusted and annoyed.
"What. Do. You. Want." I said. Damn I'm on a roll today.
He looked down at his feet and stated, " I heard about Laurent. Look I'm very sorry. Once I heard this, I felt terrible for the way I've had treated you and your friends. And now that Laurent is gone, I know that I can never apologize to him. You must understand that I am truly sorry. I would do anything to become friends again. Remember all those times we would hang out and we would say that we would stick together no matter what. Remember we would plan out our future and we would be best friends ever? That we don't care what others think, and it's just us. Remember all those good times? Let's go back to those times. Please. I would do anything. Let's just make a truce. I am tired of this tension that we have between us." He looked up and took my breath away with those dark eyes that I use to love and adore.
"How do I know that you're not using me? Maybe you are using me so it looks like you were affected by Laurent's death also and you can have a sob story?"
"Please believe me. I am being sincere. I will change. I hate that whenever you look at me you look at me with disgust and disapproval. Think about it. I know I have been cruel to you for so many years, but I am going to change. Can't we be friends again? Bella, please. I know you loved me, and I loved you back. It was young love, we were both so young. You and I both know there is a connection between us, don't try to deny it. Please. You have to believe me." He looked at me with those mysterious dark eyes during his speech and I couldn't think of what to say.
Maybe he did change. But why would he change? Or maybe he is lying. But why would he lie? When he mentioned young love, Edward's grip on my hand got firmer. I know when Mark mentioned that he didn't mean a romantic relationship with me, just a friendship. Yes there has always been a connection between Mark and I; I couldn't deny it. But not the same kind of connection Edward and I have. A different one. And the connection between Mark and I … that is why the friendship break-up struck me so hard, and to see his face everyday from that dreadful day just looking at me like I was a nobody. Aw fuck, this sucks. I have no idea what to say. I still have to see Tanya and see how she is holding up. Victoria and James dropped her off at her house from the hospital, and she was bawling her eyes out. She had a major break down, Victoria said. I still have to check up on her. What do I say? There are just too many things going on. Laurent's death. Tanya's strange mood. Mark's apology and truce. The new strong feelings for Edward.
I just have to check off them all one by one, starting with Mark's truce offer.
So what do you think she should say? Yes or no? Please tell me your thoughts on the story so far! Bad? Good? Oh and please review! I know you guys read this story, now you have to review! I update soooo much faster if I get more reviews. =D
